"I love swapping…," Mickey blushed! "Now and then a guy managed to thrill me with his erection. If he's smart enough to manipulate the root of his tool against my clit he may get a small response. I get a charge out of making it with another guy in front of Harry. I like to think it makes him feel humiliated. But it doesn't. Harry even gets a kick out of indulging in homosexual acts with other men!"
"My greatest thrill came from 'flat-fucking* Darlene. Technically I think it's known as "Venus Observa feminae". Darlene invited me to her plush apartment for coffee during the day while her husband was at work. Since she lives in a crowded high-rise there's little chance her husband will find out about our erotic meetings. Believe me-lots of sensual women invite me to their apartments for coffee."
"I've had a few bad reactions from husbands who found me in their homes making love to their wives…," Mickey noted. "One guy got pretty abusive and asked me to leave his wife alone. Seemed he didn't mind it at parties where others could watch us… but he didn't like his wife being a lesbian in private. After that experience I rented a small apartment in the Village under an assumed name. I take the women I meet at swap parties there so we can have privacy. I don't want anymore jealous husbands breathing down my neck! I keep my play-pen stocked with booze and artificial stimulators which the gals seem to like so well!"
"One dame threatened t‹o blackmail me if I didn't make love to her all the time. For that reason I sometimes set up a camera in a closet with a self-timing device and take indecent photos of me and my partner. Not for blackmail purposes-but to keep me from a scandal! I don't hold these photos over my partners heads. I love the women I take to bed too much for that. It's merely a form of counter-protection in case one tries to blackmail me."
"Believe it or hot-Harry doesn't have the slightest suspicion that I'm a lez. Who would imagine a married woman, with a lovely daughter, who is so outwardly respectable-who would imagine she's a sucking dike? Especially when she goes to such extremes to please her husband?"
"I'm gay to the core…," Mickey admitted. "I do feel a little guilty about how I deceive my husband. I mean there's n$ real physical love between us. I submit and fake elaborate orgasms. It's my duty as Harry's wife to at least try and cooperate in the sex act."
"I don't hate my husband… no! It's difficult to hate a man who is so nice to you. It's not Harry's fault I don't come when we have sex. He sure tries hard enough to thrill me. I swoon in his arms, Sometimes I even become aggressive about the sex act. Harry likes for me to do that. Many times I'll masturbate Harry's penis and get it rigid. Then I'll straddle his belly and mount him in the position of 'coitus more ferrarum'. I literally suck his raging penis into my own hot hole. I slowly begin moving up and down. I'm always careful that he doesn't ejaculate prematurely. My vaginal muscles are firm and they can grip his cock firmly!"
"I like being active during an act of intercourse with my husband! I can finger-screw my own clitty as I move up and down his cock-pole. Harry has a wild time watching me masturbate in front of his very eyes! I get carried away then and sometimes I may really climax as Harry shoots his juice in me!"
"My hubby is a swap nut…," Mickey admitted. "We go to five different swaps a month. That's with five different groups. We swap about three times a week. I make love to just as many women during these sessions as I do men!"
"Swapping is a completely safe way to satisfy homosexual desires. For one, swapping is a wonderful cover-up for a woman's lesbian activities. I can pose as a married woman and still eat cunt to my heart's content without causing a scandal. Another important thing. The wives of the swapping men are a lot more lovely and attractive than the stuff you meet in the gay bars! I like making love to a woman who is heterosexual. I like bringing women out too! I like to think these normal women enjoy me as much as they do their own husbands! I have a ball making love to heterosexual women!"
PSYCHOLOGICAL COMMENT:
In most instances persons who consult me are troubled with problems of a highly emotional or sexual nature. In this case history Mickey Dulaney was a married woman who had, up until now, kept many secrets hidden from her husband.
Mickey admitted she was a confirmed homosexual who used the 'group swaps' as an ideal method of making contact with swinging heterosexual females. Mickey-admitted the women who engaged in bisexual acts in the group swaps were much more attractive and intelligent than the girls one met in local gay bars.
Not all married women are heterosexual. The truth is that many wives are homosexual, and even more are bisexual. Although Mickey submits to relations with both sexes she cannot be classified as 'bisexual' since she derives no pleasure from relations with the opposite sex.
As a qualified psychiatrist noted-'it's not how we act outwardly that counts-but how we feel inwardly.' A promiscuous whore can be a homosexual at heart if she does not enjoy her relations with me and if she longs to share the sexual embrace with other women.
Mickey must be classified as a married homosexual who finds bisexual relations somewhat distasteful but worthy of cultivation due to the fact that swapping leads her to a great number of sex contacts with her own sex.
In THE LESBIAN IN GROUP LOVE Matt and Kathleen Galant distinguish the lesbian from the bisexual…
"Homosexual practices between women have long been referred to as lesbianism, which is taken from the homosexuality attributed to Sappho on the island of Lesbos. The general usage of the word lesbian today is in reference to the female whose only sexual pleasure is obtained in a homosexual relationship with another female. For the purpose of semantics… we must differentiate between the lesbian and the bisexual. The female bisexual, while participating in homosexual acts with other females, also enjoys and engages in heterosexual acts with other males. The true lesbian, on the other hand, can only find sexual fulfillment through a homosexual act and is at least indifferent to, if not repulsed by, any heterosexual contact." (12)
Because Mickey fails to find any satisfaction in the heterosexual act she is a homosexual. Mickey reports incidents of homosexuality in childhood while admitting that she found pleasure with boys during adolescence. My opinion is that Mickey became actively lesbian-oriented after one specific incident of male sadism. Subsequent confinement in a prison environment more thoroughly enforced these feelings of alienation from the opposite sex.
Mickey feels guilty about deceiving her husband. She longs to please him more while enjoying greater pleasure herself. The fact that Mickey can tolerate repeated acts of coitus with different males indicates that she may enjoy some degree of response to the heterosexual embrace.
I feel that extensive psychotherapy may rid Mickey of her hidden but deep-rooted hostilities toward men in general. I feel that Mickey's true responses are temporarily blocked due to one unfortunate incident of sexual sadism.
Mickey genuinely desires to change her sexual orientation so that she may enjoy heterosexual copulation. Otherwise Mickey would not have sought help. Emotionally Mickey loved her husband very much. Through psychotherapy we are hoping that Mickey's feelings may be given more authentic expression. Then Mickey may feel that the sex "act" has become a thrilling mutual response rather than an empty theatrical gesture.