She would see it go on. She was part of it, as Tyrell had not been. And even in the loneliness she already felt, there was a feeling of compensation, somehow. She was dedicated to the centuries of man that were to come.
She reached beyond her sorrow and love. From far away she could hear the solemn chanting of the priests. It was part of the righteousness that had come to the worlds now, at last, after the long and bloody path to the new Golgotha. But it was the last Golgotha, and she would go on now as she must, dedicated and sure.
Immortal.
She lifted her head and looked steadily at the blue. She would look forward into the future. The past was forgotten. And the past, to her, meant no bloody heritage, no deep corruption that would work unseen in the black hell of the mind’s abyss until the monstrous seed reached up to destroy God’s peace. And love.
Quite suddenly, she remembered that she had committed murder. Her arm thrilled again with the violence of the blow; her hand tingled with the splash of shed blood.
Very quickly she closed her thoughts against the memory. She looked up at the sky, holding hard against the closed gateway of her mind as though the assault battered already against the fragile bars.
H. L. GOLD
The Man with English
In science fiction, nearly everybody reads Galaxy. Since its first issue, and in all of the decade that followed, it has ranked among the best science fiction magazines—always exciting, and, mutatis mutandis, always reliable. The man whose editorial skill steers Galaxy past the rocks where scores of other magazines founder is, in his off-duty hours, a talented author in his own right. You didn't know this? You will know it very soon ... if you go on to read—
Lying in the hospital, Edgar Stone added up his misfortunes as another might count blessings. There were enough to infuriate the most temperate man, which Stone notoriously was not. He smashed his fist down, accidentally hitting the metal side of the bed, and was astonished by the pleasant feeling. It enraged him even more. The really maddening thing was how simply he had goaded himself into the hospital.
He'd locked up his drygoods store and driven home for lunch. Nothing unusual about that; he did it every day. With his miserable digestion, he couldn't stand the restaurant food in town. He pulled into the driveway, rode over a collection of metal shapes his son Arnold had left lying around, and punctured a tire.
"Rita!" he yelled. "This is going too damned far! Where is that brat?"
"In here," she called truculently from the kitchen. He kicked open the screen door. His foot went through the mesh,
"A ripped tire and a torn screen!" he shouted at Arnold, who was sprawled in angular adolescence over a blueprint on the kitchen table. "You'll pay for them, by God! They're coming out of your allowance!"
"I'm sorry. Pop," the boy said.
"Sorry, my left foot," Mrs. Stone shrieked. She whirled on her husband. "You could have watched where you were going. He promised to clean up his things from the driveway right after lunch. And it's about time you stopped kicking open the door every time you're mad."
"Mad? Who wouldn't be mad? Me hoping he'd get out of school and come into the store, and he wants to be an engineer. An engineer and he can't even make change when he—hah!—helps me out in the store!"
"He'll be whatever he wants to be," she screamed in the conversational tone of the Stone household.
"Please," said Arnold. "I can't concentrate on this plan." Edgar Stone was never one to restrain an angry impulse. He tore up the blueprint and flung the pieces down on the table.
"Aw, Pop," the boy said.
"Don't say 'Aw, Pop' to me. You're not going to waste a summer vacation on junk like this. You'll eat your lunch and come down to the store. And you’ll do it every day for the rest of the summer!"
"Oh, he will, will he?" demanded Mrs. Stone. "He'll catch up on his studies. And as for you, you can go back and eat in a restaurant."
"You know I can't stand that slop!"
"You'll eat it because you're not having lunch here any more. I've got enough to do without making three meals a day."
"But I can't drive back with that tire…"
He did, though not with the tire—he took a cab. It cost a dollar plus tip, lunch was a dollar and a half plus tip, bicarb at Rite Drug Store a few doors away and in a great hurry came to another fifteen cents only it didn't work. And then Miss Ellis came in for some material. Miss Ellis could round out any miserable day. She was fifty, tall, skinny and had thin, disapproving lips. She had a sliver of cloth clipped very meagerly on a hem that she intended to use as a sample.
"The arms of the slipcover on my reading chair wore through," she informed him. "I bought the material here, if you remember."
Stone didn't have to look at the fragmentary swatch.
"That was about seven years ago"
"Six-and-a-half," she corrected. "I paid enough for it. You'd expect anything that expensive to last."
"The style was discontinued. I have something here that-"
"I do not want to make an entire slipcover, Mr. Stone. All I want is enough to make new panels for the arms. Two yards should do very nicely."
Stone smothered a bilious hiccup. "Two yards, Miss Ellis?"
"At the most."
"I sold the last of that material years ago." He pulled a bolt off a shelf and partly unrolled it for her. "Why not use a different pattern as a kind of contrast?"
"I want this same pattern," she said, her thin lips getting even thinner and more obstinate.
"Then I'll have to order it and hope one of my wholesalers still has some of it in stock."
"Not without looking for it first right here, you won't order it for me. You can't know all these materials you have on these shelves."
Stone felt all the familiar symptoms of fury—the sudden pulsing of the temples, the lurch and bump of his heart as adrenalin came surging in like the tide at the Firth of Forth, the quivering of his hands, the angry shout pulsing at his vocal cords from below.
"I’ll take a look. Miss Ellis," he said.
She was president of the Ladies Cultural Society and dominated it so thoroughly that the members would go clear to the next town for their dry goods, rather than deal with him, if he offended this sour stick of stubbornness. If Stone's life insurance salesman had been there, he would have tried to keep Stone from climbing the ladder that ran around the three walls of the store. He probably wouldn't have been in time. Stone stamped up the ladder to reach the highest shelves, where there were scraps of bolts. One of them might have been the remnant of the material Miss Ellis had bought six-and-a-half years ago. But Stone never found out.
He snatched one, glaring down meanwhile at the top of Miss Ellis's head, and the ladder skidded out from under him. He felt his skull collide with the counter. He didn't feel it hit the floor.
"God damn it!" Stone yelled. "You could at least turn on the lights."
"There, there, Edgar. Everything's fine, just fine." It was his wife's voice and the tone was so uncommonly soft and soothing that it scared him into a panic.
"What's wrong with me?" he asked piteously. "Am I blind?"
"How many fingers am I holding up?" a man wanted to know.
Stone was peering into the blackness. All he could see before his eyes was a vague blot against a darker blot.
"None," he bleated. "Who are you?"
"Dr. Rankin. That was a nasty fall you had, Mr. Stone concussion of course, and a splinter of bone driven into the brain. I had to operate to remove it."