Three years ago he’d done that. Now, tomorrow, he was going to a psychiatrist and say that he was — Napoleon!
The slant of the sun was greater. Overhead a big bird of a plane droned by and he looked up at it and began laughing, quietly to himself — not the laughter of madness. True laughter because it sprang from the conception of Napoleon Bonaparte riding in a plane like that and from the overwhelming incongruity of that idea.
It came to him then that he’d never ridden in a plane that he remembered. Maybe George Vine had; at some time in the twenty-seven years of life George Vine had spent, he must have. But did that mean that he had ridden in one? That was a question that was part of the big question.
He got up and started to walk again. It was almost five o’clock: pretty soon Charlie Doerr would be leaving the paper and going home for dinner. Maybe he’d better phone Charlie and be sure he’d be home this evening.
He headed for the nearest bar and phoned; he got Charlie just in time. He said, «This is George. Going to be home this evening?»
«Sure, George. I was going to a poker game, but I called it off when I learned you’d be around.»
«When you learned — Oh, Candler talked to you?»
«Yeah. Say, I didn’t know you’d phone me or I’d have called Marge, but how about coming out for dinner? It’ll be all right with her, I’ll call her now if you can.»
He said, «Thanks, no, Charlie. Got a dinner date. And say, about that card game; you can go. I can get there about seven and we won’t have to talk all evening; an hour’ll be enough. You wouldn’t be leaving before eight anyway.»
Charlie said, «Don’t worry about it; I don’t much want to go anyway, and you haven’t been out for a while. So I’ll see you at seven, then.»
From the phone booth, he walked over to the bar and ordered a beer. He wondered why he’d turned down the invitation to dinner; probably because, subconsciously, he wanted another couple of hours by himself before he talked to anyone, even Charlie and Marge.
He sipped his beer slowly, because he wanted to make it last; he had to stay sober tonight, plenty sober. There was still time to change his mind; he’d left himself a loop-hole, however small. He could still go to Candler in the morning and say he’d decided not to do it.
Over the rim of his glass he stared at himself in the back-bar mirror. Small, sandy-haired, with freckles on his nose, stocky. The small and stocky part fitted all right; but the rest of it! Not the remotest resemblance.
He drank another beer slowly, and that made it half past five.
He wandered out again and walked, this time toward town. He walked past the Blade and looked up to the third floor and at the window he’d been looking out of when Candler had sent for him. He wondered if he’d ever sit by that window again and look out across a sunlit afternoon.
Maybe. Maybe not.
He thought about Clare. Did he want to see her tonight?
Well, no, to be honest about it, he didn’t. But if he disappeared for two weeks or so without having even said good-bye to her, then he’d have to write her off his books.
He’d better.
He stopped in at a drug store and called her home. He said, «This is George, Clare. Listen, I’m being sent out of town tomorrow on an assignment; don’t know how long I’ll be gone. One of those things that might be a few days or a few weeks. But could I see you late this evening, to say so-long?»
«Why sure, George. What time?»
«It might be after nine, but not much after. That be okay? I’m seeing Charlie first, on business; may not be able to get away before nine.»
«Of course, George. Any time.»
He stopped in at a hamburger stand, although he wasn’t hungry, and managed to eat a sandwich and a piece of pie. That made it a quarter after six and, if he walked, he’d get to Charlie’s at just about the right time. So he walked.
Charlie met him at the door. With fingers on his lips, he jerked his head backward toward the kitchen where Marge was wiping dishes. He whispered, «I didn’t tell Marge, George. It’d worry her.»
He wanted to ask Charlie why it would, or should, worry Marge, but he didn’t. Maybe he was a little afraid of the answer. It would have to mean that Marge was worrying about him already, and that was a bad sign. He thought he’d been carrying everything off pretty well for three years now.
Anyway, he couldn’t ask because Charlie was leading him into the living room and the kitchen was within easy earshot, and Charlie was saying, «Glad you decided you’d like a game of chess, George. Marge is going out tonight; movie she wants to see down at the neighborhood show. I was going to that card game out of self-defense, but I didn’t want to.»
He got the chessboard and men out of the closet and started to set up a game on the coffee table.
Marge came in with a tray bearing tall cold glasses of beer and put it down beside the chessboard. She said, «Hi, George. Hear you’re going away a couple of weeks.»
He nodded. «But I don’t know where. Candler — the managing editor — asked me if I’d be free for an out of town assignment and I said sure, and he said he’d tell me about it tomorrow.»
Charlie was holding out clenched hands, a pawn in each, and he touched Charlie’s left hand and got white. He moved pawn to king’s fourth and, when Charlie did the same, advanced his queen’s pawn.
Marge was fussing with her hat in front of the mirror. She said, «If you’re not here when I get back, George, so long and good luck.»
He said, «Thanks, Marge. ’Bye.»
He made a few more moves before Marge came over, ready to go, kissed Charlie good-bye, and then kissed him lightly on the forehead. She said, «Take care of yourself, George.»
For a moment his eyes met her pale blue ones and he thought, she is worrying about me. It scared him a little.
After the door had closed behind her, he said, «Let’s not finish the game, Charlie. Let’s get to the brass tacks, because I’ve got to see Clare about nine. Dunno how long I’ll be gone, so I can’t very well not say good-bye to her.»
Charlie looked up at him. «You and Clare serious, George?»
«I don’t know.»
Charlie picked up his beer and took a sip. Suddenly his voice was brisk and business-like. He said, «All right, let’s sit on the brass tacks. We’ve got an appointment for eleven o’clock tomorrow morning with a guy named Irving, Dr. W. E. Irving, in the Appleton Block. He’s a psychiatrist; Dr. Randolph recommended him.
«I called him up this afternoon after Candler talked to me; Candler had already phoned Randolph. I gave my right name. My story was this: I’ve got a cousin who’s been acting queer lately and whom I wanted him to talk to. I didn’t give the cousin’s name. I didn’t tell him in what way you’d been acting queer; I ducked the question and said I’d rather have him judge for himself without prejudice. I said I’d talked you into talking to a psychiatrist and that the only one I knew of was Randolph; that I’d called Randolph, who said he didn’t do much private practice and recommended Irving. I told him I was your nearest living relative.
«That leaves the way open to Randolph for the second name on the certificate. If you can talk Irving into thinking you’re really insane and he wants to sign you up, I can insist on having Randolph, whom I wanted in the first place. And this time, of course, Randolph will agree.»