Chloe choked back a little sob and tried to wrap her arms around her mother’s neck.
“I love you, Mommy. Have to go bye-bye now.”
Her mother blinked. Nick waited a couple of seconds, then gave Chloe’s shoulder a gentle squeeze.
“The last bit, love. Go on.”
She nodded, understanding what he meant—spirits always seemed to know this instinctively when first separated from their bodies. Placing her forehead against her mother’s, she joined her with shut eyes and poured out the very last of her mortal memories, the essence of their all too brief life together.
No matter how many times Tamara had tried to explain the human need for closure, to Nick’s mind it was still sentimental. Nonetheless, he waited patiently for Chloe’s spirit to converge for a moment with that of her mother’s.
Her mother smiled, her eyes closed. It was only a moment, but she seemed at peace. When she began to cry again, Chloe kissed the top of her head and returned to Nick, sadness briefly tugging the corners of her mouth down. Then her eyes and face began to glow.
She took Nick’s hand.
Her mother’s tears and sobs penetrated the emotional barrier he tried to forge. His hand began to glow—how simple it would have been to use his healing ability and restore the little girl’s mortal life. Just one touch.
But it was not allowed.
Nick had learned—the hard way, in England, a century ago. But what good was such an ability if it could not be used where needed?
What’s the point of my existence, for that matter?
He started walking out of the room, an entirely human and unnecessary habit he’d developed from mingling with mortals over the years.
“Ready, Chloe?”
“I miss her.”
“She’ll miss you a lot more.”
“How come?”
“Because mortals don’t know what it’s like on this side.” For them, time was a driving tyrant: linear, merciless, flowing in one and only one direction. Why would anyone want to go through a short pittance of a life with all its sorrows—seventy, maybe ninety years—only to grow feeble and stupid towards the end? At least Chloe had been spared that.
Yet something about this premature departure troubled him unreasonably. He’d reaped the souls of children before, never liked doing it, but in Chloe’s case the pain was quite a bit more acute.
As memories from the past surfaced, Nick without thinking released Chloe’s hand and floated freely in the room. Before he knew it, he found himself standing beside her mother. The auburn hair falling over emerald eyes shimmering with tears made her look achingly beautiful.
Her weeping subsided. Her lips moved ever so subtly.
She was praying.
Again without thinking, Nick stretched out his hand, gently reached toward her face with his fingertips, taking pains not to touch her so she wouldn’t perceive his presence.
Or would she?
She gasped with a start, her face lighting up.
Damn. Nick had inadvertently touched her hair and revealed himself.
Idiot!
He instantly slipped out of her perception. It had lasted only a second, but she had felt his presence. Seen his face.
She bolted to her feet and looked around the room, returned to her seat when she saw no one.
“Let’s go, Chloe.” Nick took her hand.
“What happened?”
“She’ll be all right.” He led Chloe to the door, hoping he hadn’t just lied to her.
Chloe turned back to see her mother, waved, and said, “Bye-bye, Mama.”
Nick, against his better judgment, turned and looked at the mother too. Any trace of that brief moment of euphoria mortals experience the first time they encounter an angel had been replaced by deep grief. He’d seen such pain far too often, but this was the strongest he’d felt it himself in a long time.
Human emotions.
As though they were his own.
He hated it. Hated the fact that he was starting to feel them again.
They were alien, perverse, just…wrong!
With a shudder, he held Chloe’s hand and crossed the divide.
2
IF QUANTIFIED IN HUMAN TERMS, the trip to the Terminus would have taken about three years at several times the speed of light, a trivial fact Nick had worked out just because he could. But to Nick—and Chloe, who now perceived time and space as he did—they seemed to arrive after a few seconds in a dark tunnel.
“Where are we?” Chloe still gripped his hand.
“The Terminus.”
“It’s so dark.”
Of course it was. But this painfully obvious remark could be forgiven because Chloe was a child. Most of his other subjects would be blubbering at this point: I lived a good life! Assuming the worst: I don’t deserve this!
The simple fact was that Nick didn’t know the final destination of any of the souls he harvested, so he’d grown immune to their pleas. And bargaining, for pity’s sake! It wasn’t as though he had any decision-making power.
Chloe wrapped her little arms—trembling little arms—around Nick’s forearm.
“I’m scared,” she whispered.
Scared? If she knew he’d once been a warrior feared by humans and demons, her fear might be understandable. But now, as a reaper of the third legion? He was nothing but a cosmic chauffeur.
Nick sighed, took a deep breath, and snapped his fingers to form a construct for her. It started with a pinpoint of light, the size of the little dot the old picture-tube tellies displayed in the last seconds before you shut them off. But instead of shrinking, the dot grew into a white circle through which a torrent of sensory details flooded.
A rushing wind blew Chloe’s hair back like a flag while all around them the construct perfected itself in both her perception and Nick’s: throngs of people going to and fro, steel-framed skylights, a female voice announcing endless arrivals and departures, lighted schedule boards, and everywhere the stench of humanity.
Over to the left, an old woman laughed and wept with a young woman who had run up to her. To the right, a group of high school students gathered together with high-fives and fist-bumps and bear hugs that seemed decades overdue. Apparently Nick was not the only compassionate reaper.
But the sights did make him feel a bit sick.
“A train station?” Chloe said.
“I’ve created a construct to resemble the terminus at Victoria Station for you.”
“Why?”
“So you can understand where we are. What it’s like. Somewhat, anyway.”
“Why?” She could be annoying.
“Picture says a thousand words, doesn’t it?”
“But why?”
Something nearby caught his attention.
“Get your damn paws off of me, you bastards! This is just a dream! A freaking nightmare!” The man in a dark gray suit and red silk necktie thrashed about to no avail as two metro policemen started to drag him off. Nick winked his left eye and obscured the three from Chloe’s perception just as the man started to berate the dark reapers with language Nick really didn’t want her to hear.
“Who were they?” she said.
“Bother that, we’ve got to go, straightaway. Don’t want to miss your train, do you?”
Chloe giggled. And when Nick knelt and fixed her collar at the platform, checked that her little Tigger backpack was properly shut, she was still giggling.
“What’s so funny?” he said.
“You said bother.” When she got to the word she giggled just a little, as though the word tickled. “That’s what Winnie the Pooh says!”
“Right.” Winnie the freaking Pooh. Good thing she was about to leave, he was starting to feel…it was just a good thing she was leaving, was all.