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“Mom is on my ass because of him.”

“Why?”

“She thinks he’s trying to weasel his way into our fortune or something.”

“Oh my God. That’s fuckin’ ridiculous.” Brian erupted at the same time Candace made a similar exclamation. “Do you want me to talk to her?”

“I don’t know. I mean, whatever, she can think what she wants, I guess, but…he doesn’t deserve that. It’s not like we were planning a wedding, but she makes it sound like I’ll be out on my ass if I try to set up anything permanent with him.”

“I can’t believe that,” Candace said, shaking her head. “Your mom is always so cool.”

“You didn’t grow up with her,” Brian said.

“Well, you didn’t grow up with mine,” Candace countered. “Believe me, I consider your mom cool.”

“Not about this.” Gabby stared down at her hands, where her fingers were laced so tightly together that her knuckles had gone white. “Maybe if, um…you guys would go ahead and announce, it would get all the focus off me?”

Brian and Candace both looked at her for a moment, then at each other.

“We weren’t planning to do that yet,” Brian said at last.

“Okay. Why not?”

“We’re going to get married first.”

What?

“Like, this weekend.”

Gabby heard all the words, but she couldn’t process them. “What?

“I always warned y’all we were gonna run off and do it. Did you think I was joking about that? You ought to know me better.”

Sighing, Gabby shook her head. “I know you always said that. I’d just hoped we might be able to change your mind.”

Brian scoffed and returned to his chore. “Shit, no. We know what we’d be taking on with her family, and now you tell me Mom’s frazzled, so fuck all that. We’re going to take care of things, come back and say, ‘Here’s what’s going on, here’s what we did about it, fucking deal with it.’ I’m sick of the bullshit, Gab. We’re all grown-ass adults but you’d think we’re still teenagers for the way our parents want to have their hands all in our business.”

“I hear you,” she said quietly.

“We’ll move before we deal with it much longer, just leave it all behind. Evan had the right idea.”

“He never had to put up with this much, though,” Gabby pointed out.

“Yeah, he’s a fucking saint. I’m not. And I’m not gonna pretend to be one. You shouldn’t either, sis. If you want to be with Ian, then fucking be with him. You have my blessing, anyway. Jesus Christ.”

She had to chuckle, because Brian kept gesturing wildly with various boxes of food items as he ranted, and finally he shoved them in place and slammed the cabinet door as if the entire conversation had agitated him beyond control. Candace flinched, and Gabby sent her a sympathetic smile. Her little brother could be a hothead, but certainly it wasn’t the first time Candace had witnessed it. It had to be a burden on her, since her family was a huge part of their problem.

“What do you think they’re going to say?” Gabby asked her, and Candace didn’t have to ask whom she meant.

“Oh, they’ll be furious.” Her petite hands drifted down to her belly, hidden beneath Brian’s three-sizes-too-big shirt, and she shrugged before dropping them back to her sides. “But I’m with him on every point. I’m sick of it all. We planned to do this all along, but me getting pregnant has kinda put a rush on things.”

Gabby shifted her gaze back to Brian. “So this weekend, you said.”

“We’re going to fly to Vegas. She got our plane tickets today.”

“I’m happy for you guys. I really am. But…dammit! I so wanted a big wedding for you.”

We never wanted that,” Brian said.

“Nope,” Candace agreed, shaking her head. “Never.”

“Is it not what you want, though, or is it yet another thing you’re letting your family dictate for you, Candace? The need to run away instead of having to deal with them through a big wedding?” Funny she was asking that. Wasn’t she allowing her family to dictate plenty for her right now?

“I see what you’re saying, but honestly, he’s all I need. I don’t need a crowd or a white dress or any of that crap. Hell, I’d rather get married in black.”

Brian grinned. “That’s my girl.”

God. Gabriella could only imagine how the Andrews family would react to something like that. Police cars and ambulances came to mind. How could it be that she wished so hard for things for Brian that she wouldn’t want for herself? If eloping was what they wanted, could Gabby really blame them? The memory of being the excited, nervous, expectant bride came back, rising around her like a flood intent on sweeping her away. And that moment when she’d had all of it ripped out from under her in one simple sentence from Evan.

“Gabby, he’s not here.”

Not that Brian would ever in a million years do to Candace what Mark had done to Gabby—but still. If she could ever be talked into going through with the whole thing again—and that was a big if—she would never want to set herself up for such failure again.

Failure… It didn’t necessarily have to happen at the altar, though, did it? It could happen years later and still blindside her as severely as it had that day, still rip her world apart.

Maybe it wasn’t weddings she had such a problem with… It was marriage. The entire institution of it.

Hell, maybe it didn’t go that far. Maybe it was relationships. They might work for other people, but for her, they had always been another arena for failure to whip her ass. One she didn’t need right now.

She forced words past the strangled feeling in her throat, since Candace and Brian were probably waiting for her thoughts on the situation at hand. “I see. You’re not sparing yourself from them so much as you’re sparing them a coronary.”

Candace laughed. “Yeah, you could look at it like that.”

Maybe she’d also be a failure at being a parent. Maybe it would all overwhelm her, and not only would she fail at relationships and parenthood, but all of it combined would crush her to the point that she would be a failure at med school too.

God, she couldn’t breathe.

“Keep me informed,” she blurted, sliding off her seat. Her brother and his soon-to-be wife stared after her in confusion as she made her way to the door.

“Hey, are you all right?” Brian called.

“Fine. Call me.” And she let herself out into the sticky night, which was just as close and suffocating as the walls in that apartment had become.

She could run the fuck away right now. Right now, at this very moment, she was free. She could jump in her car, speed all the way to Dallas and get back to her life for as long as her pregnancy would allow. She could put any big decisions off until forced to make them.

Exhaustion lapped at her limbs as she trudged back to Ian’s apartment. She didn’t bother knocking, knowing he expected her anyway. He’d left it unlocked for her.

How was she going to face him now?

Ian knew something was wrong with Gabby as soon as she walked in. She moved as if there were weights in all her limbs…but as soon as her troubled green gaze found him sitting on the couch, she darted forward. He stood, the Rangers game forgotten as she all but threw herself into his chest.