Drave gave her a long, slow stare. Then, as if speaking to a child, he said: ‘Is that what he told you?’
The realisation of what she’d done took all the strength out of her, and she staggered. Crake caught her by instinct, and bore her up before she could fall. She met his eyes, and there was confusion and terror in them, and suddenly she was just a scared young woman instead of the tough street-rat that they all knew.
But Crake’s heart had gone hard, and he let her go quickly and stepped back. Had the Ashua he’d known been a lie all along? Was she manipulating them even now? He could hardly believe it, and yet here she was, caught red-handed, a traitor.
She saw what was in his eyes and retreated from him, but there was nowhere to go. She was surrounded by the accusing gazes of the crew, all of them asking the same question. Did you do it? Did you really?
‘It was the Thacians!’ she insisted, desperation making her voice thin.
‘You’re a liar,’ said Drave. ‘Bargo Ocken works for a spyhunter called Jakeley Screed, and he works for the Sammies. You’ve been sending them highly sensitive information. I hope they paid you well, Miss Vode. You won’t live to enjoy it.’ He waved at the troops. ‘They’re all traitors and spies and enemies of the Coalition. Take them to the cells.’
‘Oi! Not us! It’s nothing to do with us!’ Malvery bellowed, and suddenly everyone was pushing and shoving as the soldiers weighed in. Crake felt himself seized, his arm twisted painfully behind his back. He struggled, but cold iron was clamped on his wrist and he was cuffed. Someone barged into him and he got a smack on the nose from the side of their head. Stars blazed in front of his eyes.
This couldn’t be right, he thought, dazed. This wasn’t how it was supposed to be. They’d done the right thing: they’d gone to the authorities. Crake had practically made Frey go to the authorities. He’d always had faith in order and reason. Where was the order and reason in this?
They simply didn’t have all the facts. That was the problem. He just had to make them understand, and all of this would be cleared up.
‘Wait!’ he cried over the tussle. ‘Wait! We have to tell you what we found! The Awakeners are on their way! They’re going to destroy the fleet!’
Drave held up the box. ‘I’ve already heard all you have to say, traitor,’ he said. ‘And I’m not interested.’
Crake was wrenched forward then, and he found himself being propelled away from the aircraft, caught up in a tide of people. Faces and bodies surged in the electric light; breath steamed in the chill night air.
‘I’ll straighten this all out!’ Bree shouted after him, an unfamiliar note of distress in her voice. ‘Don’t worry!’
Crake had no words worth saying back to her. He was shoved into position next to the Cap’n, who was handcuffed like he was, and the two of them were frogmarched towards the gate of the landing pad.
Frey threw him a filthy look. Crake turned away, ashamed.
Ashua sat against the wall of her cell, head hung and hugging her knees.
The lights were out, but nobody slept. She could hear the others shifting restlessly nearby, each in their own cells. They didn’t talk between themselves, and she knew why. They didn’t want to. Not while the traitor was listening.
The Samarlans. She’d been selling information to the Sammies all along. She wanted to feather her own nest because she didn’t trust the crew would hold together, and in doing so, she’d condemned them all to death.
Stupid, stupid, stupid!
She needed to stay angry at herself. If she didn’t, she’d think of other things. She’d think about how it might feel like when her legs dropped away and the rope snapped tight around her neck. She’d think about whether the noose would kill her instantly or if she’d have time to feel what was happening to her. Would her brain keep working, trapped there inside a skull attached to a useless body, filling her last instants with inconceivable horror?
She punched herself in the arm, hard. It was already bruised.
Jakeley Screed. That son of a bitch. He’d played her. And she’d fallen for it.
It was all so painfully simple. Dager Toyle, the man who’d originally employed her in Shasiith, was a Thacian spy. Screed had killed him and begun exterminating his network. Ashua thought she’d escaped, but she’d only bought herself some time. Screed had found her in the end, and when he did, he had a better use for her than just taking her out. She was in Vardia now, on the Ketty Jay, whose crew had acquired something of a reputation for mixing it up with the big players. Handily placed to feed the Sammies good information. So he sent Ocken to pose as one of Toyle’s men, come to renew an old arrangement. He let Ashua believe he was dead, that it was safe again. And she, her eyes gleaming at the thought of all that money, never questioned it for a moment.
It wasn’t her fault. She’d been tricked. She never meant the crew to be blamed for it. She’d never meant for them to find out.
Will you listen to yourself?
She punched herself in the same spot. The pain was enough to stop her breath for a moment. But she had to keep doing it, otherwise she might remember the expression on Malvery’s face. The way he’d looked at her, the betrayal in his eyes. Or she might remember Crake, who could hardly bear to touch her. She’d remember the resentful glare the Cap’n gave her as he passed, reminding her whose fault it was that they were all getting arrested.
She sensed them out there, sitting in their cells in silence, because of her.
I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry, she thought. But she couldn’t say it. Apologies didn’t mean shit in her world.
For a short while there, she’d felt like she had a family. But she’d been wrong. A few months didn’t make a family. They didn’t know her at all. Not well enough to understand why she did what she did. And they’d never trust her again. Because accidentally or not, she’d been spying for the Sammies. And, in the eyes of Malvery and Crake at least, there wasn’t much she could do that was lower than that.
She punched herself again. She’d hurt like a bastard tomorrow. But she wouldn’t hurt for long.
Thirty-Six
The crew of the Ketty Jay stood in a line facing the grey morning, hands tied behind their backs and nooses round their necks. Side by side, as they’d always been.
Frey watched the sky as the judge droned on in the background, listing crimes real and imagined, filling up time with dreary accusations and pompous legalese. A biting chill was in the air. Clouds hung dark and heavy, muffling the weak winter sun. A flurry of thin sleet blew across the courtyard, leaving cold droplets on his skin.
There was a storm coming. He’d never been more certain of anything.
The witnesses assembled before the gallows platform were mainly soldiers, but there were familiar faces too. Samandra Bree, for one. She was handcuffed; it was the only way they’d let her stay after she went berserk at the sight of her lover at the end of a rope. She’d begged them in the end. Now she was quiet and pale, her face locked in an expression of abject fear, her eyes fixed only on Crake. There was something terrible in seeing a woman like that defanged.
Drave was there, of course, his arms folded beneath his broad chest, stern-faced and grim as rock. Grudge and Kyne were present, but under guard, as Samandra was. Their weapons had been taken from them until their reputations could be repaired. If it was shown that they’d been taken in by traitors, they’d be disciplined. Not that Frey much cared about that, given the circumstances.
He looked down at his feet with detached interest. Only a bolt kept the trapdoor he was standing on in place. Only that between him and oblivion. Seemed a precarious place to be.