“No. No no no! It doesn’t matter how hard you try. There will be no cheese sticks for you.” She is lactose intolerant and loves cheese. It’s a bad combination for those within a ten-foot radius.
“Fine, fine. Can’t blame a girl for trying.” I drive down the country roads to my house, my mind replaying the conversation with Carter. Jenni stares out the window.
“Something up?” she asks after a couple of minutes.
“No,” I say. Nothing’s up. I just love the way his whole face responded when I wrote something or said something, like I had all of his attention and he’d rather it was with me than anywhere else.
“Okay.” I take a breath. “So there’s this boy…”
“I knew it! I knew you were acting weird! Tell me it’s not Trent!”
“It’s not Trent.”
She throws her hands up, hitting the roof of my Subaru. “Ow! Hallelujah. It’s summer! You’re single! What are you waiting for? Go after him!”
“I dunno, Jenni. He’s very perfect.”
Her tone turns serious. “Like my mom’s lasagna?”
“Exactly,” I say, my mood matching hers. “He is the guy version of your mom’s lasagna. And he has a motorcycle. Like a gorgeous bright-yellow and black motorcycle.”
She whistles low under her breath.
“But,” I say. “I can’t talk to him.”
“Honey, we’ve discussed this,” she says. “Just relax! Just because he is lasagna-level very perfect it doesn’t mean he doesn’t want to talk to you! Look him in the eye and say, ‘Hey, I’m Robin! I like your bike and your sexy, sexy ways.’ Try it!”
“Ha-ha. It’s not like I’m scared to talk to him, I literally cannot speak his language.”
She drops her hands and changes her tone. “You mean he’s perfect AND foreign! Does he have an accent? That is… ! That is… !”
I cut her off before she can decide what ‘that is…’. “No, he’s not foreign. He’s deaf.”
“What?”
“Not funny, Jenni. Acting like you can’t hear me. Not. Appreciated.”
“No! I seriously didn’t understand! He’s deaf?”
“Yes! And he speaks in sign language! So we’ve been writing notes.” I pull into my driveway and park in the little gravel space for my car, turning off the car, the music ending midmeasure. “He gave me his phone number…” I fish it out of my pocket and hand it to her as we walk into my house.
She takes it in careful concentration. “But how can he… ?”
“Texting, Jenni,” I call over my shoulder on my way up to my room. “It’s this thing where you type words to people…”
“Text-ing?” she says slowly, following me up the stairs. “What kind of magic is this?”
I laugh. “I don’t know. But there must be some kind of magic involved, because he’s picking me up after work tomorrow for a date.”
“A date?” Her squeal invites another laugh.
“A date!” I reply. “But enough about me! Tell me more about macramé.”
Chapter 8
Carter
I glide into the parking lot, wiping down and covering my bike before heading across the street to the gatehouse, where I scan in and walk to the house. Even though I have a key (and nobody really locks things around here anyway), I ring the doorbell to flick the lights and let everyone know I’m home. My mom peeks her head around as I take my boots off at the door.
“Carter!” she signs. “Glad you’re back. Dinner’s almost ready. Fresh tomatoes from the farm stand down the road!”
She is too excited about those tomatoes. “Got it,” I sign with a smile. She’s got a love-hate relationship with our summers in the country. On one side of her mouth, she laments the lack of specialty food stores whereas on the other side she’s praising the size of our kitchen and the cheap, fresh produce. Sadly (for her), we leave before Labor Day, when harvest kicks into full gear.
I head up to my room and check my phone as I change into shorts. No text from Robin. I have a couple from my friends back home. Subway issues, Daniel’s house, Jolene… I read and reread every word, trying to imagine that I’m back in New York.
The lights flicker and I turn to the doorway. Trina’s there. “Dinner’s ready,” she signs and turns to skip back down the stairs.
Dinner smells like stir-fry. My mom’s been on this Asian kick lately. Evidently the combination of ginger and soy is supposed to slow the hands of time or something. I don’t know—she saw it on Doctor Something-or-Other’s TV show.
By the time I arrive, everyone else is sitting at the table. I slide into my seat and clasp my hands together like the rest of my family. It’s not really a prayer. It’s more of a moment of silence. A kind of signal that the meal has started. My parents are incredibly intentional people, as you can tell by our family—three deaf kids, all adopted far enough apart that each had time for a ton of attention while we were learning the important stuff. You know, like reading and writing and living with one foot in the hearing world and one in the Deaf world. So meals, like everything else, are intentional.
The moment of silence is supposed to be a moment to gather ourselves and reflect on the day, but we could use it to pray if we want, I guess. I don’t. I think about the overlook. Maybe I’ll take Robin there tomorrow. The overlook makes me think of the sunset, the pictures I took, the soul sense. What happens to those of us who don’t have a soul sense? Can we get a fake one? Like my sister’s fake sense of hearing? Or are we just fine without it? Like me.
As I open my eyes, I realize that I’m the last person to do so. Everybody else is passing food, and the stir-fry is sitting at my elbow.
I give myself a generous helping and lean back, ready to pack it in. The Reuben seems like a long time ago. Compulsively, I check my phone. Nothing from Robin. Still. Maybe it was a bad idea to give her my number. I look up to see my dad waiting for me to see him.
“You were gone for a long time,” he signs.
“Yeah,” I sign. “Took the bike out. It was beautiful.”
“The bike or the weather?” my dad signs, smiling. His bike is a BMW R 1200 R, and I think one of his proudest moments was when I got my motorcycle license. I think he hopes that I’ll follow in his footsteps and become an architect someday. Maybe I will. I don’t know what I want to do, though. Jolene once told me that I should be a model, which is stupid. That’s just something girls say.
“The bike and the weather,” I sign back, grinning.
Trina bumps my elbow. “Or was it a girl?” Her little fingers fly and she grins.
Crap.
I shrug.
My mom’s fork hangs in midair, not quite to her mouth. Trina realizes she struck gold.
“A girl?! A girl?!” Her hand fairly flies off her chin.
“I don’t know,” I sign weakly, avoiding eye contact. I suck at this. My face always gives away everything before I decide to say it.
“What’s she like?” my dad signs. He’s measured, as always, but smiling.
“Cute,” I sign. I try to be offhanded about it.
Trina claps her hands with a huge grin. My mom’s grimace tells me that my little sister is probably also squealing.
“Eeeee!” my mom signs in an arc, pointing at Trina and rolling her eyes, confirming my suspicion.
“What else?” Trina says. “Is she local? Is she hearing?”
“Yes,” I say, “and yes.”
Mom and Dad exchange a look. My dad flicks up his eyebrows and my mom cocks her head, and I see an entire conversation happen in that one look.