I never met Father. It’d always been just the two of us, Mother and I, since the day I’d hatched. Mother must have been very self-conscious about this, because while all other falcons nested in trees, she’d built our home in a crevice among the cliffs overlooking the forest. She’d propped branches and twigs against the entrance to hide our nest from predators.
It was a gorgeous spot. The ledge around the crevice overlooked the river and the forest all the way to the waterfalls. When Mother came back from hunting at the crack of dawn, the sky was pink and crimson, and the water looked like a golden braid braced by trees.
The condors came after that, after the sun was already up. Mother would watch them warily from the ledge. The other falcon couples took turns guarding their nests, but being alone, Mother didn’t have that luxury. Maybe that’s why she never brought back a lot of food. Moths, crickets. Sometimes a small mouse. She regurgitated everything and watched over me while I ate. I never noticed she was getting thinner until much later, when I thought back on those mornings together. All feathers and no meat, as we birds say. That was Mother.
I should’ve known then. I should’ve known there was going to be a dawn when Mother wouldn’t return. The sun rose. The jays screeched. The condors circled in the sky, their black silhouettes racing over the profile of the mountains.
Clouds rolled. Humans came fishing, their loud calls echoing against the cliffs. By then I was hungry… really hungry. A lizard basked in the sun nearby and then slinked away. My stomach gurgled as I watched it go.
I raised my eyes and looked at the condors. I longed to fly with them, to soar on conquered winds. I stretched my wings and noticed how pathetic they looked. By now, the other fledglings in the tree nests had grown feathers and shed their down. I, instead, only had a hint of vaned feathers. The rest of my body was still covered in gray, stringy down. How I wished I had the beautiful, flawless wings the condors had, their fingered feathers so elegantly scraping the sky.
As I waited on Mother to return, that day seemed never ending. Sunset came at last, followed by twilight. My nest grew cold. Stars dappled the sky. A sliver of moon came out from behind the clouds, and in its milky light, the branches that Mother had placed to hide us drew long shadows across the crevice where our nest rested.
When I awoke the next morning, Mother had still not returned. I felt lonely.
Lonely and hungry.
I believe what kept me alive in that time, waiting for Mother to come home, were the condors—those same condors that were likely waiting for my death. And yet, every time I watched them soar high in the sky, I felt alive again, despite my growing hunger. I knew I belonged up there, that one day I too would conquer the skies.
At last, more than the drive to be with them, hunger made me force my fears aside. I needed to find food. I climbed out of the nest, squeezed through the branches, and crawled onto the ledge.
Oh, the excitement! It flowed through me as the wind from the ridge rustled my down. This is what it feels like, I remember thinking, the rush of the cool air under my wings. What it feels like to fly!
I stretched my wings. Fluffs of down fluttered in the air, reminding me how pathetic I was. Pathetic, weak, and hungry. I looked over to the right and spotted the lizard again, lounging in the morning sun. The sight made my stomach rumble.
Lizards are slow in the morning, I thought, steadying myself on the ledge. Easy pickings.
So I scooched closer. Slowly. And closer still. And just before I leaned forward to snag it, a full-grown falcon fledgling swooped down and snatched the lizard from under my beak, knocking me off my feet and over the ledge.
I’d imagined flying as the most rewarding experience of all. To stretch your wings and be free, weightless, liberated. And yet here I was, spinning in a free fall that seemed never to end, my useless wings a dead weight carrying me ever faster to the ground below.
I hit one tree branch, then another, and a third, until I reached the ground with a soft thud. The world around me turned black. As I passed out, I remembered what Mother had said.
No chick has ever survived falling from its nest.
For sure, my next encounter with the condors was going to be as dead flesh.
The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was the boy. A human boy. I might as well have died. Condors ate humans, birds, and rodents alike, but only after they’d been killed by something else. Humans weren’t so considerate. They killed everything else in order to eat.
The boy wasn’t alone. There was a man with him. He took me from the boy’s hands and examined me. I cringed as he handled my broken wings and legs. I thought of Mother, wondered if she ever made it back to the nest.
And then I thought of the condors. My dream of one day flying with them was crushed. My beak hung open and silent.
The boy and the man argued, but I couldn’t understand a single word they said. They put me in a bag. The pain was overwhelming. I closed my eyes and passed out.
I woke up in a warm place. A fire was crackling nearby, and the scent of burning wood filled my palate. To my surprise, the pain was gone. I wiggled the tip of one wing, then the other. Still no pain.
Muffled sounds came from close by. Steps, voices, the clinking of metal. And more scents. Lots and lots of scents—like a new rainbow of smells entering my beak, olfactory hues I didn’t know at the time. I later learned to recognize them: fish stew, sweet potatoes, candle wax, soap.
The smells of humans.
I’d never inhaled so many scents before.
And yet here I was, snuggled in a wool blanket, alive despite myself, pain free, and with a sense of smell so strong it almost blinded me.
I lifted my head. The fire was burning a few feet away. The flames cast dancing shadows on the white walls. One of the humans was sitting on the floor a few feet away from me. No, it wasn’t the boy who’d rescued me. It was a girl.
A bit younger than the boy, she stared at me with large, wondering eyes. I startled and tried to hop away from her. I didn’t get too far, my talons skidding on the hard surface of a table.
I turned and saw the boy. “He’s going to learn how to fly,” he said.
I gasped. Suddenly, I realized, my sense of smell wasn’t the only thing that had improved. I could understand what they were saying! I was so shocked I slipped on the table and fell to the ground. The girl crawled across the floor and picked me up.
“Did you give him a name?” she asked, stroking my back.
The boy sat on the floor next to her and ruffled the down on my neck. “Kael,” he said. “I’m going to train him to be a hunter. Dad implanted a smelling chip in his brain. You’ll see.”
The girl tilted her head and made a sad face. “I don’t want him to be a hunter. I want him to be a friend.”
The boy scoffed. He took me from the girl’s hands, stood up, and placed me back on the table on top of the blanket I’d awakened in. “Leave him alone. He needs to rest. It’ll take a few weeks before his broken wings heal completely and the implanted chip is fully functional.”
I didn’t know what he meant. I realized I could understand the words but not the meaning behind them. The boy walked out of the room. I craned my head and looked over the edge of the table. The girl was still there, sitting on the floor. She looked up at me and our eyes met. There was something broken in her eyes, something we shared beyond our different genes, different species, different languages.