“Make it twenty-one,” Kane suggested, chasing after Adam as he dribbled the ball up the court.
Adam feinted left, then went right, darting around Kane, sprinting toward the basket, and sinking an easy layup. “Done,” he agreed.
That was the end of the talking. After that it was all grunting and panting, punctuated by the occasional groan of displeasure as a ball rolled off the rim or a hoot of triumph after a wild shot from the three-point line sailed in with nothing but net. An hour passed, and soon they were playing in the shadows, tracking a sound and a silhouette to chase down the ball, shooting as much by feel as by sight.
Kane sank the final shot. “Twenty-one!” he crowed.
He always won. Adam felt the familiar anger bubble up, but instead of exploding, it just popped and drizzled away, like a string of soap bubbles turning to mist. “Good game,” he grunted, slapping Kane’s sweaty palm. He grabbed his water bottle and dumped it over his head, closing his eyes and tipping his face up to the cool stream.
“Morgan…?” Kane, who looked as sleek and unruffled as when he’d first appeared, tossed Adam his shirt and a second bottle of water. He rubbed his lower back and looked over toward the empty parking lot. “Look. About… everything…”
“Forget it, Geary.” Adam pulled his shirt on over his dripping torso and grabbed the ball out of Kane’s loose grip. He rolled it around in his hands, enjoying the familiar grooves and ridges of its rough grain. “Rematch tomorrow?” he suggested. He turned his back on Kane without waiting for an answer and headed for the car.
“Same time, same place,” Kane agreed from behind him, and it was impossible to tell whether his unfailingly sardonic tone masked relief, eagerness, apathy, or regret.
Adam bounced the ball a few times, then tossed it high in the air and caught it with his eyes closed, cupping his hands in a loose cradle and stretching them out to where he knew the ball would be. “I’ll be there.”
“Aw yeah, that’s right.” The one named Hale clapped his hands together once as Fish hoisted a giant glass tube out of the crawl space behind the lopsided couch. “Give it here, dude.”
“Hold your shit,” Fish said, flourishing a lighter.
Beth tucked her hair behind her ears and tried not to look nervous.
Get out, her instincts screamed.
“You okay?” Reed asked, as if he could sense her discomfort. It probably wasn’t too hard, she realized, since she was squeezed into the corner of the couch, as far away from Fish as she could get, her arms scrunched up against her sides and her mouth glued shut. She nodded.
“Over here, baby,” Hale requested, beckoning Fish to hand over the bong.
“Dude, don’t you have any manners?” Fish grabbed one of the discarded fast-food wrappers off the ground, scrunched it up, and threw it at his head. “Ladies first.” He stretched across the couch and handed the long, glass tube to Beth, giving her an encouraging nod. She noticed that his hair was even paler than hers, and almost as long.
“Guys, I don’t think…” Reed, who was perched on an orange milk crate, leaned forward, speaking softly enough that only Beth could hear. “You don’t have to. We can go, if you want.”
He’d said the same thing when they’d walked into the house and he’d seen the look on her face. There were some empty rooms upstairs, he’d suggested, if she didn’t want to hang with the guys-and then he’d flushed, stumbling over his words, hurrying to explain that he hadn’t meant bedrooms, not like that. Or they could just go. Anywhere. But for some reason, Beth had insisted they stay, and now here she was, the bong delicately balanced in her hands, nauseating fumes rising toward her, a trippy hip-hop beat shaking the walls-which were covered with fading posters of half-naked women-and for the first time that day, Beth smiled.
“Just tell me what to do,” she said firmly. She’d always sworn she wouldn’t smoke pot-it was illegal, not to mention dangerous. But she was already a criminal, she reminded herself, and danger didn’t scare her anymore- things couldn’t get much worse. If she could find a way to turn off her brain, maybe, for a little while, they could actually be better.
Reed didn’t try to talk her out of it, and didn’t ask about the sudden change of heart. He just rested his hand on top of hers and guided the opening toward her mouth, then gently pressed her finger over a small hole and flicked on the lighter. “Take a deep breath, but don’t-”
A spasm of coughing wracked through her body and she inadvertently jerked the bong away, spilling warm, grayish water all over her jeans. “Sorry,” she mumbled, her face flushing red.
“No problem. Take a smaller breath the next time,” Reed suggested. “And don’t uncover the hole until you’re ready. Then suck the smoke into your mouth and kind of breathe it down into your lungs.”
“Okay, I think-” She broke off as another cough ripped out of her. Reed put his hand on her back, rubbing in small, slow circles.
“Take it easy,” he said quietly. “Go slow.”
“I’m okay. I’m okay,” she protested, straightening up so that he would take his hand away, even though it was the last thing she wanted. “Let me try this again.” This time she got a hot lungful down without much coughing. She passed the bong to Fish and leaned back against the couch, waiting for it to take effect.
“Man, this is some good shit!” Fish sputtered as he took his mouth off the tube.
“Totally,” Hale agreed after his turn, already looking tuned out to the world.
Reed didn’t say anything after his turn, just fixed his eyes on Beth. She looked away, waiting for the room to start spinning or her tongue to start feeling absurdly big. She felt nothing, except the same panic and fear she’d felt for days.
“Time for another little toke,” Hale said eagerly, grabbing it back. “Yeah, that’s good. Dude, I’m totally high.”
“It’s like… yeah. Cool,” Fish agreed.
“Hey, uh… Reed’s girl, you feeling it?” Hale asked.
Lesson one of getting stoned: Talk about how stoned you are. Beth learned fast. “Yeah,” she lied. “It’s really wild.”
”Dude, Fish, you know what I just realized? You totally look like a girl,” Hale cried, a burst of giggles flooding out of him.
Fish ran his fingers through his straggly, straw-colored hair as if realizing it was there for the first time, then looked at Beth in wonderment. “Yeah,” he agreed. “And I must be hot. Blondes are hot.”
Beth laughed weakly and searched herself for hysteria, paranoia, munchies-something to testify to the fact that she’d just ingested an illegal substance for the first time in her life. But she felt, if anything, more self-conscious than ever, as if they could all tell that her mind was running at normal speed and that she was, even here, a total fraud.
“You usually don’t feel much the first time,” Reed confided, again using that just-for-her voice. “You didn’t do it wrong.”
Once again, he’d known exactly what she was thinking. A horrifying thought occurred to her: What if he really could tell what she was thinking? What if he knew about Harper, and about Kaia, about everything? And even if he didn’t, what would happen if he found out?
Maybe this is paranoia, Beth thought, and now a hysterical giggle did escape her. Maybe I am high.
“So, you guys, like, live here?” she asked, trying to make her voice sound as slow and foggy as theirs.
“Fish and Hale do,” Reed explained. “And I crash here sometimes.”
“He brings his ladies here,” Hale cackled. “All except-”
“Dude, shut up,” Fish snapped, pelting him with another fast-food wrapper-this one seemed to have a chunk of something oozing out of it.
”Oh, yeah. Right. Sorry, bro. Didn’t mean to-”
“Whatever.” Reed turned the stereo up and then threw himself down on the couch in between Beth and Fish. He leaned his head back, closed his eyes, and kicked his legs up on the milk crate. “Awesome song.” He sighed.