"Decomposing bodies wash up on the beaches," he said. "What little tideland we have stinks with the remains of our dead."
Twisp shook his head to clear it of Flattery, of the man's grating, nasal voice and supercilious manner. This was not the voyage he wished the dust to lead him down. He sought the deeper currents of history to address the problems of Flattery and hunger.
"Humans have enslaved humans for all time," he said to himself. "A new galaxy shouldn't require a new solution."
How had ancient humans broken the bonds of human-inflicted hunger?
With death, a voice in his mind told him. Death freed the afflicted, or death freed them from the afflictor.
Twisp wanted Pandorans to be better than that. Flattery's way was starvation, assassination, pitting cousin against cousin. The footprints Twisp sought in the dust must lead away from Flattery, not after him.
What good does it do for me to become him? We trade a long-armed murderer for a tall one.
By the time he and Mose lay their burdens down before the monks of the hylighter clan, Twisp felt no need for the ritual. He already swam the heady seas of kelp-memories. His mind waged a reluctant struggle against the babbling current.
His people around him babbled as they prepared the dust. Twisp made his mouth beg his leave and he perched atop his favorite outcrop alone. Behind him, other elders walked a line of kneeling Zavatans and spooned little heaps of blue dust onto outstretched tongues. They proceeded with waterdrums and chants, songs from Earth, from Ship, from their centuries of voyaging across Pandora and her seas.
This was where communicants met the dead, here in the aftermath of the blue dust. They traveled backward in time, raveling up memories that had been long forgotten. Some witnessed their parents' lives, or their grandparents'. A few, one or two, branched off into the greater memory of humanity itself, and these were the ones consulted for movement toward a rightness of being.
Twisp let the syncopated waterdrum lull him back to that first day he had felt the effects of the new kelp. Twenty-five years ago he first touched land, a prisoner of GeLaar Gallow. That was the day he and a few friends defeated Gallow's vicious guerrilla movement and ended a civil war. It was the day the hyb tanks splashed down from orbit and brought them Flattery.
It all happened atop a peak that the Pandorans now called Mount Avata, in honor of the kelp's role in their salvation. He had waited there for what he had expected to be his death at the hands of Gallow, the Merman guerrilla leader. The kelp brought him a vision then of a bearded carpenter named Noah. Noah was blind, and mistook Twisp for his grandson, Abimael. He fed the hungry Twisp a sweet cake, and down all the years since then Twisp had remembered the fine taste of that sticky-sweet cake.
"Go to the records and look up the histories," Noah told him.
Twisp had done just that, and it left him in awe of Noah, the kelp and that sunny day on the Mount.
"This new ark of ours is out on dry land once and for all," Noah told him. "We're going to leave the sea."
Twisp had avoided the kelp since then, thinking only that he needed to let the affairs of Pandora go to the Pandorans and the affairs of Twisp to Twisp. Then the Director insinuated himself into the lives of the people. Their lives became Twisp's life, their pain his pain.
Twisp had studied well, read widely in the histories, and like any Islander he brought the hungry into his home. That home grew as the hunger grew into two homes, three homes, a settlement. Differences with the Director drove them to their perch in the high reaches and to secretly make fertile the rocky plains upcoast, away from Flattery's henchmen. Now, in the grip of the spore-dust, Twisp saw the intricacy of what he'd wrought, and the strength.
A small voice came to him as the dust was distributed to others. It was a voice of the world of Noah, one that he had never expected to hear, even within his own mind.
"Fight hunger with food," it told him. "Fight darkness with light, illusion with illumination." It was a tiny voice, nearly a whisper.
"Abimael," he said. "You are here at last. How did you find me?"
"The scent of the sweet cake," Abimael said. "And the strong call of a good heart."
Twisp swept past Abimael in the headlong tumble down the kelpways of his mind. He was out of the fronds, now, out of the peripheral vines and into the mainstem of kelp.
This hylighter must have come from a grandfather stand, he thought. It is a wonder that they still escape Flattery's shears.
"It is not wonder, elder, but illusion."
The voice that Twisp heard was not from inside. He turned slowly, remembering the young Mose. It was then that he noticed Mose's hand on his arm.
"You travel this vine, too, my cousin?"
"I do."
At no time did Mose move his lips. His pupils dilated and constricted wildly, and Twisp knew that his own did likewise. He'd looked into a mirror once after taking the dust, and fallen into places he'd rather not remember.
"I remember the..." Mose began.
Twisp interrupted him, concentrating only on what Mose said of illusion. This interruption, too, was spoken without lips.
"You said, 'illusion,'" Twisp reminded him. "What has the kelp shown you of illusion?"
"It is a language this hylighter spoke when it grew on the vine," Mose said. "It learned to cast illusion like a hologram. Elder, if you follow the vine of this thought to its root, you will know the power of illusion."
Suddenly Twisp's mind cartwheeled deeper into itself.
No, he thought, not deeper into my mind. Deeper into Avata's.
"Yes, this way," a soft voice coaxed.
Twisp looked back on his body as though from a great height, incurious about the shell of himself, then he turned onward into the void.
What is illusion, what is real? he asked.
"What is a map," the voice replied. "Is it illusion, or is it real?"
Both, he thought. It is both real - something that can be held and felt - and illusion, or symbol, or representation. The map is not the territory.
"You, fisherman, if you want to build a boat, what do you do first?"
Draw a plan, he thought.
"And the plan is not the boat, but it is real. It is a real plan. What do you do next?"
Visions of all the boats he had built, or fished on, or coveted floated through his mind.
Nex...
He tried to concentrate, tried to remember where it was that Avata was leading him.
"Don't think about that," the voice chided. "After the plan, what next?"
Build a model, he thought.
"It, too, is not the boat. It is a model. It is illusion, it is symbol, and it is real. If you would get a man to live a certain way, how might you do that?"
Give him a model of behavior?
"Perhaps."
Map out his life?
"Perhaps."
A moment of silence, and Twisp detected the distinct pulse of the sea in the pause. The voice went on.
"But a map, a model - these have a basic limitation. What is this limitation?"
Twisp felt his mind bursting at its seams. Avata was forcefeeding him something, something important. If he could only gras...
Size!
Whether it came to him intuitively, or whether the kelp provided him with the answer, the effect was the same.
It's size! You can never know truly from a model how it will feel because you can't live in it. You can't try it on for size!
He felt an immense sigh inside himself.
"Exactly, friend Twisp. But if you could make the illusion life-size, the lesson, too, would be life-size, would it not?"