He killed Shame.
No, I couldn’t think that now, couldn’t deal with that. He was killing me. That was the only thing to focus on. That, and getting as much information as I could out of him about Krogher’s plan.
“Terric,” Eli said. “Are you awake?”
Showtime. I knew he saw my reaction to his voice, the change in my breathing. Since I was currently sitting on the floor with my wrists chained to the cell bars above me and I was blindfolded, I did what I could to manage myself. Stayed still, tried to keep my breathing soft, my mind calm.
I wanted to hear him coming. Please, God, let me hear him coming this time.
“Let’s take that off, shall we?”
The rustle of fabric shifting against his skin as he bent toward me was loud as an ocean roar. He was just to my left. If I kicked, I’d hit him. And whatever weapon he had in his hand would be my reward.
I’d lost a pinkie knuckle last time I’d hit him.
Two for two?
I waited until I could feel the heat off his body, smell the sweat and vodka of his skin.
“We don’t need this, do we, now?” he asked, his fingers fumbling at the blindfold over my eyes.
Low would be useless, ankles if I was lucky. I wanted meat. I wanted blood. Solar plexus, stomach, groin. A connection to any of those would make my day.
Fingers brushed over my eyes, every muscle in my body tensed for the blade, for the needle, for the pain.
Fingers stroked back along my temple. I felt his knuckles at the back of my neck.
My breathing was too hard. Too fast.
The blindfold fell away, revealing the needle that hovered in front of my eye.
He was extended, arm stretched away from his body. Unguarded. Vulnerable.
I kicked him as hard as I could.
Connected.
Turned my head just enough the needle plunged into my cheek.
Eli screamed, skittered away from me. And then there were hands—the others under Krogher’s employ who saw to it I was bound, gagged, beaten. Then there were kicks, and a Taser just to round out the layers of pain.
Agony, for minutes, for hours. Worth it. Worth seeing the hate and the fear on Eli’s face. Maybe I wasn’t breaking as easily as all the others he’d carved up with spells. Maybe I was going to be his worst nightmare when all this was said and done.
It was a brutal hope. And one I held tightly to.
Another fist hit my face, took the lights out.
When I woke, I was strapped down. My left hand was stretched out, tied at the wrist, the elbow, the shoulder.
“That,” Eli said, “was a very bad choice, Terric. I thought we talked about good choices. Choices you should make. But you’re not going to listen to me, I see that now. So now we do this the hard way.”
I took in the details I could while pulling mental walls around me, digging in, and holding against what I knew he was going to do to me. Again.
“Perhaps a pinkie wasn’t enough punishment for your indiscretion. Perhaps we need to dig a little deeper.”
The knife edge dragged down my neck, along the carotid artery. One slice and I’d bleed out in minutes, then down my armpit, axillary artery sliced, and I’d bleed out in minutes, and down and down, following the line of my veins all the way to my thumb.
“Let’s have a little fun, shall we?” Eli said.
He leaned on the blade, pressing it just below my thumb knuckle, breaking the skin, deep enough I felt the familiar gush of blood and heard my own whimpering.
Left hand. It was only my left hand. I’d still have one thumb. I’d still have one hand. I repeated those words over and over again. Holding to them, using them as a shield against the strangling proof that Eli was fucking insane and by the end of this, I would be damaged beyond repair.
But not dead. As long as I breathed, I would have a chance to break free and kill him.
The knife released its bite. He hadn’t chopped off my thumb. Hadn’t gone through with the threat. But he could. Any second. Anytime he wanted. He had done worse.
“Do I have your attention, Terric?” He was still bent over me.
I looked up at him. “Why?” I rasped. “Are you lonely?”
He pounded a fist in my face. I spit blood. Eli wasn’t shy about getting his hands dirty, or his fists bloody. He was also easy to rile up. It was good information to have, but I had no idea how to leverage it.
“What I am is generous,” Eli said. “You are lucky to be breathing, Conley.”
Lucky, my ass. He’d have killed me the second he stepped into my kitchen if he wanted me dead. And all the blood he’d drained, all the flesh he’d carved, all the spells he’d stitched into me weren’t just for his amusement, weren’t to kill me. He was aiming for an outcome.
I just didn’t know what it was yet.
“But not as lucky as some,” he said. He held the knife in front of my face, waiting for me to track it. I tried not to. Tried not to watch as the knife once again scraped cold against my cheek, pressed into the soft flesh under my jawbone, then throat.
I was breathing hard. Already running from the pain I couldn’t escape.
Stay calm. Stay focused.
The knife moved away. And then the pain hit, a hard, fast slice across my pinkie. Second knuckle on what was left of that ruined digit.
I clamped my teeth together and yelled, pulling against the binding, pulling on Life magic.
Life magic that flared in me, filled me. Life magic that could not heal me, because Eli had taken care of that with the spells he’d carved into me.
“Good,” he said. “Good.”
This was what he wanted. I could hear it in his voice. He wanted Life magic. The Life magic in me. And it was right there for the taking.
Stay calm. Stay focused. Hold the walls.
Eli dragged something toward him with his free hand. Sounded like wires skittering across the floor. He attached them to the bindings at my wrists, then ankles.
“Are you ready, Mr. Collins?”
I jerked at Krogher’s voice. Turned my head to see him, standing outside the bars of my cage, holding something that looked like one of the Beckstrom disks glued to a cell phone.
Behind him stood fifty people. Men, women, children. Blank-faced, unmoving.
“Just a moment, Mr. Krogher,” Eli said.
He attached electrodes to plastic tabs pressed into my chest, five points set into the spells he had left there. If you drew a line between them, which Eli had done—in flesh and spell and whatever the hell he’d injected into me—it mapped a pentagram.
“Now,” Eli said quietly, just to me. “I want you to know I’m not doing this for Krogher. I’m doing this for you. To make you pay for everything you’ve done to me, for the things Closers have done to me, for killing Brandy. Understand? See all those innocent people? Casualties of the war you lost three years ago when magic changed. Casualties you can’t save. You know why? Because you are going to be the one who kills them. Oh, they won’t take their last breath today, but this . . .” He dug his thumb into the ruins of my chest and I arched back in pain, screaming.
“This isn’t just a pretty picture. This is a spell that will give us direct access to the magic you contain. I don’t know how you hold magic in your body. Sure, those people out there can be vessels for magic because it nearly killed them . . . tainted magic. Maybe you almost died too, maybe when you and Shame were killing Jingo Jingo back in the day, it changed you, turned you into this hollow shell for Life magic. I would love to have studied you back then, but, well. All things come to those who wait. And today, I’m going to use the magic in you to charge the spells I’ve carved into those poor, brainless people out there. And when we use those spells, use those people, one shot and . . .”