“Coffee’s great. Thank you. Can I ask you a question?”
“Of course.”
“Personal question?”
“Try me.”
“Do you belong to an Affinity? I mean, if you’re allowed to say.”
“Oh, I’m allowed. Employees can take the test for free. I did. I know my Affinity. But no, I never joined a tranche.”
“Why not?”
She held up her left hand, the ring finger circled by a modest gold band. “My husband was tested too, but he didn’t qualify. And I don’t want to commit to a social circle he can’t join. It’s not an insurmountable problem—tranches organize spouse-friendly auxiliary events. But he would have been shut out of official functions. And I didn’t want that. That’s why the existing Affinities are a little bit skewed toward young singles, divorcees, widowers. Over time, as people meet and mate inside their own Affinity groups, we expect the imbalance to even out. It’s trending that way already.”
“You ever regret not joining?”
“I regret not having what so many of our clients find so useful and empowering. Sure. But I made my decision when I married my husband, and I’m happy with it.”
“Which Affinity did you qualify for?”
“Now that’s a personal question. But I’m a Tau, for what it’s worth. And I take some comfort from knowing I have a place to go, if I ever need to call on people I can really trust. But let’s get on with business, okay?”
* * *
The next day I got a call from Jenny Symanski.
Some people thought of Jenny as my girlfriend. I wasn’t sure I was one of those people. That wasn’t a dig at Jenny. It was just that our relationship had a perpetually unsettled quality, and neither of us liked to name it.
“Hey,” she said. “Is this a good time?”
She was calling from Schuyler, my home town. Schuyler is in upstate New York, and all my family were there. I had left Schuyler two years ago for a diploma program in graphic design at Sheridan College, and since then I had seen Jenny only on occasional visits home. “Good a time as any,” I said.
“You sure? You sound kind of distracted.”
“I kind of am. I think I told you I’m up for an internship at a local ad agency, but I haven’t heard back. Classes this morning, but I’m home now, so…”
“I don’t want to be a nuisance when there’s so much else on your mind.”
She was being weirdly solicitous. “Don’t worry about it.”
“You seem to be dealing with the situation pretty well.”
“What situation? The internship? The job market sucks—what else is new?”
Long pause.
“Jenny?”
“Oh,” she said. “Shit. Aaron didn’t call you, did he?”
“No, why would Aaron call me?” Another silence. “Jen, what’s up?”
“Your grandmother’s in the hospital.”
I sank onto the sofa. Dex and I had snagged the sofa when a neighbor put it out for the trash. The cushions were compacted and threadbare, and no matter how you shifted around you could never get comfortable. But right then I felt anesthetized. You could have pierced me with a sword. “What happened?”
“Okay, no, she’s basically all right. Okay? Not dead. Not dying. Apparently she woke up in the night with pain in her chest, sweating, puking. Your dad called 911.”
“Jesus, Jen—a heart attack?”
I pictured Grammy Fisk in her raggedy old flannel nightgown, white with a pink flower pattern. She loved that nightgown, but she wouldn’t let any of us see her in it before nine at night or after six in the morning—and strangers never saw her in it. The prospect of paramedics invading her bedroom would have horrified her.
“That’s what everybody thought. But I was over at your dad’s house this morning and he said now the doctors are telling him it was her gallbladder.”
I wasn’t sure what that meant, but it sounded slightly less terrifying than a cardiac condition. “So what do they do, operate on her?”
“That’s not clear. She’s still in the hospital for tests, but they think she can come home tomorrow. There’s something about diet and medication, I don’t really remember…”
“I guess that’s good…”
“Under the circumstances.”
“Yeah, under the circumstances.”
“I’m really sorry to be the one to tell you.”
“No,” I said. “No, I appreciate it.”
And that was true. In some ways, it was better getting the bad news from Jenny than from Aaron. My brother didn’t entirely approve of me or Grammy Fisk. My father had underwritten Aaron’s MBA, and Aaron currently co-managed the family business. But the only one willing to pay for my graphic design courses had been Grammy Fisk, and she had done it over my father’s objections.
A question occurred to me. “How did you find out about it?”
“Well—Aaron told me.”
The Fisks and the Symanskis had been close for decades. Jenny and I had grown up together; she was always at the house. Stilclass="underline" “Aaron told you but not me?”
“I swear, he said he was going to call. Have you checked your phone for messages?”
I rarely had to check my phone for messages. I didn’t get a lot of calls or texts, outside of a few regulars. But I checked. Sure enough, two missed calls from a familiar number. Aaron had tried to get hold of me twice. Both attempts had been yesterday evening, when I had turned off my phone for my session at InterAlia.
* * *
I called Aaron and told him I’d heard the news from Jenny. I apologized for not getting back to him sooner.
“Well, turns out it’s not such an emergency after all. She’s home now.”
“Can I talk to her?”
“She’s sleeping, and she needs her rest, so better not.”
It was easy to picture Aaron standing at the ancient landline phone in the living room back home. It was hot in Toronto and probably just as hot in Schuyler. The front windows would be open, curtains dappled with the shade of the willow tree in the yard. The inside of the house would be sultry and still, because my father didn’t believe in air-conditioning before the first of June.
And Aaron himself: dressed the way he always dressed when he wasn’t doing business, black jeans, white shirt, no tie. Dabbing a bead of sweat from his forehead with the knuckle of his thumb.
“How are Dad and Mama Laura taking it?”
Mama Laura was our stepmother.
“Ah, you know Dad. Taking charge. He was practically giving orders to the EMT guys. But worried, of course. Mama Laura’s been in the kitchen most of the day. Neighbors keep coming by with food, like somebody died. It’s nice, but we’re up to our asses in lasagna and baked chicken.”
“What about Geddy?”
Geddy, our twelve-year-old stepbrother, Mama Laura’s gift to the family. “He seems to be dealing with it,” Aaron said, “but Geddy’s a puzzle.”
“Tell Grammy Fisk I’ll be there by tomorrow morning.” I would have to rent a car. But the drive was only five hours, if the border crossing didn’t slow me down.
“She says not.”
“Who says not?”
“Grammy Fisk. She said to tell you not to come.”
“Those were her words?”
“Her words were something like, You tell Adam not to mess up his schoolwork by running down here after me. And she’s right. She’s hardy as a hen. Wait till end of term, would be my advice.”
Maybe, but I would have to hear it directly from Grammy Fisk.
“You’ll be paying us a visit sometime in the next couple of months anyway, right?”
“Right. Absolutely.”
“All right then. I’ll put Dad on. He can fill you in on what the doctors are saying.”
* * *
My father spent ten minutes repeating everything he’d learned about the nature and function of the gallbladder, the sum-up being that Grammy Fisk’s condition was non-trivial but far from life-threatening. By that time she was awake and able to pick up the bedroom extension. She thanked me for my concern but urged me to stay put. “I don’t want you ruining the education I paid for, just because I had a bad night. Come see me when I’m feeling better. I mean that, Adam.”