22
The husband sat in the living room that was too small for the new TV. His wife’s mother sat next to him on the couch, her father on a chair near the TV. Gusty November rain beat against the windows, a street light swung back and forth. The TV was on. It had been on the first time the husband came here, a good few years ago now, and every other occasion he had been here at night. Quite often during the day too, especially at weekends. They had turned the volume down five notches when he had arrived but it was still annoying. There was singing and judging, with blaring ads in between.
‘It’s almost December,’ the mother said.
‘Yes,’ said the husband.
‘This is really starting to upset me.’
‘What can we do about it?’ he asked.
‘It’s all your fault.’
‘My fault?’
The mother gave him a look that said no further explanation was necessary and he should realise perfectly well that he was to blame.
‘Yes,’ said the father, without so much as a glance in his direction. Up till then he hadn’t even opened his mouth.
‘Yes, what?’ asked the mother.
‘Just, yes,’ said the father.
She sighed. ‘How can we start the festive season like this? St Nicholas. Christmas.’ She gestured weakly at the windowsill, where three candles were already burning in a triangular holder. The flames were motionless; the windows were well insulated.
‘Don’t ask me,’ said the husband.
‘Bah!’ said the father.
‘What?’ asked the mother.
‘He can’t sing at all!’
‘Has she done this before?’ the husband asked. ‘I mean, before me.’
‘Never! She never just disappeared. She didn’t even like pyjama parties. She never stayed the night at friends’.’
‘At my brother’s, she did,’ the father said.
‘Yes. She never got enough of that. Staying at her uncle’s. She never even mentioned her auntie. Those two were thick as thieves.’
‘He taught her how to smoke,’ said the father.
‘Bah. That’s right. And always putting ideas in her head. He used to say funny things to her. When she came home, it always took ages to get her back to her old self.’
‘What kind of things?’
‘That she had to be able to do things herself. That when it comes down to it, people are always alone. That you should never let other people tell you what to do.’
‘That’s not so bad, is it?’
‘No, but she took it to heart, she upped and left. Her auntie was distraught, but her uncle just sniggered. And when she came home again, she wouldn’t listen to us at all.’
‘So she used to disappear.’
‘No, an hour or so, never long. Two hours at most. When we heard about the smoking, that was it. We refused to let her stay there ever again.’
‘My brother isn’t…altogether right,’ the father said.
‘That’s one way of putting it, I suppose,’ the mother said. ‘You could say he’s mad as a hatter.’
‘Come on…’
‘I’m always scared that he’ — pointing at her husband — ‘is going that way too. Fortunately he’s married to a very sensible, very strong woman.’
‘Drink?’ the father asked.
‘Yes, please,’ the husband said.
‘Sure, hit the bottle. That’ll solve things.’
‘You too?’ the father asked.
‘No, of course not! Have I ever drunk a single drop of alcohol?’
‘You’re never too old to start.’ The father got up and poured two old genevers: his own glass full to overflowing so that he had to bend over and take a slurp before he could pick it up. After putting the other glass down in front of the husband, he immediately returned his attention to the TV.
‘Yes,’ the mother said, sighing. ‘Him going that way too…’
‘Ach, woman.’
She started to cry softly.
The husband sipped his genever. He wondered if his mother-in-law was right, if it was his fault. A squall of rain briefly drowned out the singing of a fat girl with spiky hair who was standing motionless in a large room. She had a magnificent, clear voice and seemed to forget everything around her while she sang. Her eyes gleamed, her hands hung next to her thighs, completely relaxed, she became beautiful. Soon after, they told her that she lacked the ‘necessary charisma’. Next, please.
‘Bastards,’ said the father.
*
During a commercial break, the mother started again. ‘Are they going to put you in prison now?’
‘No,’ the husband said. In front of him was a second glass of genever.
‘Why not?’
‘Because I’m paying for all the damage.’
‘So nowadays you can commit arson wherever you like without getting sent to prison?’
‘That depends, I suppose,’ the husband said. ‘I didn’t leave the scene. I cooperated. I think it’s related to that.’
‘Have you got the money?’
‘Sure.’
‘It’s still your fault.’
‘Why do you say that? Do you really think it’s that simple?’
‘Yes.’
‘You know what she did.’
‘Yes.’
‘So how can it be my fault?’
‘How do we even know it’s true? We’ve only got it from you. Who says you’re not lying?’
‘Why would I lie?’
‘Because of everything you’ve got to hide.’
‘I don’t have anything to hide.’
‘No,’ said the father, who was staring at the TV screen.
‘You keep out of it,’ said the mother. ‘Where could that poor child have got to?’
‘The uncle,’ the husband said. ‘That brother of yours. Is he still alive?’
‘And kicking!’ the father said. ‘He’s not even seventy yet.’
‘Where’s he live?’
‘You think she’s at his place?’ the mother asked.
‘She’s not there,’ the father said.
‘He already phoned him. She’s not there. Unless he’s lying. That’s quite possible too, of course. He’s stark staring mad.’
There was more singing and judging on TV. The father had turned it up after his wife’s last remark. He was sitting much too close; it was hard to believe he could see anything at all with his nose pressed against the screen like that. Or was it a way of making himself invisible, so that he could comment safely from the sidelines now and then?
‘Money,’ said the father.
‘What?’
‘Don’t you get statements from the bank? Showing what’s been withdrawn, where and when. She needs money, doesn’t she?’
‘I get statements,’ the husband said. ‘Not her. She does it all online. I don’t have access. We have separate accounts.’
‘If you ask me, you’ve got plenty to hide,’ the mother said. ‘You turned out to be an arsonist, after all.’
The husband sighed.
‘Not having any kids, that’s your fault too. I’m sure of it.’
‘You’re sure?’
‘Yes.’
‘Didn’t she tell you about the tests?’
‘What tests?’
‘The tests I’ve had.’
‘I don’t know anything about that.’
‘That’s obvious.’
‘I want a glass of wine.’
‘What?’ said the father.
‘I said I want a glass of wine. White.’
‘Help yourself.’
‘You serve your son-in-law and I have to help myself?’
‘Yes,’ said the father. ‘I’m watching TV. And you never drink.’
The mother stood up and walked to the kitchen. The husband pondered the ferocity she had put into the phrase ‘son-in-law’ and waited for his father-in-law to turn round. To say something to him. Man to man. Light flickered through the living room.