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O span of youth! ever-push'd elasticity! O manhood, balanced, florid and full. My lovers suffocate me, Crowding my lips, thick in the pores of my skin, Jostling me through streets and public halls, coming naked to      me at night, Crying by day Ahoy! from the rocks of the river, swinging      and chirping over my head, Calling my name from flower-beds, vines, tangled underbrush, Lighting on every moment of my life, Bussing my body with soft balsamic busses, Noiselessly passing handfuls out of their hearts and giving      them to be mine. Old age superbly rising! O welcome, ineffable grace of dying      days! Every condition promulges not only itself, it promulges what      grows after and out of itself, And the dark hush promulges as much as any. I open my scuttle at night and see the far-sprinkled systems, And all I see multiplied as high as I can cipher edge but the      rim of the farther systems. Wider and wider they spread, expanding, always expanding, Outward and outward and forever outward. My sun has his sun and round him obediently wheels, He joins with his partners a group of superior circuit, And greater sets follow, making specks of the greatest inside      them. There is no stoppage and never can be stoppage, If I, you, and the worlds, and all beneath or upon their surfaces,      were this moment reduced back to a pallid float, it would      not avail in the long run, We should surely bring up again where we now stand, And surely go as much farther, and then farther and farther. A few quadrillions of eras, a few octillions of cubic leagues,      do not hazard the span or make it impatient, They are but parts, any thing is but a part. See ever so far, there is limitless space outside of that, Count ever so much, there is limitless time around that. My rendezvous is appointed, it is certain, The Lord will be there and wait till I come on perfect terms, The great Camerado, the lover true for whom I pine will be      there.

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I know I have the best of time and space, and was never      measured and never will be measured. I tramp a perpetual journey, (come listen all!) My signs are a rain-proof coat, good shoes, and a staff cut      from the woods, No friend of mine takes his ease in my chair, I have no chair, no church, no philosophy, I lead no man to a dinner-table, library, exchange, But each man and each woman of you I lead upon a knoll, My left hand hooking you round the waist, My right hand pointing to landscapes of continents and the      public road. Not I, not any one else can travel that road for you, You must travel it for yourself. It is not far, it is within reach, Perhaps you have been on it since you were born and did not      know, Perhaps it is everywhere on water and on land. Shoulder your duds dear son, and I will mine, and let us      hasten forth, Wonderful cities and free nations we shall fetch as we go. If you tire, give me both burdens, and rest the chuff of your      hand on my hip, And in due time you shall repay the same service to me, For after we start we never lie by again. This day before dawn I ascended a hill and look'd at the      crowded heaven, And I said to my spirit When we become the enfolders of those      orbs, and the pleasure and knowledge of every thing in      them, shall we be fill'd and satisfied then? And my spirit said No, we but level that lift to pass and      continue beyond. You are also asking me questions and I hear you, I answer that I cannot answer, you must find out for yourself. Sit a while dear son, Here are biscuits to eat and here is milk to drink, But as soon as you sleep and renew yourself in sweet clothes,      I kiss you with a good-by kiss and open the gate for your      egress hence. Long enough have you dream'd contemptible dreams, Now I wash the gum from your eyes, You must habit yourself to the dazzle of the light and of      every moment of your life. Long have you timidly waded holding a plank by the shore, Now I will you to be a bold swimmer, To jump off in the midst of the sea, rise again, nod to me,      shout, and laughingly dash with your hair.

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I am the teacher of athletes, He that by me spreads a wider breast than my own proves      the width of my own, He most honors my style who learns under it to destroy the      teacher. The boy I love, the same becomes a man not through derived      power, but in his own right, Wicked rather than virtuous out of conformity or fear, Fond of his sweetheart, relishing well his steak, Unrequited love or a slight cutting him worse than sharp      steel cuts, First-rate to ride, to fight, to hit the bull's eye, to sail a skiff,      to sing a song or play on the banjo, Preferring scars and the beard and faces pitted with      small-pox over all latherers, And those well-tann'd to those that keep out of the sun. I teach straying from me, yet who can stray from me? I follow you whoever you are from the present hour, My words itch at your ears till you understand them. I do not say these things for a dollar or to fill up the time      while I wait for a boat, (It is you talking just as much as myself, I act as the tongue of      you, Tied in your mouth, in mine it begins to be loosen'd.) I swear I will never again mention love or death inside a      house, And I swear I will never translate myself at all, only to him or      her who privately stays with me in the open air. If you would understand me go to the heights or      water-shore, The nearest gnat is an explanation, and a drop or motion of      waves a key, The maul, the oar, the hand-saw, second my words. No shutter'd room or school can commune with me, But roughs and little children better than they. The young mechanic is closest to me, he knows me well, The woodman that takes his axe and jug with him shall take      me with him all day, The farm-boy ploughing in the field feels good at the sound      of my voice, In vessels that sail my words sail, I go with fishermen and      seamen and love them. The soldier camp'd or upon the march is mine, On the night ere the pending battle many seek me, and I do      not fail them, On that solemn night (it may be their last) those that know      me seek me. My face rubs to the hunter's face when he lies down alone in      his blanket, The driver thinking of me does not mind the jolt of his wagon, The young mother and old mother comprehend me, The girl and the wife rest the needle a moment and forget      where they are, They and all would resume what I have told them.