Jason was right, of course: it was a difficult thing to believe in. Or, no, not to "believe in"—people believe all kinds of implausible things—but to accept as a fundamental truth about the world. I sat on the porch of the house, on the side away from the roaring Deere, and the air was cool and the sun felt fine when I turned my face to it even though I knew it for what it was, radiation filtered from a star in full-out runaway Spin, in a world where centuries were squandered like seconds.
Can't be true. Is true.
I thought about med school again, the anatomy class I had told Jason about. Candice Boone, my one-time almost-fiancee, had shared that class with me. She had been stoic during the dissection but not afterward. A human body, she said, ought to contain love, hate, courage, cowardice, soul, spirit… not this slimy assortment of blue and red imponderables. Yes. And we ought not to be dragged unwilling into a harsh and deadly future.
But the world is what it is and won't be bargained with. I had said as much to Candice.
She told me I was "cold." But it was still the closest thing to wisdom I had ever been able to muster.
* * * * *
The morning rolled on. Mike finished the lawn and drove off, leaving the air full of humid silence. After a time I stirred myself and telephoned my mom in Virginia, where the weather, she said, was less inviting than in Massachusetts: still cloudy after a storm last night that had brought down a few trees and power lines. I told her I'd made it safely to E.D.'s summer rental. She asked me how Jason seemed, though she had probably seen him more recently than I had, during one of his visits to the Big House. "Older," I said. "But still Jase."
"Is he worried about this China thing?"
My mom had been a news junkie since the October Event, watching CNN not for pleasure or even information but mainly to reassure herself, the way a Mexican villager might keep an eye on a nearby volcano, hoping not to see smoke. The China thing was only a diplomatic crisis at this stage, she said, though sabers had been gently rattled. Something about a controversial proposed satellite launch. "You should ask Jason about it."
"Has E.D. been worrying you about this stuff?"
"Hardly. I do hear things from Carol every once in a while."
"I don't know how much of that you should trust."
"Come on, Ty. She drinks, but she's not stupid. Neither am I, particularly."
"I didn't mean that."
"Most of what I hear about Jason and Diane these days I get through Carol."
"Did she say whether Diane was coming up to the Berkshires? I can't get a straight answer out of Jase."
My mother hesitated. "Diane's been a little unpredictable the last couple of years. I guess that's what it's all about."
"What does 'unpredictable' mean, exactly?"
"Oh, you know. Not much success at school. A little trouble with the law—"
"With the law?"
"No, I mean, she didn't rob a bank or anything, but she's been picked up a couple of times when NK rallies got out of hand."
"What the hell was she doing at NK rallies?"
Another pause. "You should really ask Jason about that."
I intended to.
She coughed—I pictured her with her hand over the phone, her head turned delicately away—and I said, "How are you feeling?"
"Tired."
"Anything new with the doctor?" She was being treated for anemia. Bottles of iron tablets.
"No. I'm just getting old, Ty. Everybody gets old sooner or later." She added, "I'm thinking of retiring. If you call what I do work. Now that the twins are gone it's just Carol and E.D., and not much E.D. since this Washington business started up."
"Have you told them you're thinking of leaving?"
"Not yet."
"It wouldn't be the Big House without you."
She laughed, not happily. "I think I've had about enough of the Big House for one lifetime, thanks."
But she never mentioned the move again. It was Carol, I think, who convinced her to stay.
* * * * *
Jase came in the front door midafternoon. "Ty?" His over-large jeans hung on his hips like the rigging of a becalmed ship, and his T-shirt was spackled with the ghosts of gravy stains. "Give me a hand with the barbecue, can you?"
I went out back with him. The barbecue was a standard propane grill. Jase had never used one. He opened the tank valve, pushed the lighter button and flinched when the flames blossomed up. Then he grinned at me. "We have steaks. We have three-bean salad from the deli in town."
"And hardly any mosquitos," I said.
"They sprayed for them this spring. Hungry?"
I was. Somehow, dozing through the afternoon, I had worked up an appetite. "Are we cooking for two or three?"
"I'm still waiting to hear from Diane. Probably won't know until this evening. Just us for dinner, I think."
"Assuming the Chinese don't nuke us first."
This was bait.
Jason rose to it. "Are you worried about the Chinese, Ty? That's not even a crisis anymore. It's been settled."
"That's a relief." I had heard about the crisis and the resolution all in the same day. "My mom mentioned it. Something on the news."
"The Chinese military want to nuke the polar artifacts. They have nuclear-tipped missiles sitting on pads in Jiuquan, ready to launch. The reasoning is, if they can damage the polar devices they might take down the entire October shield. Of course there's no reason to believe it would work. How likely is it that a technology capable of manipulating time and gravitation would be vulnerable to our weapons?"
"So we threatened the Chinese and they backed down?"
"A little of that. But we offered a carrot, too. We offered to take them onboard."
"I don't understand."
"To let them join us in our own little project to save the world."
"You're scaring me a little here, Jase."
"Hand me those tongs. I'm sorry. I know this sounds cryptic. I'm not supposed to be talking about these things at all. With anyone."
"You're making an exception in my case?"
"I always make an exception in your case." He smiled. "We'll discuss it over dinner, okay?"
I left him at the grill, shrouded in smoke and heat.
* * * * *
Two consecutive American administrations had been scolded by the press for "doing nothing" about the Spin. But it was a criticism without teeth. If there was anything practical that could be done, no one seemed to know what it was. And any clearly retaliatory action—like the one the Chinese had proposed—would have been prohibitively dangerous.
Perihelion was pushing a radically different approach.
"The governing metaphor," Jase said, "isn't combat. It's judo. Using a bigger opponent's weight and momentum against him. That's what we want to do with the Spin."
He told me this laconically while he cut up his grilled steak with surgical attention. We ate in the kitchen with the back door open. A huge bumblebee, so fat and yellow it looked like an airborne knot of woolen threads, bumped against the bug screen.
"Try to think about the Spin," he said, "as an opportunity rather than an assault."
"An opportunity to do what? Die prematurely?"
"An opportunity to use time for our own ends, in a way we never could before."