There they were, the lot of them, looking at him just the way he knew they would. Guilt! Shame! It was written all over them. The shame of it, to call a meeting when they knew perfectly well his supporters couldn't come. Well, let them stare, damn them. It didn't make any difference now. He took them in, one by one, met each set of eyes straight on. They lowered theirs, of course-except for Kelly. That scarred-up little bastard had no shame.
To hell with them! To hell with Kelly too! They'd beaten him; the game was over now. Derik would have stood by him if he'd decided to fight it out. Barclay had said the Vicar would too, but then the Vicar had killed himself.
"Evening," he said in a gentle, fatherly voice which had nothing to do with the way he felt. "Sorry to be late. Don't want to delay the routine. Sunset years, you know. Can hardly keep up with you youngsters anymore."
He smiled then, as broad and charming as he could. They were staring at him quite curiously now. They'd been expecting something else. He knew what that was: a broken man, whining, pathetic, enraged. They'd come for blood, to see the old bull slain. Torment him, kill him, haul him away. Well, he'd not give them the pleasure of seeing that; he'd give them a lesson in class.
"Listen," he said, stepping to the center of the room, using the space between the tables as if it were a stage, "there're a few words I want to say before we get on with business." They were all ears then, craned forward in their seats. He smiled at them kindly and looked around again. His timing had been good-he'd thrown them off their guard.
"I was seventy-five this year, you know." A little grin then, just as he'd rehearsed. "There comes a time when a man has to face the fact that he's, well, past his prime. Then it's time to step aside, for someone younger, with a steadier hand. I've been giving that a lot of thought of late, and I've decided it's time now to retire."
He heard a murmur, looked around, saw that Jessica Drear had raised her brows.
"I know this comes unexpectedly. We're meeting here to decide about next year's plays. But I thought I owed it to you to say this first, so that the new man, whoever he may be, will have a chance to put his stamp on the season that lies ahead. Now I don't want to be sentimental, lay on the syrup and all that. I just want to say how much I love you and how much working with you these last years has meant. Jill and David. Rick and Anne. Derik. Jack. Jessica and Jessamyn. Joe. We've failed at times-all of us have made mistakes. But, by Jove, we've tried, tried hard to put on good plays. They can't take that away from us. No one can. So-I just want to thank you for your loyalty to me, and for just being the great people that you are."
He paused, choked with rehearsed emotion, looked around, sensed his speech was having its effect. That line about loyalty-that had hit them where they hurt. He could feel them softening, knew he had them won-an actor's power, and he savored it a while before he continued on.
"Finally, a personal note. It isn't easy for an old actor to leave the stage, make his final bow. For almost sixty years I've trooped the boards-that seems now a long, long time. They say old soldiers never die, that they just fade away. Old actors-well, I don't know what they say about them. But this old actor will always be there in the hall to clap for all of you.”
Another pause, this time a long one. He knew his final words must sound most deeply felt.
"We've had our quarrels. We've shouted and screamed. We've laughed a lot, and wept a little too. But that's the theater. That's what it's about. A clash of intellects. Temperaments aflame. Before I open our meeting to business-and the business tonight will be to select a new leader for our club-let me just quote a few lines from the Tempest, old Prospero's farewell. It says what's in my heart:
But this rough magic
I here abjure; and when I have required
Some heavenly music, which even now I do,
To work mine end upon their senses that
This airy charm is for, I'll break my staff,
Bury it certain fathoms in the earth,
And deeper than did ever plummet sound
I'll drown my book.
He sat down then, to their utterly stupefied silence. All of them were pulsing with sentiment-except for Kelly, who glared at him and scowled. Luscombe couldn't blame him; his evening had been stolen by design. But Jill Packwood was weeping, and she was hard as nails. Jack Whyte's eyes were glistening. Jessica Drear held her face in sweating palms.
Derik Law stood up then, just as the two of them had planned. He began the song, and of course the others followed, eyes upon him, big and red, weeping and smiling and nodding all at the same time:
For he's a jolly good fellow!
For he's a jolly good fellow!
For he's a jolly good fellow!
That nobody can deny!
Lake had been circulating at the Manchesters' for an hour, waiting for Z to show up.
"Oh, he'll come. He promised," said Willard, snapping the shutter of his Instamatic, filling the room with a blinding flash.
"He'll be here eventually, Dan," Katie said. "Now go try some of my tuna spread."
Her tuna spread! It was sickening, tasted as though it were made of fur. The whole damn party was an outrage. Lake couldn't believe he was really there. He'd come only because Z was supposed to come, and he had to confront the Russian face to face. Otherwise he would have stayed home. It was a humiliation to be at the Manchesters' while the Ambassador was up at Henderson Perry's, mixing with the royals and tout Tanger.
The Manchesters! Christ! They'd invited him to "drink the dregs"! They'd served up the dregs, all right-Spanish "scotch," Argentine "vodka," all those undrinkable blended whiskeys they'd gotten for Christmas through the years. The potato chips were soggy. The canapes were a disgrace. The hall was filled with packing cases. The servants were sullen, worried about their tips.
"Great to meet you," he heard Willard say to a bunch of newcomers to Tangier. "Come visit us in Florida. We're moving there, you know." This was supposed to be a going-away party for the Manchesters' closest friends, but those friends were out on the terrace, talking among themselves, while the Manchesters stood alone in the living room saying tearful farewells to people they didn't know, snapping their pictures, even inviting them to visit them in the States.
It was insane. Madness. And still Z hadn't come. Lake was worried about that, that ever since he'd shown him the code machine the Russian had avoided seeing him alone. When he came into the shop Peter behaved as if nothing had happened, as if they'd never had that conversation in his office the Sunday past. Lake couldn't figure it out. He thought everything had been arranged. Z had as much as said he'd be willing to defect. What the hell had happened? Tonight he was going to find out.
The Manchesters were such boobs. How could he ever have thought of them as friends? They'd brought out every bit of junk they didn't want as offerings to their guests. There was a pile of stuff on the dining room table which Katie kept loading into people's arms. Wrinkled old maps of Morocco from the glove compartment of their car. A swollen can without a label (botulism for sure, he thought). A bottle of home-pickled watermelon rinds. Coat hangers and bent curtain rods. A fondue pot with an enormous crack. They must be nuts, he thought, trying to flog off stuff like that. Why didn't they just heave it in the trash? As it was they'd tried to sell everything they didn't want: potted plants, an ironing board, some inner tubes, a rusted lawn mower. But this other stuff-they had to be kidding, though there was Katie trying to stick Rick Calloway with a dozen lifeless tennis balls.
He stared around the room for a while, then tried to attract the attention of Jackie Knowles. But she and Foster were snuggling in the dining room like a couple of dodo birds in heat. Ever since Foster had come back from the north, all the gas seemed to have gone out of their affair. Why? He still wasn't sure, except that Foster had returned weathered and tanned, sporting a little Vandyke beard. It made him look all the more ridiculous, what with his blond hair curling down his neck. But that little beard seemed to be working wonders on Jackie. She called it "neat," said it felt good when Foster gave her head.