She had just brushed her hair before they came in, he realised. Sat in front of the telly and brushed her long hair. The image made him smile, made him warm, until Eddy’s shrill sob shattered the image.
Pat reached out to still him. ‘Don’t…’
‘That Irish cunt… I don’t know what to do…’
‘Let’s go and get some toast or something.’ Pat’s voice was expressionless.
‘We can’t leave that pishy cunt to mind him,’ said Eddy looking out to the living room.
‘OK. We need to get moving.’ Aleesha’s hand came up and touched his face, the hand that was no more, but he wrote that part out. Her fingertips touched his face, her pretty gold rings glinting in the corner of his eye. ‘I’ll call Malki, get him over here to mind Shugie.’
‘How are we, how are we gonnae do that? I mean, we can’t move now, that fucker’ll go and get pissed and tell everyone.’
‘Malki’ll come, I’ll get him to bring bevy for Shugie, get him to stay in the house, say we’ll be back any minute. You and me, we’ll go get some toast or something-’
‘Toast? What ye on about toast for?’
‘And we’ll phone the family.’ Pat imagined himself arriving at the door of the Anwar family home, being greeted by the brothers as a long lost friend, being offered tea as he slipped his jacket off in the pink hall. ‘Ask about the money. I’ll sort it out, man, don’t worry.’ He pointed to Eddy’s pocket. ‘I’ll speak to the Irish.’
Eddy took his phone out and selected a number, pressed call and handed the phone over.
Irish had been asleep. His voice was an angry, startled bark. ‘Whit?’
‘We’ve got the father and we’re calling them this morning.’
‘Who’s this?’
‘The other one.’
Pat could hear the Irish consider the angles. ‘I don’t know you.’
‘I’ll call you after,’ said Pat and hung up.
Eddy took the phone back, dropping his chin so he was looking up, puppyish, ‘Pal…’ he said, meaning thank you, meaning to express affection, hinting at words he would never say.
Pat was thinking words he would never say too.
Pat was thinking that the world would be better off if a cunt like Eddy wasn’t in it.
12
Morrow sat in her car as the sun came up over the young trees in Blair Avenue. It had been a warm autumn, plenty of rain and the gardens were bursting with life. Balding branches of well-tended trees shadowed the road and the hedges, verdant, waxy leaved, littered the pavement below. A smattering of rain had cleared the sky to an uninterrupted solid blue.
Her bum was numb. She had been sitting there for forty minutes, tiredness and indecision pinning her to the seat. In every fraction of a second she was poised to reach for the car key, pull it out and open the door. The muscles on her forearm twitched in rehearsal, her mind focused on the plastic casing around the key, the crunch of the lock as she pulled the key out, the warm mottled plastic of the door handle, but still she didn’t move.
She had been there so long that the blood had drained from her hands resting on the steering wheel. Several times she had thought about turning the radio on for company, but that would have meant admitting that she wasn’t going to get out of the car.
She could go back to the station. Bannerman was giving a briefing but she could still hide in her office. She had the day off. She could go into the office and say she couldn’t stay away – never mind that she wouldn’t get overtime – show willing, instead of going indoors and dealing with Brian.
She looked up at the brand new house. All the lights were off, the curtains still drawn in the living room.
This had been her dream once, when she was little, to live in a clean, bland house with a clean, bland husband. A man who would never raise his voice or said anything alarming. A man who never shouted ‘fire’ into her sleeping face in the middle of the night because he was pissed and wanted attention. A man who would never get taken away by the police at 6.15 in the morning and spit saliva streaked with blood on his own hall carpet as they dragged him away.
The Blair Avenue house was new, they were the first people ever to live in it and she savoured the absence of history. They chose it because it was quiet and there were so many children in the neighbourhood.
The front door was painted red, the brass letter box polished, glinting a chirpy answer to the early morning sunlight. She’d liked that door when they bought the house. Most of the new-builds had white plastic doors. It was the first thing she’d liked about it, at the viewing.
‘Look at this, Brian.’ She ran her fingers down the watered sheen of red paint and looked up to find him smiling at her hand. She had looked at his lips and known precisely the words they were going to form.
‘That’s a lovely colour, isn’t it?’
She glared at the door now, her mouth moved soundlessly, reforming the words – that’s a lovely colour.
The straightness of the man was gone, the steadiness she had fallen in love with. Brian had become the chaos she was running from.
The postman’s back suddenly obscured her view. He opened the gate and left it wide as he stepped up the path, looking through a bundle of letters, pulling their junk mail and bills out and shoving them through the door. He didn’t look up as he came back down towards her, already sorting the mail for the next house. Birds twittered in trees. A commuter with a briefcase and grey suit crossed the road to his car. People were beginning to stir. She had to go in or be spotted spying on her own home.
A sudden longing struck her, to see Danny, speak to him, be back in that familiar set of tracks. She knew Danny, understood him, could predict him. He was never a straight line and a sudden curve. Danny was always the same and not sorry about it either.
Somehow in her head the thought of Danny became entangled with the Anwar case because of the area, because they were both at school there. She had never asked for his help before, always kept those worlds as far apart as possible, but she was so angry with Bannerman she was prepared to consider it.
Brian was in there, awake possibly, wondering where she was, why she hadn’t come home, why her phone was switched off.
Reaching for the car key her hand lingered for a moment. She turned it, starting the engine and pulling out into the street, heading back into the vibrant, screaming city.
13
It was only a twenty-minute drive from her house at this time of the morning but the brand new block of luxury flats was a world away.
Morrow looked up at the verandas as she pulled on the handbrake. Thrown up during the housing boom they were already beginning to disintegrate. A number of them had been bought with dirty cash, at a time when all property was a good investment. But the gangsters wouldn’t pay the exorbitant maintenance fees and now the flats were coming apart.
They dumped bags of rubbish in the lifts and left police cones in the best parking spots. The factor wasn’t attending to the building any more and lights were out all over the halls, dents in communal walls were being left. One lift in the block was always well maintained though, no one would have dared piss in it or use a lighter to melt the plastic buttons: it was the lift that went to Danny’s penthouse.
She had passed the entrance to the underground car park and pulled up in the street. Going down to the underground car park was safer but buzzing up to Danny would give him advance warning that she was coming up. If he had the chance he’d hide anything incriminating, and they’d have to go through the embarrassing pretence of talking about his security firm and the problems of book keeping and managing men. He was on the cusp of legal, running a string of security firms that ring-fenced a territory and won the contracts in it through threats and sabotage. Anyone who didn’t use Danny’s firm would find their site subject to a spate of fires or assaults on staff until they capitulated. Danny had even made the papers once, a full page stop-this-evil-man. Ambushing him in the early morning was brutal, but at least it was honest.