I realized that I was stuck. I didn’t know what to say. To tell her that I preferred to use the formal would be obnoxious and ridiculous. To tell her, okay, let’s use the informal (and maybe we can go to the university cafe together and get a couple of Smurf-berry blue ice cream cones) would be inappropriate. So I made the best of a bad situation: I addressed her with the informal tu and let her continue to address me with the formal lei.
“All right, then. Thanks for agreeing to come in. I believe that Manuela’s mother… explained the reason for this meeting to you.”
“Yes. She told me you’re trying to determine whether the investigation into Manuela’s disappearance was conducted properly, and whether it’s possible to do any further investigating.”
“Yes, that’s right. From what I was able to gather from reading the documents, you’re one of Manuela’s best friends.”
“Yes, Manuela and I are very close.”
“Tell me about her. Tell me what kind of person she is, how long you’ve known each other, what your friendship is like, and anything else that comes to mind. Even insignificant things, because I need to form a mental picture. I need ideas and unfortunately, right now, I’m short on ideas.”
“Okay. Manuela and I met in Rome. Nicoletta introduced us. For a couple of years, more or less, they had been sharing an apartment in Rome. That is, Manuela went to live with Nicoletta, and moved out of the apartment where she’d been living before. I think she had some kind of trouble with her previous roommate.”
“Nicoletta would be Nicoletta Abbrescia?”
“That’s right. We went to high school together. She’s a little younger than I am.”
“Do you still live in Rome?”
“No. This is the first year I’ve fallen behind the normal academic schedule. In the spring, I had to move out of my apartment in Rome because the lease expired. I was supposed to go find another apartment in the fall, but then this thing happened with Manuela and… I don’t know, I just didn’t feel up to house hunting. So now I’m studying in Bari and then I’ll go to Rome to take my exams.”
I had the impression that there was a slight acceleration in the pace of her speech as she answered, as if the question made her nervous. She quickly broke into the syncopated flow of my thoughts.
“You’re a criminal lawyer, aren’t you?”
“Yes.”
“I’m taking my degree in law and writing my thesis on criminal procedure, on special evidentiary hearings. I’d like to become a magistrate-maybe a prosecutor-or a criminal lawyer. Maybe after I get my degree you could take me on in your office as an intern.”
“Why not?” I answered hesitantly, unsure how to respond.
“I’m cute. It would help your reputation if you showed up in court with me. Your colleagues would be jealous,” she added.
“Well, there’s no question about that.”
“Okay, sorry. Sometimes I act like an idiot. I’m a little ditzy sometimes, and I forget about more serious matters. And we’re here for a serious matter. What were you asking me?”
“What’s Manuela like? I’ve seen photographs of her, but I still can’t form a mental picture.”
“Manuela is very attractive. She’s not tall, she’s a brunette-you can see that in the photos-she gets a dark tan in the summer. She’s well put together. Nicoletta is a pretty girl, too, but she has a lot less personality. She’s tall and thin. She worked as a model. When we get all dressed up and show up at a party or in a club, people-not just boys-turn and stare. We make a splash. They call us Sex and the City. ”
She met my eyes with a level gaze to see if I was duly impressed by this information. I did my best to ignore her.
“What’s Manuela like, in terms of personality?”
“She’s a determined young woman. If she wants something, she takes it. We’re very similar in that way, Manuela and I.”
As she said that, she looked me straight in the eye a few seconds longer than necessary.
I remembered what Anita had told me, about Manuela striking her as high-strung.
“Would you say that she’s a relaxed person, or high-strung?”
“Relaxed. She keeps her cool in a tense situation. Definitely relaxed.”
In that case, if Anita was correct when she sensed that Manuela was high-strung, there’d been something wrong that afternoon, even before she disappeared. It was a detail that might possibly be significant. Or else, they might just be two different people with two different points of view. In any case, I would need to come up with something more concrete.
“Obviously, you’re aware that this is a confidential conversation?”
For the first time since she had walked into my office, she seemed to hesitate for an instant.
“Yes… that is…”
“What I mean is that anything you tell me goes no further than this room. All I’m looking for is a shred of evidence, a flicker of light, something that helps me to understand.”
“Okay… fine.”
“I want you to tell me very honestly if you have any idea of what might have happened to Manuela.”
“No. I have no idea. The Carabinieri asked me the same thing: Did I have any idea? But I really can’t imagine what might have happened. I’ve racked my brains, like everyone else, but…”
“Tell me what you’ve come up with. Your wildest guesses. You must have thought of something. Then maybe you discounted it, but you must have thought of something.”
She looked at me. She’d become very serious. Up until then there had been something vaguely provocative flittering over and through her expression, as if, in some sense, she were playing a game. Now that subtle something was gone. She took a deep breath before she answered.
“I thought Manuela’s disappearance might have something to do with Michele, her ex.”
No question, that asshole was the perfect suspect, I thought to myself. It was a shame (but lucky for him) that he happened to be out of the country that day.
“But he was out of the country.”
“Exactly.”
“Why did you think of Michele?”
“What does that matter? He was out of the country, so he definitely couldn’t have had anything to do with it.”
“I’d appreciate it all the same if you’d tell me why you thought of him.”
Caterina shook her head, as if she was sure that it was a mistake to talk about this topic. She took another deep breath. It was more audible this time, and she exhaled loudly, heaving a sigh. I was surprised to catch myself noticing how her breasts rose and fell, her clothing swelling with her vigorous respiration. Dirty old man.
“I never liked Michele. So that fact might prejudice me. Still…”
“Still?”
“Still, he’s a real asshole.”
“In what way?”
“In every way imaginable. He’s violent, and if you ask me, he’s stupid, too. After they broke up and the magic was gone, Manuela used to say he was crass and vulgar. She was right.”
“But then why was Manuela dating him? Why were they together for so long? And by the way, how long did they see each other?”
“I couldn’t say, exactly. When I met Manuela, they were already dating. Then they broke up, or really Manuela broke up with him, more than a year ago. But he couldn’t get over it. He badgered her for months. Imagine that: the great Michele Cantalupi, dumped by a schoolgirl.”
“You still haven’t told me what Manuela saw in this jerk. What am I missing here?”
“What you’re missing here is that he’s hot, so hot it burns. I mean, he makes Brad Pitt look homely.”
I sat without speaking for a few seconds. I struck a pensive pose, as if the information on how hot Cantalupi was deserved some thought. In the end, I nodded gravely, as if I’d absorbed a challenging concept. Then I looked at her. She was sitting, composed, but occupying her space. I noticed a fine beading of sweat on her upper lip.