Or perhaps it was that same programming that was the true source of my doubts.
The calix, whispering to its frog that the water wasn't warm at all.
It was an hour before the last of the greeters drifted away. I was feeling a little squeamish about being alone with Tawni, not at all sure I could fake the friendship and affection I'd once felt for her. Which I still wanted to feel for her. Fortunately, that moment was put off by her wish to show me the changes that had taken place in the fruit tree grove bordering the village while we still had the afternoon light.
"I am so pleased you came back to see us," she commented as she led me along a
twisting path between the trees. "You had said you might not be able to return for a long time."
"Things just happened to work out this way," I said, impressed in spite of my dour mood at what had happened to the grove. Once little more than branches and pale green leaves, the trees had exploded all over into brilliant, multicolored flowers.
"I'm glad they did," Tawni said, taking my arm. "I was sorry to see you go."
"I was sorry to leave," I said, covering her hand with my own and feeling what was left of my resolve weakening again. Tawni was only my age, eighteen years old—surely she wasn't this accomplished a liar already. Besides, she was only an apprentice calix artisan. It would make sense for her leaders to hide the deeper secrets of their agenda from her until they'd confirmed both her skill and her dedication.
A small part of my mind told me that was rationalization. But suddenly I didn't really care. Tawni was there beside me, warm and affectionate, and there was simply no way I could believe she was my enemy. Whatever the Kailth had programmed the calix to do to me, I knew she would stand beside me in fighting it.
And if I lost that fight, that same small part reminded me soberly, at least Convocant Devaro would have the final data he wanted.
Speaking of Devaro, it was time I got down to the task he'd sent me here to do.
"As a matter of fact," I said, "it was your parting gift that's responsible for me being back so soon."
"Then I am even more pleased I gave it to you," she said cheerfully. "How did this happen?"
"Well, of course I showed it to everyone in my office and around the Convocation," I said, a fresh twinge of guilt poking at me. I'd convinced myself that Tawni was on my side; and now here I was, lying to her. "They all thought it was beautiful, of course."
"I am honored."
"Anyway, some of them wanted to know how they could get one for themselves," pushed ahead. "One of them—Convocant Devaro—asked me to come back and see if they were for sale."
"I am certain that can be arranged," Tawni said, turning us onto another path that led deeper into the grove. "Come, we will ask permission."
"Permission?" I asked, frowning, as she led us around a particularly bushy tree.
"Who in here do we need to—?"
I broke off, my breath catching in my throat as we stepped into a small clearing. In the center was a small cookstove, with something flat and gray sizzling on the grill-work at its top. Arranged in a neat circle around it were a half dozen sleepbags, with antenna-like posts sticking out of the ground beside each one.
And standing in a line between the ring of sleepbags and the cookstove, facing our direction, were six Kailth warriors.
I froze. It was probably the worst, most guilty-looking thing I could have done, but I couldn't help it. I froze right there to the spot, Tawni's grip on my arm bringing her up short as well. She blinked at me, obviously bewildered by my reaction, and tried to pull me forward—
"You," one of the Kailth said. "Human male. Come."
I wanted to run. Desperately. To run back to the half-wing and get the hell out of there.
But they were all wearing those lumpy sidearms, the ones that could bring down a
two-story building with one shot. So instead I let Tawni pull me across the clearing to them.
"What do you wish here?" the warrior demanded when I was standing right in front of him.
"He is my friend, Warrior-Citizen-One," Tawni said. "He would like to purchase some of our calices."
There was a long moment of silence. "You were on Quibsh before," the warrior said at last. "You are a clerk to Convocant Magnell Sutherlan."
"Yes, that's right," I managed. "I mean, I was. I'm working for Convocant Lantis Devaro now."
"Why do you clerk now for Convocant Lantis Devaro?"
"He hired me away from Convocant Sutherlan." I had a flash of inspiration—"He was the only Convocant who was really interested in finding out more about Tawni's people. Since I'd met them, he thought I could be of help."
There was another silence. I felt the sweat collecting on my forehead, wondering if the Kailth was suspicious or merely having difficulty sorting through the Anglish. "Were you?" he asked.
Was I helpful? What exactly did he mean by that? "I tried to be," I stammered.
"I—he did send me back here to see them."
"And to purchase their calices."
"Yes," I said, bracing myself. This was going to be risky, but it might just add the necessary bit of verisimilitude to my story. "He was very upset when I refused to sell him the one Tawni gave me," I told him. "I told him it was a gift, and that I wouldn't give it up under any circumstances."
The warrior eyed me, and I held my breath. If the possessiveness I really did feel for Tawni's calix was part of its programming, then the Kailth should conclude that it was doing its job and let me go about my business.
And apparently, it worked. "How many calices does Convocant Devaro wish to purchase?" the warrior asked.
I started breathing again. "He would like to buy three or four," I said.
"Though that would depend on the price—he only gave me twenty thousand to spend. He wants to give them as gifts."
The warrior turned to his comrades and said something in the Kailth language.
One of them answered, and for a moment they conversed back and forth. Then the first warrior turned back to face me. "He may have three," he announced. "They shall be gifts, without payment required."
Gifts. At least, I thought, the Kailth had the class not to require the UnEthHu to pay for its own destruction. "Thank you," I said. "You are most generous."
"The generosity is not for you," the warrior said. "Nor for Convocant Devaro.
It is for this citizen-three who calls you friend."
It was a line, of course, something to allay any suspicions I might have about getting such valuable artwork for free. But just the same, it dug another sharp edge of guilt into me. Tawni had indeed called me a friend to her overlords, and here I was using her against them.
But then, the Kailth were using me as a pawn, too. It all came out even.
Maybe.
Tawni bowed to them. "I am honored, Warrior-Citizen-One," she said. "Thank you."
"It is our pleasure," the warrior said. "You may take the human male to where he may choose."
She bowed again and pulled gently on my arm, and together we turned away and left the clearing. It wasn't until we were out of the grove and heading up the slope of the volcano that she spoke. "You still think ill of the Kailthaermil," she said quietly.
My first impulse was to deny it. But I'd done enough lying for one day. "I don't trust them, Tawni," I told her. "They're conquerors. Who's to say they aren't going to take a shot at the UnEthHu next?"
"But you are not like the others they have fought against," Tawni said. "You do not enslave other peoples, nor do you seek to impose your will on them."