The eyes. The young Elizabeth—somewhere in between National Velvet and the Burton years. A face of such exquisite beauty even the medium of film, with a vast and sparkling screen blowing that perfection up ten thousand times larger than life, could not amplify the stunning, hammering effect of the eyes. So violet. So uniquely captivating a hue. Almost inhuman in their effect on the viewer. So unmistakably memorable an experience that once, years later, on Catalina, he'd seen a young girt in a bikini the color of those violet eyes and he'd chased her for an hour on principle. The eyes of Liz.
A few years back there'd been the showgirl on her way to the Coast. He'd seen her in an airport. A heart-stopper. Then, during her television reign as Wonder Woman, he'd been working in California and his path had crossed that of Lynda Carter. The legs, the upper chest, the carriage—just beyond anything he'd ever experienced. Only a fuzzy and vague distortion of that look ever found its way onto the small TV screens. But to see her up close, in person, the body of that woman was like a sunset or a perfect landscape. It was a thing to be painted, captured, hung in the Louvre or the Prado for all to admire. Proof that humanity could look that good.
Now this blonde. His pubescent Dallas Cowgirls fantasy vivified, animated, switched on, keyed to his frequency and harmonics, made real by some mad Dr. Frankensex. All just a wet dream. All of Dallas but a dream designed to frame the Noel Collier sex fantasy. And the experience was a heady, blurring, brain-smashing intoxication more disorienting and traumatizing than the worst binge he could remember. It was a slick, dangerous slide and when he grabbed for a railing to keep from going over the high side he dreamed he missed the rail and caught the brass ring instead.
Later when he would be cursed with total retentivity of the dream he could redden over and over again at the detail of the imagined dialogue. Jeeeezzzzus, was there going to be no mercy? he would think. But that would come much later. The fantasy would come first. In two parts. First would come the seduction and the sex. Every detail from the spaghetti to the drive out to her palatial home in Highland Park, which he'd read about in a local newspaper profile, to the humiliating dream of the morning after when he confessed about his love for TV dinners, it would be crystal-clear.
“Do you like spaghetti?” she asked, lighting two white candles on the table.
“Wonderful.” He could not begin to tell her the wonderfulness of spaghetti. He was no longer able to answer in complete sentences.
“Good,” she said, “because that's dinner. Just good old spaghetti and a green salad. Is that okay?"
“Sounds great,” he intoned.
She poured something into a glass and handed it to him. “And chilled red wine. You like?"
“I like,” he breathed as their fingers touched and the hot flames danced between them and he took a sip of the something and tasted only his desire and said, “Yeah. I do like.” And they smiled at each other. He was gone. Over the edge.
She was rich, he supposed. She lived in North Dallas. A place in Highland Park. She had told him she owned it, or her corporation did ... something. He couldn't remember. There had been jokes about the ritzy residential section. He had told her some old stale gag about how he'd been given to understand that the Highland Park area was so exclusive that the fire department had an unlisted number, and she roared with a warmth and lack of restraint that he dreamed would be typical of all her actions.
He dreamed ultra-realistically. Imagining conversation. He made obligatory probes about how she happened to get involved in the defense; she parried gently, telling him less than nothing, inferring that nothing was solidified at all. Still a good possibility they wouldn't get together. He hoped she wouldn't she semiagreed but it was her job after all. Eichord dreamed that she told him, “I'm a defense attorney, Jack. That's what I do. I provide half of the necessary counsel to make our adversary system of justice work. I have to defend people accused of heinous crimes. And this individual, like any other, irrespective of the horror of the crimes he might be accused of, deserves and will get that same measure of fair representation under the law."
“I agree. I just hate to see you be the one that's having to be anywhere near something like this. This has a very bad feel."
“I'm not a virgin,” she had told him. It was not a flirtatious or sexy statement. She meant it as a declaration.
They talked about her career a bit. Noel Collier wasn't as driven as he thought she might be. She had other goals.
Unblushingly, he dreamed that she said, “Sometime. I don't know how far down the road. But someday I hope I'll find a good guy and I'll probably opt to stay home a few years and make babies. Right now that seems far away but nobody knows what the future holds. I just know I'm not going to be centered on my career as the be-all end-all of my life. I'm a family lady. I want all the goodies—the hearthside, the guy, the kids."
“It sounds nice. I hope you get it all.” There was a time when he had wanted all these things too. It was so long ago and far, now.
Dinner was a lingering and long affair. The red wine and the candles had produced a glow that he couldn't remember feeling. There was an intensity and a magnitude of desire that was overwhelming both of them, coming out of nowhere as it had, and under such improbable circumstances, and they were on the sofa, primly side by side, each smiling at nothing, not talking, and then his little finger brushed against hers. He was holding her hand gently, letting his fingers caress hers very lightly, barely touching, just the slightest imperceptible movement, looking at the fineness of her glowing skin and the almost invisible trace of hairs on her arm, everything about her fine and delicate and feminine.
“What?” she said, quizzically, when he gazed steadily into her eyes, saying nothing. And he smiled and they each drew closer until their mouths were almost touching and he breathed in essence of woman and his other hand touched the back of her lovely head and she relaxed, letting herself lay back slightly, her head leaning back into his cupped hand, neither of them kissing but their mouths still very close and her lips full and parted and both of them savoring the moment.
She smelled so clean so...
He couldn't name it. He told her, “I'm good at colognes, perfumes, fragrances"—his voice coming out a little hoarse unexpectedly as he whispered to her mouth, still locked on those gorgeous eyes—"and I'm trying to isolate the scent. It's not Chanel. It's not newly mown springtime Bermuda. It's not fresh bread. It's not Obsession. It's not musk—"
She laughed.
“It's not Anais Anais, either.” Her dialogue was so real to him.
“Well, I should say not.” Their mouths so close. “I ain't wearin’ nothin, mister.” Nothin’ on but the radio. Marilyn revisited.
“I thought as much all along. Essence of girl."
“Pure eau de Noel,” she tried to say but during the long o sound of Noel their hungry mouths finally met and the tongues lashed out in an explosion of liquid fire and it was a long time before they came up for air, strands of her hair plastered across his face, her arms on him, his hands caressing her, breathing in her soft warmth and the femininity of her, both of them breathing hard against each other and their mouths coming together again his fingers moving seeking zippers and both of them knowing then that there would be only one way to put out this fire that was consuming them.