“That’s what you think,” Phoebe muttered. She hitched up her skirts, thrust her foot into the stirrup, grabbed the pommel, and heaved herself up, swinging her leg over the saddle and thumping down. The horse shifted on the cobbles as it felt her weight. Phoebe gave a cry of alarm and clung to the pommel.
“Relax,” Cato said, which struck Phoebe as a senseless command. Cato attached a long leading rein to the mare’s bridle and led her across the stable yard towards the home paddock, Phoebe muttering to herself and hanging on for dear life.
In the paddock, Cato stepped away from the mare, paying out the leading rein. Phoebe gazed at him in alarm. “Where are you going?”
“I’m still holding her. Let go the pommel and take up the reins.”
“This is such a bad idea,” Phoebe complained, doing as she was told. “I can’t tell you what a bad idea this is.”
“On the contrary, it’s an excellent idea.”
Cato instructed the mare to walk on, and she started forward placidly around the paddock at the end of the long rein while Cato remained standing in the center of the field.
There seemed nothing for it but to grit her teeth and endure. Phoebe clung grimly to the reins, closed her eyes, and prayed for it soon to be over.
“You’re sitting like a sack of potatoes,” Cato chided. “Sit up straight… put your shoulders back. There’s no need to grip the reins so tightly… For God’s sake, Phoebe, open your eyes!”
Phoebe opened them. There didn’t seem anything of the least interest to see. She closed them again and jounced in the saddle, her jaw aching with the effort to keep her teeth from clattering under the unstable motion of the horse.
“Oh, this is ridiculous.” Cato signaled to the horse to stop. He came across the paddock, reeling in the leading rein. “I have never seen anything so pathetic, Phoebe! I am losing patience.”
“Well, what do you expect me to do?” Phoebe exclaimed.
“I expect you to keep your eyes open, your hands off the pommel.” Cato spoke with exaggerated patience. “I expect you to sit up straight, grip the saddle with your knees, and for God’s sake, girl, relax!”
“Well, where do I put my hands if I don’t hold the pommel?”
“You hold the reins loosely, fingers like this.” He reached up and grabbed her hands, roughly adjusting her fingers. “The reins have to lie just so. D’you see?”
Sorrel, taking advantage of the break in the proceedings, bent her head to crop the grass, and Phoebe grabbed the pommel again with another cry of alarm as the mare’s neck offered a glossy slide to the ground.
“Pull her head up,” Cato said tautly.
“It won’t come,” Phoebe said as she gave a little tug on the reins. “She’s not going to take any notice of me.”
“No, of course she’s not if you sit there like a blancmange. You have no more backbone than a vanilla custard.” Cato put his hand against her spine. “Sit up straight!”
Grimly Phoebe straightened her spine against his hand.
“Now take a firm hold of the reins and pull her head up. She needs to know who’s master.”
“Oh, I think she knows that already,” Phoebe muttered again, giving a tentative tug on the reins. To her relief, Sorrel had decided she’d had enough of the icy grass and lifted her head apparently to order.
“That’s better. Now we’ll try a trot.” Cato stepped back again, paying out the leading rein. “You have to rise up in the stirrups… no, for heaven’s sake. What’s the matter with you? Feel the rhythm of the horse. Can’t you feel it?”
Phoebe could feel it in her teeth. She couldn’t imagine a more uncomfortable, unnatural motion for a human to be involved in.
“This is just ridiculous,” Cato declared, drawing Sorrel to a halt again. He came back towards her. “I have never seen anyone so completely at odds with a horse. I have been trying to explain – ”
“No, you haven’t. You’ve been shouting at me!” Phoebe cried, now pushed beyond bearing. “I’m doing the best I can, but I take leave to tell you, my lord, that you’re a horrid teacher! You have no patience at all! No one could learn anything from you.”
Cato was taken aback. He had always been the soul of patience, an impeccably understanding teacher. “That’s nonsense,” he said. “You’re just not concentrating.”
“Oh, I am! And it’s not nonsense.” Phoebe’s eyes were filled with angry tears. “If I must do this, I want someone else to teach me.” Impulsively she kicked her feet free of the stirrups and tumbled from the mare’s back.
Cato caught her as she half fell, half scrambled from the saddle. “For God’s sake, girl! What the devil d’you think you’re doing? That’s no way to dismount. If you slip, the horse might accidentally kick you or trample you.”
“Oh!” It was too much. Phoebe planted her hands on his chest and pushed him away with all her strength. “You haven’t heard a word I’ve said!” she exclaimed. “Why must you scold and command all the time? You’re just a damned tyrant!” She glared at him, her eyes still sheened with furious tears.
Cato was reduced to astonished silence. He could still feel the pressure of her hands on his chest as she’d thrust him from her.
As he stood trying to make sense of her outburst, Phoebe turned and marched towards the paddock gate.
“Phoebe!” He dropped the leading rein and went after her. “Just where do you think you’re going?” He caught her, spinning her round to face him. He cupped her chin on his palm and tilted her face up so she had to look at him. “You don’t swear at me and shove me away, and then stomp off without a word of explanation.”
Phoebe’s temper was rarely aroused and always short-lived. “You made me so angry,” she said, swiping the back of her gloved hand over her damp nose. “I was doing the best I could, and you know how scared I am. And all you could do was criticize and command. You didn’t give me one word of encouragement. I don’t know how you can expect anyone to learn anything like that.”
“That’s beside the point! How dare you swear at me?”
“You were doing everything but swearing at me,” Phoebe pointed out, the fire still in her eyes.
Cato hesitated, looking down into her upturned countenance. He hated leaving things half done, but Phoebe’s expression was thoroughly unyielding. Reluctantly he said, “Very well, we’ll stop for today. You’ve obviously had enough for the first lesson. We’ll try again tomorrow.”
“Must we?” Phoebe groaned. “Can’t you see it’s pointless?”
“No, I can’t,” he said shortly, releasing her chin. “You will learn to ride, if it takes me a year.”
“Then you owe me a riding habit,” Phoebe declared. “A riding habit for a riding lesson is what you said. And if I’ve got to go on with this torture, then you have to keep your promise.”
Cato would never renege on a debt. “Very well. We will ride into Witney and you may have your habit.” He turned from her and went over to fetch the mare, once more placidly cropping the grass where it poked through the thin crust of snow, all that remained of the earlier storm.
Phoebe watched him take up the reins, and had a sudden awful thought. “I’m not ready to ride all that way on my own.”
“Oh, believe me,” Cato said with a short laugh, “I know that. You may ride pillion with me.”
An hour later Cato lifted her down from his charger in the stable yard of the Hand and Shears. “You know your way to the dressmaker’s, I assume?” He reached into his pocket and drew out a leather pouch.
“Yes, it’s on High Street,” Phoebe replied.
Cato handed her his purse. “There’s close to thirty guineas in there. It should be sufficient.”
“Thirty guineas!” Phoebe’s jaw dropped as she felt the weight of the purse. It would buy half a dozen muskets and goodness knows how many buff leather jerkins. “May I spend all that?”
“Judiciously,” he said with a slight smile. “I doubt you’ll bankrupt me.”
Phoebe considered. There was no reason why only she should benefit from this largesse. “The dressmaker has a gown that Olivia loved,” she said. “Orange and black. It would look splendid on her.”