Even now when I sought Sherwood through the pack bonds, he felt the same as he always had. Adam thought Sherwood was doing something that kept me and all the pack unaware of his true power. Either Sherwood had not bothered to hide what he’d become from Adam—or he couldn’t hide himself from the Alpha of his pack. I thought it was the latter.
“Something died,” Sherwood said. He gave a brief, unhappy smile. “You could ask Charles about that if you’d like to. I heard that he was in the right place when it died, but I haven’t talked to him about it.”
“Something?” I asked.
He shrugged. “Something. Someone. An old foe. By its death, it released me.”
It wasn’t the time for stories now. I’d call Anna and see if she knew anything.
“You remember yourself,” Adam murmured.
“Yes,” agreed Sherwood, in an equally quiet voice.
“I gave you time to come to me,” Adam said. “But you didn’t. For the sake of the pack, I could not let it lie any longer.”
Danger scented the air, a sharp, almost storm-front quality that was as much possibility as odor. I couldn’t tell if it was my nose warning me or the pack bonds.
“I understand,” Sherwood said. “My identity is a problem.”
“I don’t care who you are,” Adam said heavily, “or were.”
“He’s not Shakespeare,” I said cheerfully into the heavy threat gathering. “He told me so.”
Briefly a smile lightened my mate’s face. “There will be several of the pack disappointed.”
“Six,” I said. “Including Sherwood. They might have won two hundred and four dollars and eighty-three cents, split between them.”
“Life is about disappointment,” murmured Zack. “Who keeps putting pennies in? What do you do if they win?”
I had a plan for that, but Sherwood interrupted me before I got the first word out.
“You don’t care who I am?” asked Sherwood, sounding . . . not distrustful exactly. If Adam had lied, we’d all have heard it.
“I don’t have any money in the betting pool,” Adam said mildly. “And I’m curious. But who you were doesn’t matter for the pack’s welfare.”
“Darned curious,” I said confidentially, bumping Adam’s shoulder very lightly with mine.
I had been raised by werewolves. I knew how to manage them. The key to keeping two dominant wolves from killing each other was to keep things from getting confrontational. Zack and I were both working to lighten the atmosphere, our voices reminding Adam and Sherwood that this was not a duel and not a fight. Not yet.
To that end I continued, “Maybe even expletive-deleted curious. Starts with an ‘f’ and isn’t ‘firetruck.’ But he won’t say so in front of me.”
That Adam wouldn’t swear in front of me had become, fairly recently, a matter of some hilarity in the pack. A few of them were trying to get him to swear on purpose. That’s how I learned that Adam apparently swore a great deal—rivaling our pack execration champion, Ben—when there weren’t any females in the room. When I’d confronted him, he’d blamed his time in the military.
Adam didn’t look at me, but I caught the edge of his dimple peeking out, as if he’d thought I’d been funny. Proof that he wasn’t as annoyed with the pack antics as he pretended—and also that his nerves were titanium.
This could go so wrong, and there were very few ways it could go right. Which disaster came to pass depended on Sherwood, and I didn’t know who this Sherwood was.
He wasn’t paying attention to me, so it was safe to examine him. I stared at him as if my eyes could take his surface and read the depths. Sherwood’s eyes really were hazel—almost green. I couldn’t believe I hadn’t noticed them before.
There was a black tattoo on the side of his neck, a tattoo that was so old it was hard to discern anything about it other than that it had probably not been done with a modern technique. That made sense because werewolves are hard to tattoo, but if they have ink work done before they are Changed, it stays with them.
I hadn’t realized he had a tattoo at all.
Sherwood had been in our pack about five months and I had never seen the tattoo on his neck that was the size of my hand? It wasn’t even something a high-necked collar could have covered completely—the edge of the tattoo touched his jaw. The button-down shirt he was wearing obviously didn’t hide anything. I tried to remember how Sherwood usually dressed—but I just didn’t pay much attention to what people whose names weren’t Adam wore.
I thought of Uncle Mike’s meaningful look. Had he done something to Sherwood? Or had he seen something about Sherwood that had changed?
I looked at Zack. Did he look real?
Yes. But it didn’t feel any different than usual. Did that mean that Sherwood usually didn’t look real?
While I puzzled over Sherwood, the conversation had lingered a bit on swearing, with Zack leading the conversation. No one laughed, but the tension had died down a bit when Adam returned to the original topic.
“Curiosity aside, I don’t care who you are or were,” he said.
Adam hadn’t been slouching—too many years in the army. But now he straightened further and leaned forward, careful not to cross the edge of the table, which was still serving as a small and only partial barrier between the two dominant wolves. “What I do need to know is what you now mean to the survival of my pack.”
“Because I am more dominant than you are,” Sherwood said, his voice a low rumble. He held up a hand, and when he spoke again, most of the aggression was out of his voice. “Sorry. That has not been established. Let us say that I am too dominant to fit in the space I have occupied in the pack.”
Zack drew in a shivery breath as he finally figured out that this meeting was about something a lot more serious than Sherwood regaining his memory.
Zack hadn’t been briefed by Adam like I had, and Sherwood only felt different in the pack bonds to the Alpha. Having a werewolf in the pack who was, even possibly, more dominant than our Alpha was both unexpected and possibly disastrous. Sherwood, without taking his attention from Adam, put a reassuring hand on Zack’s shoulder.
Adam took a moment before he spoke.
“The pack’s situation is precarious,” Adam said. He glanced at Sherwood and then away. It was a look that human males don’t do much—good werewolf manners, one Alpha to another—equal to equal.
Sherwood nodded slowly, giving Adam the same look-and-away deliberately, completing the acknowledgment of equality that Adam had begun. A step back from the assertion of superiority that both wolves could accept better than mere words. A lot of communication between werewolves was nonverbal. That was why this conversation was happening in person instead of over the phone.
“Everything hangs by a thread the fae have managed to spin here,” Adam told Sherwood. “Not just our pack’s fate or the fate of the peoples—wolves, fae, human, and other—who live here in our territory. It may be the thread that leads the entire world away from the probability of annihilation of whole categories of sentient peoples. We, all of us, stand upon a precipice. If our pack can continue the illusion that this, our home, is a safe place for all, the Gray Lords might manage to negotiate a peace that holds.”
Sherwood’s lips twisted, but it wasn’t a smile, not really. “I hadn’t thought you were that much of an optimist. How many witches have you met that you think peace is possible with them? Vampires? The fae barely look up from assassinating each other.”
He didn’t sound like Sherwood, I thought, but what he said still sounded familiar, like listening to a few lines from an old movie I couldn’t quite place.
“I know you understand what I mean,” Adam said impatiently, his voice a little hoarse with the wolf, though his eyes were still dark. “Isolated violence is different from genocide. A battle is different from a war.”