"To see your daughter." Whom I had not at the time known existed.
"I felt it worth the price," Del agreed. "The-risk. But I was wrong. I never should have used you so poorly."
I shrugged, discomfited as much by her emotions as by such painful recollections. "That's in the past, bascha."
"You might have left me at any time. No doubt some people would have counseled you to. Some would have named you mad, to stay with me in such circumstances. What I did was-unconscionable. Unforgivable."
I tried to be offhand. "Well, there's no accounting for a man's folly when a woman is involved."
Del's bittersweet smile was of brief duration. "Or a woman's, when a child is involved."
"So," I said after a moment, "we're even."
"Are we?"
"We've done things to-and for –one another." I hitched my shoulders briefly. "And will, I assume."
"Do things to and for one another?"
"Well, yes. It seems to be our habit."
Del nodded. "And knowing that," she said, "you will perhaps forgive me."
Oh, hoolies… "Wow what have you done?"
"I have undertaken my own seduction."
The first mate? But the captain had said the man lacked testicles!
Del read my expression. "No," she said, "not like that. Why do you assume the obvious?" Then she answered herself immediately and matter-of-factly. "Because you are male." She went on before I could raise a protest beyond opening my mouth. "There is the seduction of the mind as well as of the body. It requires subtlety. It requires duplicity." She pressed both hands against her breast. "And both of those live here."
"Now, bascha, I don't think that's an accurate summation of-"
"Take pride in that you were convincing," she said. "I believed you. That's what you wanted-needed –so the others would believe as well. And so I do believe, and now so do they."
"But it was only to make the captain think we were fighting. So that it might seem more likely I'd look to her, to make you jealous."
"That would be a logical assumption, yes," Del agreed, "but I have said she is not a stupid woman. She will not be taken in by ordinary means."
"You calling me ordinary?"
"Surely the gods would curse me if I said such of a jhihadi." She doesn't miss anything, this woman. "So of course I will never do so. Ordinary you are not." Her mouth tensed into a flat, thin line as she thought of something, then relaxed. "And I have taken pains to make certain the first mate knows it."
Alarmed now, I blurted it. "What have you done, Del?"
"Undertaken to tell him the truth of you."
"The-truth?"
"So far as we know it." Pale brows arched. "We have established that truth is much more convincing."
"What truth?"
"That you may be Skandic. That we believe you are. That a man appeared to believe you were, when he saw you. That we are-were-sailing to Skandi to investigate."
None of it sounded terribly fascinating. "Why would the first mate care about any of this?"
"Because he said so."
I thought that over, weighing scenarios. "In what way?"
"In the way of a man who desires coin."
"Now wait a minute, bascha. Apart from making some coin off me in the slave markets-and you'd probably bring more-there're not many options."
"He came to me, Tiger. He asked questions about you. Because I was angry, I answered them."
"Angry." One should always be careful when Del admits to anger. "In what way were you angry, what questions did he ask, and how did you answer them?" Better to string the whole thing together, or this might take all day. "And what did he say once you had answered them?"
"He was-unsurprised."
That made me uneasy. "Unsurprised about what? Me? You?" I raised a silencing hand. "Never mind that. Let's go back to the questions before that one. The ones about you being angry, what he asked, and what you said."
"I was angry in just the way you intended me to be, when you made that scene on the deck," she said simply. "He asked who you were, where you were from, who your parents were-"
I interrupted sharply. "And did you tell him I don't know?"
"I told him the truth, Tiger. As I had decided-but also because I had no choice."
"What do you mean, no choice?"
"It was the only way I could think of to keep you alive."
I growled frustration. "What in hoolies-"
She continued steadily. "He says there is no doubt you are indeed Skandic-ioSkandic, he called you-and that he will speak to his captain about taking you there."
This sounded suspicious. "Just like that?"
"Well, no," she confessed. "They are renegadas, after all."
"Ah." It made more sense now. "For a price."
"But you do not have to pay it."
"Well, that's a relief! Seeing as how I have nothing to pay it with!" I scowled at her. "Spill it, bascha. What in hoolies is going on?"
Del hitched her shoulders. "He said they would make a plan, he and his captain, and then they would tell us."
"Oh, that sounds promising!" I caught the string of sandtiger claws tied around my neck and yanked it straight; one of the curved claws had caught in my hair. "Did he tell you her father is a slaver?"
"This has nothing to do with slavery," Del said gently. "It has to do with a boychild born in the Southron desert of parents he never knew, who grew to become a man who grew to become a jhihadi-and who apparently looks enough like a man from Skandi that others speak to him in that language."
"But we don't know that I-"
"He says you are. And I believe him."
"Why? What has he done to earn your trust?"
"I don't trust him," she explained coolly. "I said I believed him. And it is for what he is, rather than what he says." Del smiled a little, studying me. "You see a bald man with rings in his eyebrows and blue tattoos on his head."
"That pretty much sums him up, I'd say."
"But I see a man who is of the same bone, the same body, even the same eyes. With hair, Tiger, he could be you." She paused. "Though he is older than you, and the hair might show more silver."
"Oh, thanks." I glared at her, thinking about the silvering strands she'd begun finding in mine. "You think we're long-lost brothers, or something?"
She made a dismissive gesture. "No, no, of course not. That would be too much like a tale told around the fire-cairn."
"No kidding!"
She looked straight at me. "I said there was no telling who you might be related to. Kings even. Or queens."
"What, no godlings? I'm a messiah, after all."
Del smiled blandly.
"In the name of-" But I broke off as the door opened. Del looked over my shoulder. I swung in place, badly wishing I had my sword. I felt naked without it.
Blue-headed Nihko stood in the doorway. With him was the captain. "Come out," she said. "We have decided what it is we shall do with you."
"Feeding me would be nice."
"Oh, no." The red-haired woman smiled, glanced pointedly at my waist. "Best you lose the extra flesh."
I swore as Del-thank you, bascha-smothered a laugh.
"Come out," the captain repeated. "Or shall I have Nihko fetch you out?"
Nihko and I eyed one another. We had history now. I'd upended him on the island, he'd laid hands on me. We were, as Del and the captain had noted, similar in size, in bone, in strength. It would undoubtedly be a vicious-and very long-fight.
Or else a very short one, equally devastating.
We reached the same conclusion at the same time. And offered one another faint smiles of acknowledgment as well as unspoken promise.