45
Sally
I finally received a text from Mark: Please do not contact my ex-wife. This is none of Elaine’s business.
I was furious. I had only spoken to Elaine twice. I had never met her, even though she had offered.
I texted him back straight away. Fine. What did you want with me, Mark? That’s what I can’t figure out. And then, as an afterthought, I sent another text. By the way, I got another card from ‘S’ the day after you left. Could that be you? Are you playing mind games with me?
My phone rang moments later.
‘Mark?’
‘What did the card say?’
‘Well, hello to you too.’
‘I need to know what it said.’
‘I need to know why my uncle would turn up here in Carricksheedy, pretend to be my friend, and then vanish without a word.’
‘I wanted to tell you, honestly, but I just needed to be sure. And I was about to tell you. I was going to, after the party. I wanted to tell you and your Aunt Christine together. But I thought you’d be like her, like Denise.’ His voice cracked.
‘Mark?’ There was a muffled sound and then his voice was broken by tears.
‘I thought you’d be like her, but you’re like him.’
‘What are you talking about?’
‘Sally, you’re violent and aggressive.’
‘What? I know. I’m dealing with that side of things. Mark, I need to see you. I feel hurt and confused and angry.’
‘I’m afraid of your anger.’
‘Me too. Please come back and let’s talk.’
He took a lot of persuading and was reluctant to come to the village, so I arranged to meet him in Farnley Manor, a country house hotel outside Roscommon town, at the weekend.
Farnley Manor was a beautiful converted castle on the banks of the Shannon. The first thing I noticed when I entered the impressive marble lobby was an unattended grand piano among the plush champagne-coloured sofas.
Mark stood up from one of the sofas and waved towards me. I approached him as if for the first time and, when we were standing face to face, I put out my arms towards him. He accepted the hug. I was filled with an unfamiliar emotion and, when I stepped back, I noticed him reaching for a handkerchief to dab his eyes. ‘You’re my uncle,’ I said.
We sat, and he had ordered afternoon tea so a cake stand was soon delivered to our table. Eventually, he said, ‘I saw you, from the sitting-room window. Lashing out. Violent. At your party, with Caroline … and then you reappeared as if nothing had happened.’
He saw me attacking Caroline.
‘Oh, Mark, you have no idea. I was overwhelmed by fear. I was worried that Conor Geary would show up. Tina told me my fear was irrational, but my brain doesn’t know it’s being irrational at the time.’ He just stared at me.
‘Denise was like that too,’ I said, ‘violent.’
‘My sister was the sweetest. She would never strike out –’
‘She did after my birth father was finished with her. It’s all in my dad’s notes.’
‘Please … tell me about her. My father won’t discuss her, my mother died calling her name … you must remember something.’
I explained yet again that I had no memory of Denise, but I had a good impression of her from the taped interviews and my dad’s written reports.
‘They were going into storage, Mark, but I kept them once I discovered who you were. You’re entitled to see and hear them all.’
One of the first things he talked about was Toby. ‘He was my bear. I was four years old when Denise was abducted. I followed her around all the time. She would play games with me. Sometimes she would hide Toby in the front garden in a hedge. I thought you’d like to have these. I had the originals restored and copied.’ He took out an envelope and handed it to me. There were only four photographs, all black-and-white. One of a small girl in a communion dress and veil, her hands clasped, eyes heavenward. A pretty girl with big eyes and freckles across both cheeks. In another, she was older, holding the hand of a toddler, Mark, who in turn was holding a small bear, brand new, but recognizable immediately as Toby. Her hair had darkened. Then there was a portrait photograph of her, smiling with cherubic cheeks. I had seen this one before but only from newspaper archives on the internet. The last one was a family photo. Mark was a baby, Denise was frowning. Her father’s hands were on her shoulders. Her mother was grinning at the new baby in her arms.
I remembered the photographs in Dad’s files. Denise as an adult, emaciated, almost toothless, thin, limp-haired and angry. Clinging on to me for life. Mark would have to see those too.
‘This photo,’ I pointed at the portrait, ‘this was taken shortly before she was abducted, right?’
Mark nodded, his eyes glassy.
I thought of Abebi and Maduka, and Sue’s children, and Anubha’s children. Their smallness, their innocence. I felt anger again, but checked myself when I looked at Mark, Denise’s brother. I wished I’d had a sibling. Someone to share these feelings with. Someone who missed me as much as he missed Denise.
‘I don’t understand,’ I said, ‘you were so young. How could you miss someone you knew for such a short time?’
‘She dominated my entire life. Some of my earliest memories are of my mother crying, flashing blue lights outside our house, guards coming to our front door. In supermarkets, shopping centres, on holidays down the country, we never stopped looking. By the time I was sixteen, there was nowhere left to search. Our dining room was a shrine. There was even an altar with that photo in a silver frame in the middle of it. Candles constantly burning.’
‘Oh, Mark.’ I was imagining what it was like to be Mark. I was putting myself in his shoes. ‘Weren’t you angry?’ I asked, thinking that I would have been.
‘One day I came home from school and watched as Mum blew out the candles on the altar. She wanted to give up.’ His face dropped into his hands. ‘I tried to relight the candles, but Dad stopped me. The altar was dismantled the next day and the photo disappeared into a drawer. They stopped talking about Denise, they stopped talking about anything. Our home was silent and I couldn’t think which was worse.’
I felt true sadness.
‘When I left home at eighteen to go to college, I felt like I could breathe for the first time. I worked shifts in a petrol station and rented a tiny, dingy flat in Rathmines, and for six months, I lived a normal life. I made friends with guys who didn’t know who I was, I had girlfriends, I played a lot of snooker. I was finally free of it all. And then … she was found.’
I let a silence fall between us, because I knew the rest of the story, or I thought I did. One question bugged me, though.
‘It was an anonymous tip-off, wasn’t it?’
‘I think I know the answer to that one. It was on one of those true crime websites. A guy who ended up in Mountjoy Prison claimed he’d made that call to the guards to tell them where Denise Norton was being held. He’d discovered her while trying to burgle the house.’
‘What? When?’
‘The house in Killiney, where you were held. He boasted about it, apparently, to cellmates but was too stupid to realize he could have used it to get leniency on one of his many prison sentences. Word got around, though.’
‘Is he still alive? I’d like to talk to him.’
‘No, he died in 2011. It infuriates me that prison guards and police knew this for years and never thought that we might want to talk to him. I managed to verify it a few years ago with his sister.’