Josh shut the door and grabbed my hand again, leading me up two flights of stairs to the second door on the right. He grabbed the knob. “This is me.” He motioned across the hall. “That’s Cinda. I always know she’s home because of the kids screaming.”
“Her kids?” I asked, alarmed.
“No.” He chuckled. “No, Cinda is a professional babysitter. She’s always busy. If she’s home, she has somebody’s kids with her. Even at night. She makes a killing,” he said, pushing open his door. “She also sits for me because I’m gone so much. I probably shouldn’t have gotten a dog, but Quinn didn’t want him, and it seemed like a Good Samaritan thing to do at the time …” His voice trailed off as he opened the door to his apartment.
His apartment was blank like mine, just a ratty couch, recliner, and hutch in the living room. I breathed in, and instead of chicken vomit or baba ganoush, I smelled bleach, mint, and Josh’s cologne.
“Lived here long?” I asked.
“Nope. Just a few months. I had to find something quick so I could stop couch surfing.”
“And why is that?” I asked.
“Why was I couch surfing?”
I nodded.
“Because I’d just moved to town.”
“Why?”
“Damn.” He grinned. “Didn’t know this was going to turn into the Spanish Inquisition.”
I clutched my arms. The air conditioning was on full blast. “I’m alone with you in your apartment. I think I’m entitled to the basics.”
“You cold?” he asked.
“It feels like a meat locker in here.”
“I sleep better that way.”
“How do you afford the bill?” I asked.
Josh disappeared into a doorway and then came out holding a gray hoodie. He tossed it to me. “Put it on. It’s really warm.”
I looked down. “I don’t think you want it against my scrubs.”
“C’mon, like I don’t get lathered in bodily fluids all day? It’ll buff out. Put it on before you freeze.”
“Buff out? That’s an odd thing to say.”
He shrugged. “Like buffing a scratch from a car. My dad used to always say it for everything. We’re gearheads. I get elbow deep in grease on a regular basis. It relaxes me. Clears my head.”
I slipped the hoodie over my head. A green Adidas logo was stamped on the front, and it happened to be the softest thing I’d even worn. “God, this is amazing.”
“Isn’t it? It’s my favorite.”
The gesture wasn’t lost on me that he’d handed me his favorite sweatshirt to wear. “I’ll get it back to you after I wash it.”
“No rush … There you are!” he said, grabbing his wallet off the hutch and stuffing it into his back pocket.
“Now we can go. Sorry about that.” He called his dog, reaching down to pet him.
“That’s an awful name. Sounds like a serial killer,” I said.
Josh feigned offense. “You don’t like it? Okay, you name him, then.”
“What? No. I just meant …”
Josh stood, crossing his arms. “I’m serious. Give him a better name if you don’t like it.”
“Like a nickname?”
“Yeah. I’m still calling him …” Tiny whimpers came from the floor, and I bent over to run my fingers through coarse black and brown hair. “Didi,” I said. “That’s close enough to what he’s used to, so I don’t confuse him.”
Josh wrinkled his nose. “He’s a boy, Avery.”
“Fine, just Dee, then.”
“Dee it is,” Josh said, bending over to ruffle the hair on Dee’s head. “I’ll be back later.”
Dee whined when we approached the door.
My mouth curved down. He looked so lonely, and I knew exactly how that felt. “You just got home. Maybe we should stay here?”
“You sure?” he asked.
“Yeah, we can have JayWok deliver and watch a movie.”
Josh shook his head. “No movies. I’m kind of enjoying the inquisition.” He jogged back to the door, opened it, and then grabbed his phone. The dog wiggled its butt against Josh’s ankles again, and then ran over to me. I picked him up and sat on the couch.
“Hey, it’s Josh.”
I smiled. Josh called them as much as I did. “The same for me, and Avery’s over here. Yeah, chicken fried rice and low-sodium soy.” He gestured to me, making sure that was all right. I nodded. “Delivery. Thanks, Coco.”
“If I still had a car,” I said, “I’d ask you to teach me to change my oil. That would save me a ton of money.”
He shrugged. “I can do it. I don’t mind.”
I looked at him, unimpressed. “I need you to teach me, that way I can do it on my own when you tell me you’re not interested in a relationship.”
He looked around his apartment and then walked over to me, sitting on the cushion next to me. “Hadn’t crossed my mind, actually.”
“Right,” I deadpanned.
I wasn’t about to feign naïvety just to make Josh feel better. I had to at least protect my dignity, if not my pride. Knowing what the other nurses were thinking, seeing us chatting and making plans when he delivered patients to the ER, was hard enough. I had been one of those nurses once, making bets with Deb on how many drinks it would take Josh to get a particular nurse into bed, and how many days she would cry after.
Work would be easier later if I played this right.
“I thought we weren’t going to do that,” he said, unhappy.
“Do what?”
“Play games.”
“I recall you saying play nice. Technically, that’s playing something.”
“That’s not what I meant. You know,” he said, shifting uncomfortably. “Like you said, let’s be brave. Balls out. No back and forth, no anticipation of the other person’s next move. Let’s cut through all the bullshit and just be honest without worrying we sound too … anything.”
“Okay,” I said, unsure.
“I like you,” he admitted. “A lot. I was attracted to you before the accident, but since, everything’s changed. I want to get to know you better, but I’ve been sort of a dick since I got here, and I’m fairly certain you don’t believe a word that comes out of my mouth.”
“No, but you oversharing is mildly entertaining. Tell me more.”
He smiled. “You look exceptionally beautiful in my hoodie. Avery?”
“Yeah?”
“Can I kiss you?”
“Um, sure.” I cringed at how awkward I sounded.
He raked his fingers gently into my hair at the nape of my neck and leaned in. I closed my eyes, and then I heard whimpering. Dee jumped up, licking and nibbling my chin.
I squealed, leaning back and wiping my chin with the hoodie sleeve.
“C’mon!” Josh said, chuckling while he set the wirehaired dog on the floor.
“He missed you,” I said.
He shook his head, pointing to the ball of fur. “No, no,” he said, trying not to laugh. He turned to me. “Ask me something.”
“Anything?”
“Almost anything.”
“What can’t I ask?”
“Oh, c’mon!”
“You said to ask you something! At least answer that.”
“I don’t like talking a lot about my past.”
“Join the club.”
“Oh, sweet Avery Jacobs has skeletons?” He smirked.
“Everyone has skeletons. So, pretty much everything is off the table with you.”
“Ask me. I can’t promise I’ll answer now, but I promise to answer later.”
I thought for a minute. “Why did you move to Philly?”
“My grandfather got me a job at LifeNet here.”
I nodded. “Does your grandfather live here?”
“He did when he first married Granny. They moved to Abbottstown when she found out she was pregnant. He had some connections here and said it would be good for me.”
“Why?”
Josh squirmed. “Later.”
I nodded. “Were you always so … charismatic?”
“That’s a nice way to say it. Y’know, it never occurred to me to be embarrassed about it, but sitting with you at the moment, I kind of am.”
“You don’t have to be embarrassed. It’s not like I’m a virgin.”