Louie-Louie explained that, all told, he couldn’t have spent more than three minutes in the lobby. The capitol police hadn’t even spotted him, the brother believed, before the perfect target appeared. “Perfect, a big tall white guy with a big old white-guy head. You know what I’m talking about, the silver hair and the lips. Fine old white-guy head.”
Kit reminded Louie-Louie how careful he’d been, coming across town. No rounds in the chamber, the safety off.
“Well I mean, how long would that take? The guy had to stand in line, you know. He had to go through that, what do you call it, the security screen.”
Every now and then legislators came out the front door.
“Cops hadn’t even looked at me, man.”
Louie-Louie sank over the chair back again. His face, dropping, shrinking, looked for the first time like his dead brother’s.
“You know the echo in that place, man?” he said. “The echo, with all that marble …”
Gently, Kit asked about the hippie.
“Weird echo, man. Like I was everywhere.”
“Louie-Louie, you’re not that crazy. Think about it. All you needed was a nudge.”
“Huh, a nudge.”
“And then you were out of there.”
Louie-Louie roughed his beard, the hairs crackling. “Well, the guy was high.” The guy was white, a blonde throwback with hair to his armpits, in a fatigue jacket dirtier than Louie-Louie’s. The hippie had taken the brother for a free spirit like himself. “Came tugging on my arm and told me he’d just smoked a joint right there in the State House. Whispering, man. Stupid stoner whispering and giggling, in that echo.”
“He’d had a joint? He told you?”
“The ofay thought I might like a taste myself.”
Kit shook his head. Getting high in the state capitol was a good ten years out of date.
“Fucking burnout.” Talking to the floor. “Fucking total ‘60s burnout.”
After a moment Louie-Louie went on to say that he thought it was the hippie’s smell which had stopped him. “You know the smell these stoners get, man? Real sweet, you know? Gets in the clothes.” Kit was nodding, though in fact he’d never noticed that these relics had any particular odor. Instead he’d made the connection to the mother’s Catawba Pink.
“Smell like my Mama these days. Like that Catawba Pink.”
The brother broke down again. The sobs came with less intensity than before, but the big muscles in his back heaved. Kit bent beside him, his own long sorry body heaving. Everybody’s tired, he said or tried to say, everybody’s tired and battered — recalling irrelevantly that he’d gone the entire day without any Percodan. He frowned and tried harder; he brought up examples of the brother’s better judgment. “Louie-Louie, you’re talking with her minister, right? You’re talking with everyone you can, right? Louie-Louie, I saw those brochures you brought her.”
Kit bent deep, against the desk corner. He kept talking till the brother’s back went smooth under his hand.
“Man,” Louie-Louie sighed, sitting up. “I’m crying more than my Mama, these days.”
Kit, letting go, thought of Bette again. His last embrace.
“Crying in front of white folks.” Louie-Louie shook his head.
The clip of bullets in Kit’s pocket bit his thigh. He put his hand back on the desk and brought up the Grand Jury. “That’s how you nail the bad guys, Louie-Louie. That’s how you blast. There’s going to be some indictments, don’t you worry.”
Louie-Louie had heard about it. Sounding frosty all of a sudden, making up for his tears, he said his mother had told him. The media had really come after her once they learned there was going to be a Grand Jury. “A lot of calls, man.”
Kit made no response. He was picturing Louie-Louie and his mother over the Globe’s forthcoming story on the Grand Jury. He saw them reading his testimony, reading what he’d done.
“Where I’m coming from,” the brother said, “I don’t expect much from any Commonwealth of Massachusetts Grand Jury.”
Kit murmured that he still had to prepare his statement.
“Ain’t about no statement.” Louie-Louie was sounding like he had when he’d come in. “Man, everybody’s got a statement.”
Kit was a believer, yes. But what did that mean when it came to telling Louie-Louie and his mother?
“Viddich, huh, you can make your statement. But then what happens is, the court calls Mr. Super Bad. Court calls Mr. Super Bad and says, hey, my man. What do you have to say about Mr. Viddich’s, uh, allegations?”
Didn’t it mean he had to let the family know before he went into the Grand Jury? “Louie-Louie,” Kit said, “I don’t know what to tell you.”
The phone rang, astonishingly loud.
“Everything in there’s just allegations,” Louie-Louie said. “Big old white guys talking and talking.”
Another ring. It was the glass that made it so loud, extra reverberant when the outer office was empty. Kit couldn’t think of a reason not to answer.
“Kit?” Again the voice was recognizable at once. “I hope I’ve got you at a better time.”
“Creates confusion, man. Confusion, you dig?”
Uncle Pete, calling back. The connection sounded clearer than talking to the South End. And the interruption felt like a godsend, the cattleman’s flatness of the uncle’s voice just what the doctor ordered.
“What’re you grinning about, man?” Louie-Louie asked.
Aw, how could Kit take time for Pete now? How, with a new question about public record and private conscience looming before him — with the brother back in his tough-guy act, up off his chair and looming before him?
“You listening to me, Viddich? You hear what I’m telling you about confusion?”
Kit put a hand on the speaker, stage-whispering Family. He indicated he’d be off in a minute.
“Everybody here’s just fine,” the uncle was saying. “I don’t want you worrying about anything like that.”
The uncle had said he could wait, earlier. And Kit was good about calling; this weekend had been an exception.
“Uncle Pete,” he began, “you know I’m at the office now.”
“Wellsir, you see, your wife called.”
“Bette?”
“She talked to your mother. Talked a long time, Kidder. Seemed like something important.”
*
It took Kit a few minutes, while Louie-Louie snooped impatiently around the outer office, to understand that this call in fact had little to do with his wife. It wasn’t about Bette at all, it turned out. Rather, the uncle was getting in touch to let Kit know he was gay.
“What?”
“I’m gay, Kit. Homosexual. Time I came out of the closet and let everyone know me for what I am.”
Kit switched the receiver from ear to ear, then back again. Beyond his glass walls Louie-Louie, frowning, fingered one of Zia’s postcards from beneath her desk cover. The brother had warned Kit that he wasn’t much good at waiting.
Kit’s uncle sounded insect-sized: “You there, Kidder?”
The whole phone call had been like this. Pete knew that Bette had called Kit’s mom with big news, something that left the mother shaken. Afterwards “Sister Nina,” as the uncles liked to call her, had gotten on the phone with friends from church. She’d called an emergency meeting of the prayer circle. But the uncle didn’t have any idea what Bette had said. He didn’t know where Bette had called from, either, and Kit wasn’t about to explain why it mattered. The whole conversation had left him tonguetied.
Now this. “You there?”
“Here,” Kit said.
“Mm. For a minute there, wellsir. I was afraid you might hang up on me.”
“I wouldn’t do that. I wouldn’t do that.”