He said softly, «Even if I choose Randolph?»
Dr. Irving waved a deprecating hand, «Of course, if both you and Mr. Doerr prefer —»
«We prefer.»
The iron gray head nodded gravely. «Of course you understand one thing; if Dr. Randolph and I decide you should go to the sanitarium, it will not be for custodial care. It will be for your recovery through treatment.»
He nodded.
Dr. Irving stood. «You’ll pardon me a moment? I’ll phone Dr. Randolph.»
He watched Dr. Irving go through a door to an inner room. He thought; there’s a phone on his desk right there; but he doesn’t want me to overhear the conversation.
He sat there very quietly until Irving came back and said, «Dr. Randolph is free. And I phoned for a cab to take us there. You’ll pardon me again? I’d like to speak to your cousin, Mr. Doerr.»
He sat there and didn’t watch the doctor leave in the opposite direction for the waiting room. He could have gone to the door and tried to catch words in the low voiced conversation, but he didn’t. He just sat there until he heard the waiting room door open behind him and Charlie’s voice said, «Come on, George. The cab will be waiting downstairs by now.»
They went down in the elevator and the cab was there. Dr. Irving gave the address.
In the cab, about half way there, he said, «It’s a beautiful day,» and Charlie cleared his throat and said, «Yeah, it is.» The rest of the way he didn’t try it again and nobody said anything.
He wore gray trousers and a gray shirt, open to the collar and with no necktie that he might decide to hang himself with. No belt, either, for the same reason, although the trousers buttoned so snugly around the waist that there was no danger of them falling off. Just as there was no danger of his falling out any of the windows; they were barred.
He was not in a cell, however; it was a large ward on the third floor. There were seven other men in the ward. His eyes ran over them. Two were playing checkers, sitting on the floor with a board on the floor between them. One sat in a chair, staring fixedly at nothing; two leaned against the bars of one of the open windows, looking out and talking casually and sanely. One read a magazine. One sat in a corner, playing smooth arpeggios on a piano that wasn’t there at all.
He stood leaning against the wall, watching the other seven. He’d been here two hours now; it seemed like two years.
The interview with Dr. Ellsworth Joyce Randolph had gone smoothly; it had been practically a duplicate of his interview with Irving. And quite obviously, Dr. Randolph had never heard of him before.
He’d expected that, of course.
He felt very calm, now. For a while, he’d decided, he wasn’t going to think, wasn’t going to worry, wasn’t even going to feel.
He strolled over and stood watching the checker game.
It was a sane checker game; the rules were being followed.
One of the men looked up and asked, «What’s your name?» It was a perfectly sane question; the only thing wrong with it was that the same man had asked the same question four times now within the two hours he’d been here.
He said, «George Vine.»
«Mine’s Bassington, Ray Bassington. Call me Ray. Are you insane?»
«No.»
«Some of us are and some of us aren’t. He is.» He looked at the man who was playing the imaginary piano. «Do you play checkers?»
«Not very well.»
«Good. We eat pretty soon now. Anything you want to know, just ask me.»
«How do you get out of here? Wait, I don’t mean that for a gag, or anything. Seriously, what’s the procedure?»
«You go in front of the board once a month. They ask you questions and decide if you go or stay. Sometimes they stick needles in you. What you down for?»
«Down for? What do you mean?»
«Feeble-minded, manic-depressive, dementia praecox, involutional melancholia —»
«Oh. Paranoia, I guess.»
«That’s bad. Then they stick needles in you.»
A bell rang somewhere.
«That’s dinner,» said the other checker player. «Ever try to commit suicide? Or kill anyone?»
«No.»
«They’ll let you eat at an A table then, with knife and fork.»
The door of the ward was being opened. It opened outward and a guard stood outside and said, «All right.» They filed out, all except the man who was sitting in the chair staring into space.
«How about him?» he asked Ray Bassington.
«He’ll miss a meal tonight. Manic-depressive, just going into the depressive stage. They let you miss one meaclass="underline" if you’re not able to go to the next they take you and feed you. You a manic-depressive?»
«No.»
«You’re lucky. It’s hell when you’re on the down-swing. Here, through this door.»
It was a big room. Tables and benches were crowded with men in gray shirts and gray trousers, like his. A guard grabbed his arm as he went through the doorway and said, «There. That seat.»
It was right beside the door. There was a tin plate, messy with food, and a spoon beside it. He asked, «Don’t I get a knife and fork? I was told —»
The guard gave him a shove toward the seat. «Observation period, seven days. Nobody gets silverware till their observation period’s over. Siddown.»
He sat down. No one at his table had silverware. All the others were eating, several of them noisily and messily. He kept his eyes on his own plate, unappetizing as that was. He toyed with his spoon and managed to eat a few pieces of potato out of the stew and one or two of the chunks of meat that were mostly lean.
The coffee was in a tin cup and he wondered why until he realized how breakable an ordinary cup would be and how lethal could be one of the heavy mugs cheap restaurants use.
The coffee was weak and cool; he couldn’t drink it.
He sat back and closed his eyes. When he opened them again there was an empty plate and an empty cup in front of him and the man at his left was eating very rapidly. It was the man who’d been playing the non-existent piano.
He thought, if I’m here long enough, I’ll get hungry enough to eat that stuff. He didn’t like the thought of being there that long.
After a while a bell rang and they got up, one table at a time on signals he didn’t catch, and filed out. His group had come in last; it went out first.
Ray Bassington was behind him on the stairs. He said, «You’ll get used to it. What’d you say your name is?»
«George Vine.»
Bassington laughed. The door shut on them and a key turned.
He saw it was dark outside. He went over to one of the windows and stared out through the bars. There was a single bright star that showed just above the top of the elm tree in the yard. His star? Well, he’d followed it here. A cloud drifted across it.
Someone was standing beside him. He turned his head and saw it was the man who’d been playing piano. He had a dark, foreign-looking face with intense black eyes; just then he was smiling, as though at a secret joke.
«You’re new here, aren’t you? Or just get put in this ward, which?»
«New. George Vine’s the name.»
«Baroni. Musician. Used to be, anyway. Now — let it go. Anything you want to know about the place?»
«Sure. How to get out of it.»
Baroni laughed, without particular amusement but not bitterly either. «First, convince them you’re all right again. Mind telling what’s wrong with you — or don’t you want to talk about it? Some of us mind, others don’t.»
He looked at Baroni, wondering which way he felt. Finally he said, «I guess I don’t mind. I — think I’m Napoleon.»
«Are you?»
«Am I what?»
«Are you Napoleon? If you aren’t, that’s one thing. Then maybe you’ll get out of here in six months or so. If you really are — that’s bad. You’ll probably die here.»