The space on her right was still empty. Paul hadn’t returned, and Nora wondered whether he was ever going to come back. It didn’t seem impossible to her that he might have left for good. Maybe a note would be waiting for her in the cabin, one of those short, curt notes which that idle men knew so well how to leave on a corner of the table just before fleeing…
The ski jump competition ended. The trail was cleared for the last downhill race. The judges shouted their instructions through cardboard bullhorns that were audible from one side of the ski run to the other. The crowd returned to the rostrum. In a second, the entire ski run was vacant and strained silence muffled the noise of a moment earlier.
The two five-man teams, from the SKV and the Touring Club, were going to descend the slope beneath the mountain peak in a straight line that would end in front of the rostrum. The regulations called this Schuss, a dash. The distance wasn’t long, not even 600 metres, but the slope was precipitous and any kind of stop — snowplow, stem-christi or telemark — was forbidden. The scene surrounding the competition contributed to the generally emotional atmosphere: pennants waved in silence, accordions that had been playing the whole time now stopped at a sign from the judges. At the base of the cliffs below the peak of Postăvar, the two teams could be seen lined up like black spheres on the white snow.
The report of the starting pistol opened the competition.
In the first seconds all that could be seen was a cloud of snow that billowed like an avalanche as it rolled down the slope. Then, one after another, the racers broke out of the blur, a tiny distance separating each one from the next. They were impossible to recognize or follow. Fans of both teams fell silent with the same troubled intensity. It was like a game played in the dark: nobody knew who was leading, who was winning, who was losing.
A cry went up from the rostrum: one of the racers had fallen. He fell head-first, rolling over down the slope, with his skis jammed across each other. His team was lost. The rules eliminated from the competition any team all of whose members didn’t cross the finish line. People rushed across the rostrum to the judges’ table seeking explanations and asking questions: “Who? Who? Who?”
The man continued to roll down the slope while the other racers swept past close by him, heading downhill.
The arrival of the competitors took place amid a general uproar. Each team member who reached the finish line was mobbed by the crowd, who recognized him and called out his name. There were five from the SKV, but only four from the Touring Club… The Touring Club was eliminated from the competition! But no! There were also five racers from the Touring Club. In the crush of people, they had counted wrong. All ten racers had completed the course. The results would be decided by the stopwatch.
Who, then, was the fallen racer? Who was that eleventh, unregistered competitor who now lay in the snow halfway down the run? The first-aid team headed towards the site of the accident. Nora could not prevent an absurd thought from entering her head.
“Please wait for me here,” she said to Gunther. “I’ll be right back.”
Paul had set out towards the mountain’s summit without any clear thought in his mind. He wanted only to get away from the Touring Club and that rowdy crowd. On the slope from Timiş the mountainside was silent and deserted. The forest took on the savagery of a forgotten time. He stood for a few moments on the frozen rocks of the summit, white like huge blocks of ice. The Timiş, Valley, invisible and covered by clouds, vibrated far below with the rustling sound of running water. The horizon was blotted out by the same dense mist, as though between walls of smoke.
He didn’t know how long he had been there. Minutes or hours flowed by him with a taste of slumber. He had dropped down a few steps to make a detour around some icy boulders that blocked the way to the Timiş slope, and had found among the pine trees a wide path set like a saddle on the neck of the mountain. His skis were gliding forward on their own at an easy pace, when suddenly they twisted violently to the right. In the same instant they stopped him with a reflexive shudder that made him feel a lunge in his chest, as though someone behind him had pulled a secret brake lever.
In front of him the almost vertical path opened like a clear drop, at the bottom of which he could see the rostrum of the Touring Club. Coloured pennants were flying over the ski run and as their shapes changed they exchanged incomprehensible waves. The sound of voices came from below, but then suddenly nothing was audible, as though the Touring Club chalet with its rostrum and people had vanished into the distance.
He set out downhill with his eyes open. If I want, I can still stop, he thought. For the first few seconds the skis were sliding with difficulty over the frozen snow. Yes, I can still stop. The weapon’s report broke the silence. Only then did he realize that he wasn’t alone. Silhouettes rushed past very close to him one after another, lifting the curtain of snow that covered everything. Finally it got lighter, a torrent of white solar light through which he himself passed luminously, like a lighted torch. His eyes remained wide open, but the sun was too strong to allow him to see anything.
The fall struck him like a deflection into flight. He had the violent sensation of being swept off his intended trajectory and hurled in another direction, like a ricocheting projectile…
He was brought to the rostrum on a stretcher made out of pine bows.
“I think you don’t even think you have a fracture, but it’s better for us not to tire you out,” the young doctor said, taking seriously his role as the head of the first-aid team.
Paul had initially lost consciousness, but then he had opened his eyes, unaware of what was going on. Above him were several unfamiliar faces, including Nora’s: the severe, sad Nora at whom he would have liked to smile.
He had received a blow in the right eye, his lower lip was bleeding, his forehead and cheeks were raw with scratches.
“That’s not the important thing,” the doctor said. “If there’s no fracture, nor an internal hemorrhage, we’re home-free.”
Nothing was hurting. He just felt that he couldn’t get up. Nora was rubbing him with her handkerchief.
“It’s your turn to get me up out of the snow,” he said. “Now you don’t owe me anything: an accident for an accident.”
She bent over him even farther and whispered in his ear, so that no one would hear: “Why did you do that, Paul? Why?”
“I don’t know, Nora. I don’t remember.”
There was something radiant in his gaze, an expression of great calm.
“I’ve forgotten everything, absolutely everything. And here in the snow beneath your eyes, Nora, I’m a man without memories, a free man — you hear me? A free man…”
XVI
OLD GRODECK ARRIVED AT THE CABIN THE MORNING AFTER Christmas. Nobody expected him, but even before his arrival, Faffner showed signs of uneasiness. He roamed about snarling and rooting around in the snow with his snout as though searching for an invisible trail of blood.