But how could she be?
It didn’t make sense. There was all this evidence that she was far older than she looked — her own stories about what she’d done, and everything Ezdral said, and the fact that she was known to people all along the Great Highway — and then there was an equal amount of evidence, in her appearance and behavior, that she was just what she claimed to be, a girl of fifteen.
Kelder couldn’t make the two possibilities resolve themselves.
Irith would be able to settle the matter, of course — if she ever came back, or when he found her again. He looked up at the southern sky, but could see no trace of her.
He knew he would marry her anyway, but this — this changed things, somehow.
“I guess I believe you,” Kelder said. “Maybe it is the same girl. But it doesn’t really matter, since she’s gone now.” He knew he would find her again, but there was no reason to think Ezdral or Asha would.
Ezdral looked up, and said hopefully, “She might come back, though — she likes you, I saw that she likes you.”
Kelder shook his head. “I don’t think so,” he said. “At least, not while you’re here. She’s scared of you.”
“But I’m nothing to be afraid of!” Ezdral wailed.
Kelder shrugged.
“You do look scary,” Asha said. “Your beard goes all over, and your hands look nasty, and you’re all dirty, and you smell of wine, or oushka, or something.”
Ezdral looked down at himself.
“I suppose you’re right,” he admitted. He looked up again, first at Kelder, then at Asha. “Are you two going to wait here for her to come back? Maybe I could get cleaned up, and then come back here and meet you?..”
“No, no,” Kelder said quickly. “We can’t stay. We’ve got a very important errand to run, back in Angarossa — we need to hold a funeral for Asha’s brother.”
“Oh,” Ezdral said.
“We should get going,” Asha suggested, with a meaningful glance at Kelder.
Kelder knew what she meant — that they should get away from this crazy old man as quickly as possible. He felt something of the same urge himself.
For one thing, he wanted Irith back, and as he had just told Ezdral, she wouldn’t be coming back while the old man was there.
“You’re right,” he said, getting to his feet and picking up his pack. “Come on.” He turned to Ezdral and said, “Have a safe journey back to Shan, and I hope you find your Irith someday.”
As long, he thought, as Ezdral’s Irith was not Kelder’s Irith.
Ezdral leaned forward on his hands, struggling to rise. “I’m not going back to Shan,” he said. “She’s not going to go to Shan again for years, after this. I’ll have to go looking for her elsewhere.”
“Oh,” Kelder said, a bit disconcerted. “Well, good luck, then.” He took Asha by the hand and started walking, southward across the trackless sands, toward the cliffs that he knew lay just below the horizon.
A moment later he realized that Ezdral was following them. He started to turn and protest, and then stopped.
What could he say? After all, the man had a right to walk on the same sand as everybody else. As long as he stayed out of reach, what harm could he do? And what could Kelder do to stop him?
“You know,” Ezdral called out, “I’d love to talk to you two about Irith. What have you done together with her? Where have you been? Do you have any idea where she might be?”
At first Kelder ignored this, but as they walked on Ezdral kept up an intermittent barrage of questions, shouted across the intervening five-yard distance.
“Come on,” Kelder told Asha, “hurry up; if we move fast enough he won’t be able to keep up, he’s a sick old man.”
Asha nodded, and hurried, but it did no good. Kelder by himself could easily have outdistanced Ezdral, but Asha was only nine, and small for her age — she didn’t have the long legs or the stamina to keep up with Kelder’s pace when he hurried.
And Ezdral, decrepit as he was, could keep up with Asha’s best pace.
If Kelder left Asha behind, he could easily get away from Ezdral — but what sort of champion of the lost and forlorn would he be then? Reluctantly, he gave in and slowed down again, and the three of them proceeded, two in front, and the old man a few paces behind.
By the time they reached the escarpment that marked the end of the Great Eastern Desert and the beginning of the Small Kingdoms, Kelder had yielded to the inevitable — the three were walking side by side, chatting companionably.
Ezdral was sadly unaware of recent events — he hadn’t heard about the Angarossan king’s support of banditry, or the use of demonologists as caravan guards, or the rumors about someone named Vond the Warlock building an empire in the south. He didn’t even know what a warlock was, though he did remember all the disturbances on the Night of Madness, twenty years ago.
“That was when the Crystal Skull got wrecked,” he said.
Kelder was not pleased to hear that. It might be that the old drunk was running two different memories together, or simply fantasizing, but it did seem to make sense, and if it were true it would completely destroy any possibility that Irith was really only fifteen.
Unless she had somehow acquired the memories of someone older? She seemed too certain of things to have simply been told about the Crystal Skull, but what if those memories had been magically transferred to her, somehow? Kelder had heard of witches doing that sort of thing, so maybe wizards could, too.
Or what if she had been simply gone somewhere for forty-odd years? Suppose that wizard she’d duelled with had turned her to stone, and then she had finally been turned back just recently — wouldn’t that account for everything?
Kelder thought it would; he rather liked the theory, in fact. It still meant that his Irith had once wandered the Small Kingdoms with someone else, with the young Ezdral who had deteriorated into this drunken wreck in the intervening years, but at least she really would have only lived fifteen years or so, not sixty or more. Somehow, the thought of her being an unchanging fifteen for all that time was far more discomfiting than any knowledge of a previous boyfriend.
He didn’t mention the theory to Asha or Ezdral, though. He told himself that he wanted to work out the details a little more, first, but the truth was he was afraid they would find enough flaws in the idea to unravel it completely.
Of course, if that was what had happened, then Irith might not have deserted Ezdral at all, she might have been kidnapped from his side — and while knowing that might comfort the old man, Kelder decided that he didn’t want to discuss that possibility.
What if it were wrong, he asked himself, why get the old man’s hopes up?
Even as he thought that, though, he knew he wasn’t really as concerned with Ezdral’s feelings as his own.
When they reached the escarpment they had missed the road completely; studying the sky and the landscape, Kelder finally decided they had arrived somewhere to the east of their intended destination, so with a shrug he turned right and led the party along the foot of the cliff.
It was midafternoon when they finally found the road again, and by the time they reached the top and were back on the relatively level ground of Dwerra the sun was almost on the western horizon.
Ezdral looked about at the patchy grass and weeds and remarked, “Been a long time since I was up here, and saw things growing out of the ground like that.”
Asha gazed around, and then up at Ezdral, wonderingly. The idea of going for years without seeing greenery was very strange to her, indeed.