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our clothes in the diagonally curtained corner of the Other room, and Kathy knelt swiftly just beyond the dresser, out of sight. "Anna is eleven." I had no place to hide, burdened as I was with Danna. "She's old enough. What time do you want her to come over?" "Oh, bedtime will do." Mrs. Klevity peered out the door at the darkening sky. "Nine o'clock. Only it gets dark before then—" Bricks can look anxious, I guess. "As soon as she has supper, she can come," said Mom, handling my hours as though they had no value to me. "Of course she has to go to school tomorrow." "Only when it's dark," said Mrs. Klevity. "Day is all right. How much should I pay you?" "Pay?" Mom gestured with one hand. "She has to sleep anyway. It doesn't matter to her where, once she's asleep. A favor for a friend." I wanted to cry out: Whose favor for what friend? We hardly passed the time of day with Mrs. Klevity. I couldn't even remember Mr. Klevity except that he was straight and old and wrinkled. Uproot me and make me lie in a strange house, a strange dark, listening to a strange breathing, feeling a strange warmth making itself part of me for all night long, seeping into me— "Mom—" I said. "I'll give her breakfast," said Mrs. Klevity. "And lunch money for each night she comes." I resigned myself without a struggle. Lunch money each day—a whole dime! Mom couldn't afford to pass up such a blessing, such a gift from God, who unerringly could be trusted to ease the pinch just before it became intolerable. "Thank you, God," I whispered as I went to get the can opener to open supper. For a night or two I could stand it.
I felt all naked and unprotected as I stood in my flimsy crinkle cotton pajamas, one bare foot atop the other, waiting for Mrs. Klevity to turn the bed down. "We have to check the house first," she said thickly. "We can't go to bed until we check the house." "Check the house?" I forgot my starchy stiff shyness enough to question. "What for?" Mrs. Klevity peered at me in the dim light of the bedroom. They had three rooms for only the two of them! Even if there was no door to shut between the bedroom and the kitchen. "I couldn't sleep," she said, "unless I looked first. I have to." So we looked. Behind the closet curtain, under the table—Mrs. Klevity even looked in the portable oven that sat near the two-burner stove in the kitchen. When we came to the bed, I was moved to words again. "But we've been in here with the doors locked ever since I got here. What could possibly—" "A prowler?" said Mrs. Klevity nervously, after a brief pause for thought. "A criminal?" Mrs. Klevity pointed her face at me. I doubt if she could see me from that distance. "Doors make no difference," she said. "It might be when you least expect, so you have to expect all the time." "I'll look," I said humbly. She was older than Mom. She was nearly blind. She was one of God's Also Unto Me's. "No," she said. "I have to. I couldn't be sure, else." So I waited until she grunted and groaned to her knees, then bent stiffly ABC Amber Palm Converter,http://www.processtext.com/abcpalm.html to lift the limp spread. Her fingers hesitated briefly, then flicked the spread up. Her breath came out flat and finished. Almost disappointed, it seemed to me. She turned the bed down and I crept across the gray, wrinkled sheets, and turning my back to the room, I huddled one ear on the flat, tobacco-smelling pillow and lay tense and uncomfortable in the dark, as her weight shaped and reshaped the bed around me. There was a brief silence before I heard the soundless breathy shape of her words, "How long, O God, how long?" I wondered through my automatic bless Papa and Mama—and the automatic backup, because Papa had abdicated from my specific prayers, bless Mama and my brother and sisters—what it was that Mrs. Klevity was finding too long to bear. After a restless waking, dozing sort of night that strange sleeping places held for me, I awoke to a thin chilly morning and the sound of Mrs. Klevity moving around. She had set the table for breakfast, a formality we never had time for at home. I scrambled out of bed and into my clothes with only my skinny, goose-fleshed back between Mrs. Klevity and me for modesty. I felt uncomfortable and unfinished because I hadn't brought our comb over with me. I would have preferred to run home to our usual breakfast of canned milk and Shredded Wheat, but instead I watched, fascinated, as Mrs. Klevity struggled with lighting the kerosene stove. She bent so close, peering at the burners with the match flaring in her hand that I was sure the frowzy brush of her hair would catch fire, but finally the burner caught instead and she turned her face toward me. "One egg or two?" she asked. "Eggs! Two!" Surprise wrung the exclamation from me. Her hand hesitated