Which seemed to do it. Made her shift emotional gears. People who are used to shouldering huge responsibility are the most likely to come through when the stakes are highest. These stakes were high.
I was almost afraid to ask. “Is there a boy aboard? A boy named Lake?”
She was nodding, but she’d buried her face again in my shoulder.
“Do you know where he is? Did they hurt him? The kidnappers?”
“The last time I saw him, he was in the same room where they locked me. It’s the next floor down, and it says ‘Visitors Quarters’ on the door. He had a small third-degree burn on his arm when I examined him. But it was healing. You must be the police or you wouldn’t be asking these questions.”
I said, “No, not the police. I’m the boy’s father. I’ve come to get my son.”
Through the muscle tissue of my chest and shoulder, I heard her moan softly, “Oh dear God. And it’s my fault. All my fault…”
I felt a sickening sense of helplessness. Sound communicates tragedy more powerfully than any combination of words. Yet, I continued to press on.
“Is he with the man who abducted you? If he is, I need to get to my son right away. The guy he’s with is dangerous as hell. He’s insane. I’ve got to go to him now. ”
Dr. Valerie Santos looked up at me through flooding eyes and whispered, “I can’t let you do that. As a physician. Because of what you might find.
“That monster, that terrible monster, he told me he was going to kill your son nearly an hour ago, and he’ll be bringing me his… bringing a portion of your son back here any minute. Even after I told him that nothing in the world could make me do his surgery!”
THIRTY-SIX
Pointing to the groggy woman on the floor, I yelled to Dr. Santos, “Use surgical tape. Tape her arms behind her; after that, her legs. If she fights, use the hammer on her!” Then I sprinted down the hall and out onto the midnight upper decks of the moving freighter.
To the west, the moon was about to set. It was partially submerged on the horizon’s seascape and appeared as a golden island, fogged by low clouds. The ship’s wake caught shards of the light, so that the ship seemed to excrete a boiling, crimson wedge astern. The wedge rolled away from Repatriate in the form of slow, expanding waves, moving across a black sea.
I had the Glock in my right hand, the guardrail in my left, and ran down the steps two at a time. From outside, the lighting appeared better on the lower deck. I assumed C deck would be laid out just like D deck. There would be a hallway with doors, and each door would be identified by a stenciled word or two. I was desperate to find VISITORS QUARTERS, the cabin where the doctor had last seen my son.
Perhaps she was wrong about Lake. She hadn’t personally seen his body, so she couldn’t be certain he was dead. She’d only been told that he was going to be killed. Perhaps the insane man, Praxcedes Lourdes, had lied to her. There was still a chance that I might arrive in time to save Lake. I’d saved other people under tough circumstances, so how could fate not allow me to save my own son?
I told myself that such an unfairness was contrary to… something. Momentum. Order. Reason, maybe.
I was hurrying. I felt rushed and clouded by panic. I certainly was. Because I was running far too fast as I approached the watertight entrance into the ship’s house on C deck, and so was unprepared and vulnerable when the heavy steel door came flying open just as I tried to use it to stop my momentum.
I was lucky the impact didn’t knock me unconscious. As it was, it sent the Glock flying, jammed both my wrists, and knocked a gash in my forehead. I felt and heard a couple of joints or small bones pop in my right hand.
Broken.
The collision had knocked me to the deck, so I was looking up into the house’s bright lights when a huge man stepped out, paused, and then stepped over me. He looked to be wearing surgical scrubs that were wet in places, stained with some liquid- blood?-and he was carrying something by a handle. I realized it was a medium-sized Igloo cooler. The circular kind with a screw-on lid.
The big man said, “Watch where you’re goin’, you fuckin’ asswipe. Fuckin’ drunk merchant sailors are a pain in the ass.” Then he pivoted, as if to proceed on his way.
Hearing the voice, I knew.
It was my son’s abductor.
He wasn’t wearing a mask.
The moment Lourdes started to leave, I was on my feet, straightening my glasses. I lunged three long steps and grabbed him from behind. Grabbed him so violently that it nearly ripped the scrub shirt off him, and he dropped the cooler, which went banging down four or five steps to the next platform, slowed, then bounced down another flight.
He came whirling around in a rage, screaming, “Hands off, motherfucker!” and took a big, pawing swing at me that I caught with my forearms. “What is your problem, asshole?”
I ducked in close as he threw a couple more punches that missed, but he was so freakishly strong that they jarred me to the core. The shock of the punches made me unprepared for the bear hug that came next.
He was grunting, trying to squeeze the air out of my lungs, trying to crush my ribs, cursing into my ear with his sour breath, a terrible ether-stink about him, and I could feel vertebrae pop up my spine, and then maybe a rib or two.
I got my right hand free. It was already beginning to swell; had to be some broken bones in there. But it didn’t matter. Not now.
As he continued to squeeze, I felt a racing, chemical chill move through me that I have come to recognize. It is the sensation that accompanies pure rage. Rage feels no pain, so I could feel no pain.
In the human brain is a tiny region called the “amygdala,” a section of cerebral matter so ancient that scientists refer to it as our “lizard brain,” or “reptilian core.” It’s here, in this ancient, isolated cellular place, that the killer that is in us all resides. It is from here that a million years of genetic memory encodes us with a horror of spiders, snakes, and tight, black places that might rob the air from our land-breathing lungs.
Rage resides in that dark area, as well.
Its presence is signaled in me by the physical chill, followed by a surflike roaring in my ears… and then there is the illusion of a blooming redness behind my eyes that colors the world.
I rarely allow my rage to take control.
I did now.
THIRTY-SEVEN
With my free right hand, I grabbed him by the throat and dug my fingers into his carotid artery until he was woozy enough for me to pull my left hand free. Then, still holding Lourdes by the throat, I hit him across the bridge of the nose three times, as hard as I could, with the heel of my left hand.
The lighting here wasn’t good, but I could see him clearly enough to know that his face wasn’t as bad as the scorched teen I’d seen in the medical photographs. Lourdes had had a bunch of plastic surgery since then.
He would need another after what I did to his nose.
He screamed and dropped me, then bowed to put his face into his hands, yelling, “Don’t hit me in the face!”
I grabbed him by his ripped shirt, turned him, then slammed him against the ship’s house. I ducked through his arms, hit him with an undercut right, then held him up against the wall by the throat. “Where’s my son? What have you done to Lake? Take me to him now!”
“No fucking way, asswipe! You’ll hit me in the face again!”
“Tell me!”
“No.”
His nose was bleeding. He was trying to use his hands to cover his face, but I could see in his eyes that he suddenly realized who I was. I was the biologist; the stubborn man on the phone. I was the father of the child he’d abducted.
His pale, lidless eyeball seemed to grow wider.
I yelled, “You don’t want me to hit you? Then you better talk. Now! Because I’m going to keep hitting you until you take me to my son.”