Babies like Brenna, with cute fat cheeks and sweet-smelling pigtails.
Oh no. I wonder if the khui makes me baby-crazy, too. I’m alarmed at the thought and I want to ask, but I also don’t want it getting around camp. The last thing I want is for Skarr to find out that I’m asking about babies or how resonance makes you feel.
If there’s anything that needs asking about, it’s the plural-dick situation, and I don’t know how to ease into that conversation. Do all aliens have two dicks? Is Skarr an anomaly?
Where does that second dick go? I mean, there’s an obvious hole but…
Flustered at the thought, I automatically eat the spoon of food Brenna shoves at me, much to the child’s delight.
Chapter Nineteen
SKARR
I set off early in the morning with Ashtar, and he brings along the human Jason. I am not thrilled about the addition to our party, but he says Jason wishes to learn how to build a hut as well. I understand this. We are the smart ones, looking to impress females with our skills. Let the others sleep in while we gain the advantage.
I will need every advantage I can get in order to impress my Vivi.
So Ashtar shifts to a dragon and takes us several coves away, where we can pick through the tumble of rocks and look for large ones that will make up the base of the hut. When Ashtar is in his “battle form” he can haul extremely heavy things, and he will fly them back for us. We only have to pick out what we need and try to fit it together.
I walk the beach, looking for the best, the most perfect rocks, and I think about Vivi.
Last night has been playing through my mind, over and over again. How beautiful she was when she laughed, how her eyes sparkled in the moonlight. The drink loosened her inhibitions, making her relax and forget her worries. And she kissed me.
Kissing. I can definitely see the appeal of it, now that I have experienced it. Vivi knew what she was doing. She flung herself at me and planted her mouth on mine and then coaxed her tongue into my mouth, taking control. It was incredible, and realizing that she was kissing me only because she was drunk ruined the moment for me. I do not want her kisses when she is out of her mind with drink. I want her kisses because she wants me.
Then I tried to stop her, and everything went wrong.
Vivi gave me frisky touches, and it took everything I had to push them away. She reached for my cock and rubbed, and I immediately extruded both upper and lower cock, like an untouched boy.
Immediately, she ran.
It was humiliating.
I don’t even know what I did wrong. Were my cocks not large enough to please her and she realized I was failing her? Was it that I extruded right into her grasp even after I turned her away? I wish I knew the answer. While she has no memories of her name or where she comes from, I have no memories when it comes to touching females. I assume I am good at it, but doubt eats away at my confidence and leaves my mood sour.
I find a large slab of rock in a vaguely triangular shape and wave both Jason and Ashtar over. They examine the rocks and Jason makes a pleased sound as he hops down to another rocky outcrop right below. “We might have enough for both floors right here. Now we just need to piece them together like a jigsaw.”
“Jig-saw?” I ask. “What is this?”
“A puzzle,” Jason continues, still gazing down at the rock. “Though I suppose we could mortar any cracks with smaller stones and some sort of cement mixture. Did I tell you guys my dad was a builder? I remember a few things he taught me, and I think we can work with this.”
Ashtar turns to his battle form and pries the first large hunk of rock from the side of the beach while Jason and I stand nearby, watching it rain down sand and bits of shell.
I eye the human male. He is smaller than I am. Much smaller. His shoulders are not as broad, and he is only a bit taller than Vivi, who is among the tallest of the human females. Perhaps I am too well-equipped? Could that be it? Are my cocks too large to please her? “Jason, are human cocks puny?”
Jason sputters.
Ashtar immediately turns to human again, discarding the large slab of rock and letting it land with a heavy THUD on the beach. His face is wreathed in an amused grin. “Sorry, I’ve got to hear this. What’s this now?”
The male drakoni is naked, as he does not wear clothing when he shifts between forms. I have seen him naked before, but now that I am thinking about cock sizes, I study his closely. The size looks to be equitable to mine, and Ashtar is also larger than Jason. So I gesture at him. “You are large enough. I know I am large enough. I am curious if Jason’s cock is tiny. If all human males are under-equipped.”
“What the fuck, bro.” Jason puts his hands on his hips. “Are you asking me to pull my dick out and compare with you?”
I shrug and start to undo my belt. “I would not mind that.”
Jason puts his hands up. “No, no no no. I am not whipping it out just because you’re curious. I want to know what brought this on.”
This seems a fair enough question. “I was getting somewhere with my mate last night. She touched me and ran. I wonder if it was my size that intimidated her. That perhaps she is used to small human cocks instead of mine.”
“Ugh. You are full of yourself. Are you sure she didn’t run because you were talking?”
“I am certain. She does not mind my talking.” Well, much.
Jason rolls his eyes. “Then she’s the only one. You won’t shut up about how awesome you are and it gets on everyone’s nerves.”
It does? “Why would I be shy about my strength and cunning? It should be reassuring. The tribe will know I am a good, competent hunter. Not just competent, but the best.”
Ashtar says nothing, his hand pressed to his mouth. It looks like he is trying to hide a laugh or a grimace.
“If you’re so incredibly awesome, wouldn’t we already know this?” Jason demands. “Why shout it?”
“Because—”
“Children, children,” Ashtar finally speaks up, stepping forward toward us. “You sound like my boys right now. We’re all friends here.”
“I am merely trying to understand if it is the size of my cocks that is the problem,” I point out.
Jason blinks. “I’m sorry, did you say cocks?”
“I did.”
“I think we found out the issue.” Jason smirks. “You really have two cocks?”
“Of course. I am a ssethri splice.” I fail to see where this is strange.
Jason points at Ashtar then at himself. “He doesn’t have two cocks. I don’t have two cocks.”
“He is drakoni. You are human.” I shake my head again. “As I said, I am ssethri.”
“But your mate is human,” Ashtar reminds me. “And she knows nothing of other races of people in this galaxy. Not like we do.”
Is this so? Is that why Vivi panicked? Because I had one more cock than she expected? It is not the size of it or my reaction to her? “I cannot make one of my cocks vanish. When they extrude, they both extrude at once.”
“Extrude?” Jason’s brows furrow.
Ashtar uncurls a finger in an almost bouncy motion, demonstrating.
“Oh shit, extrude.” Jason’s eyes widen. “Well, now I want to see this shit after all. I’ll show you mine if you show me yours.”
So now he wants to see my cock? Bah. “I am not going to extrude for you. Only for my female.” I pause, considering. “So you think it was the number of cocks that made her panic?”