“Then we head back.”
“No. I don’t want you back there. Not after what you told me about Chase controlling you. You can stay at Serpentarius with Mason, the real Mason. He’ll keep quiet. All he cares about is money and his precious club.”
I looked at Alex, ready to risk everything for me, even after I’d put him through hell. I couldn’t let him do it. “I’m going back with you. If we have to play along to figure out what Chase is up to, then I’m our best shot. I’m the closest to him.”
Alex shook his head. “Absolutely not. I can’t watch him control you, Jodi. I’ll kill him. It will be hard enough not to tear him apart without you there.”
“I know, but I have to do this. We’ll go separately so Chase doesn’t suspect anything. You can drive me to the path, and I’ll walk back. You show up in the morning. That should be enough time apart to avoid suspicion.”
“I can’t let you do this. He could hurt you.”
“I don’t have a choice. I’m the Ophi leader. I have to do it.”
He knew he couldn’t change my mind. As much as we both hated it, I was going back to the school. I was going back to Chase.
Chapter 21
I leaned my head back on the seat. I couldn’t believe I was doing this. Alex was right here. My old life was right here. Yet both felt so far away. I couldn’t have what I wanted. I had to do the job I’d promised I’d do, and that meant facing Chase. Figuring out what his end game was and regaining control.
Alex brushed a tear from my cheek. I hadn’t even realized I was crying. “What are you going to say?”
He knew I was worried about seeing Chase again. I sighed and met his eyes. “That I freaked. That I didn’t like him controlling me. That if he really wants to work with me and wants my cooperation, he’s going to have to stop using his power against me.”
“You think that’ll work?”
“I have no idea.”
He shook his head. “I can’t let you go in there alone.”
“You have to. If you come with me, Chase will know we’re up to something. He’ll hurt me for sure.”
“Why don’t you let me go back first? I could beat the crap out of him, and you wouldn’t have to worry about seeing him again.”
If any other guy had said it, I would’ve laughed, but Alex was serious. “We should get this over with. The longer I’m gone, the madder he’s going to be.”
Alex grabbed me and hugged me tight. “I’m sorry I left you. Maybe I could’ve stopped this from happening.”
I knew that wasn’t true. Chase had already gotten to me before Alex left. If Alex had stayed, he would’ve witnessed everything, and he would’ve hated me for it.
I turned my face toward his and kissed him, thinking it might be our last kiss ever. I climbed over the console so I was in his lap, and I kissed him until my lungs screamed for air. I leaned back, making the horn give a short blare. We both jumped and laughed. We needed something to break the tension.
“I need you to understand that you’re going to see a lot of things you aren’t going to like.” I didn’t move from his lap. This was the only way to make sure I had his full attention. That he understood every word I was saying.
“Like him touching you?”
I nodded.
“Could you do me a favor and not play along too well?”
I fidgeted with the ring on my pinky. “That’s just the thing. It’s not an act, Alex. Chase changes me when I’m with him. My blood responds to his touch, and I can’t control it.” I lifted my eyes, forcing myself to be brutally honest. He had to know what he was in for. It was going to kill him to see me with Chase. To see me happy with Chase and craving his touch. “If he uses his blood to fill me with life, I’ll want to be with him. At least, my blood will. Inside I’ll know it’s wrong, but I’ll be powerless to stop it. The only thing that’s going to get me through this is you knowing that I love you, not him.”
“It’s really going to be bad, isn’t it?”
This was killing me. I didn’t know how to make him feel better, so I went for the one thing that never failed. I kissed him. We stayed in the car for an hour, not wanting our time together to end. As much as I didn’t want to, eventually I pulled myself away from him. If I didn’t go now, I never would. I slid back into my seat and sighed.
Alex started the engine without a word. There was nothing to say. Nothing to make this any easier. He drove me back to the trail and most of the way to the school so I didn’t have to walk too far. I looked at him through tear-soaked eyes.
“Wish me luck,” I said.
“I love you.” He pulled my face to his for one last kiss, and then I walked away without looking back. Losing Alex the first time was awful. The thought of losing him again was unbearable. Why was emotional pain so much stronger than physical pain? When I reached the school, I wasn’t crying anymore. I was ready to face Chase. Sort of.
I walked up the back steps. It was dark and I figured everyone was probably getting ready for bed, but I heard voices out in the cemetery. I crept around the school and saw candles. A circle of them outside the mausoleum. The cemetery lights weren’t at full strength yet. They took forever to really light up the place. Replacing them was on my list of things to do, but I’d kept pushing it back, not thinking it was that important.
As I got closer, I realized the candles were held by people, all sitting on the ground. They must have been having a memorial for Lucas and Randy. I figured it was best to approach Chase when everyone else was around. Between the element of surprise and having to keep his feelings in check for the sake of the group, I’d be better off. Of course, I had been hoping to get a good night’s sleep and talk to him at breakfast, but my mom always told me it was better to face your problems sooner rather than later. I was about to find out if that was true.
I started down the hill as the lights gained more strength. Then I saw the corpses. They were lined up against the mausoleum. Every single one of them. I ran the rest of the way.
“What are you doing?” I yelled. “You can’t raise the entire graveyard. I don’t care if this is a memorial. Hades is going to flip!”
Chase smiled at me. Not an “I’m-so-happy-you’re-back” smile. A sinister “I-can’t-wait-to-get-a-hold-of-you” smile. “Jodi, right on time.” He stood up and walked toward me.
“What do you mean? How could you know I was coming back?” How far did our connection go?
“How did I know? Well, when all the bodies in the cemetery suddenly came out of the ground at the same time, I figured that was your way of letting me know you were on your way.”
I looked past him at the corpses. They immediately turned toward me, recognizing the one who’d raised them. I did this? It must have happened when I was kissing Alex. I thought I was happy to see him and sad to have to let him go again. My emotions were definitely conflicted, and they’d caused my blood to announce my return in true Ophi fashion—a massive raising.
“Personally, I like it.” Chase kissed my cheek. “It’s good to see you giving in to your powers.”
He thought I’d done it on purpose, and he was taking this as a good sign. Maybe it wasn’t such a bad thing, after all, if it got Chase off my back.
“We should send them back before Hades shows up. I thought you would’ve done that already,” I added, hoping it would cover up my previous outburst about the bodies being here.
“You’re right. Why don’t we do it together? I’ve been itching to mix our blood again.” He ran his hand down my arm, sending my blood into a frenzy. I wanted to throw my arms around him and pull him close, absorb all his power, but I had to stay in control. For Alex.