Christ Church Cathedral was exactly as he remembered it. If things had gone the way they should have between him and Brooke, they’d have been married here. Privilege of being an old member. Needless to say, things had not gone as they should have.
But Ben wasn’t here to dwell on unhappy memories. He’d come to hear Nick.
The concert began promptly at eight-thirty. For the next hour and a half, the cathedral was filled with the celestial voice of the great organ. From the thunderous put-the-fear-of-God-into-you tones of Johann Sebastian Bach toccatas and fugues to the intriguing dissonances of Olivier Messiaen, Ben enjoyed every note of it. It wiped his mind clear and transported him to another place. He was proud of his friend. Nick was up there doing what he loved, and doing a damn fine job of it. When the final notes of the last piece died away, Ben would have stayed another ninety minutes.
He hung around afterwards and was the last to leave, but didn’t see Nick and supposed he must have been waylaid or had things to attend to. Ben gave up waiting for him, sorry that he was missing this last chance to see his friend. As much as he’d have liked to stay in Oxford another day so they could go out for a few drinks together, he had to leave first thing in the morning for the meeting with Hobart at Bisley ranges, an hour’s drive away. Shame.
On his way back to Old Library, Ben turned his phone on and found there was a text message there from someone who’d tried calling him during the concert.
It was Pam Hobart, Lenny’s wife, informing Ben very apologetically on her husband’s behalf that tomorrow’s rendezvous would have to be cancelled as Lenny had been taken ill with a bout of gastric flu.
And just like that, Ben’s plans were suddenly all in pieces. He texted back to say he was sorry to hear the news, wishing Lenny a speedy recovery and promising to set up another meeting when he was better.
Great. Now he’d have to go home empty-handed; the rifle shooting activities at Le Val would just have to make do without the world’s greatest bipod for the moment. Ben was mildly irritated, but he couldn’t call his trip a complete waste of time. He was pleased to have hooked up with Nick again. Now they’d re-established contact, Ben was determined not to let it lapse.
Maybe he would stick around Oxford, after all. There was no pressing need to dash straight back to France, as Jeff and Tuesday could manage fine without him for just a little longer. He’d pay a visit to the college admin office in the morning to check that he was clear to hold onto the room another day.
His mind made up, Ben ambled back through the cloister and up the groaning bare wooden staircase to his room. The remainder of the wine he’d bought earlier was there waiting for him, seductively calling, ‘Drink me’. He was about to flop in the armchair when he changed his mind, and for old times’ sake grabbed the bottle and went back down to the cloister. He sat on the same cold stone ledge he used to sit on, and in the peace of the night he smoked his last three Gauloises, listened to the bats flapping about the cathedral tower and savoured the rest of the wine.
He thought about lost friends and wished they were there, but he wasn’t lonely. He’d been alone for most of his life, and he relished solitude as much as he liked the darkness.
Sometime in the early hours, he carried the empty bottle upstairs and went to bed.
Chapter 10
Nick Hawthorne treated himself to a taxi home after the concert. He was happy with the evening, and thought he hadn’t performed too badly. The organ had sounded great as it ever had, in all the years he’d known it. The truth was, the only remaining original part of it was the case, dating back to about 1680. The actual guts of the instrument were a modern replacement from the late seventies. He often wondered what the old one would have been like to play.
All in all, a successful night. The only downside was that his hands hurt after the performance. He couldn’t flex his fingers without wincing. Of all the rotten luck, for someone in his line of work to get arthritis of the hands at such an early age. Nick had two consolations. One was that the jazz pianist Oscar Peterson had suffered from the same condition for much of his life. If it didn’t stop Oscar, it wouldn’t stop him.
The second consolation was waiting for Nick back home. On arrival he hurried straight to the spare bedroom, unlocked the door, slipped inside and turned on an infrared side lamp that filled the room with a crimson glow. Out of habit, he locked the door behind him.
The reason Nick Hawthorne kept the spare bedroom locked at all times was because it contained his large collection of plants. When it came to horticulture, he was highly specialised: cannabis sativa was the only species he’d ever attempted to grow. He was pretty adept at it, too — so much so that it had become something of a hobby with him. Only the females produced smokable marijuana; the males were there for pollination purposes only. He’d learned how to nurture his crop with all the right light conditions and nutrients, maintaining the soil pH in perfect balance for optimum growth. The resulting overproduction was far more than he could actually use himself, even if he’d planned on spending all day every day stoned out of his wits, which was far from the case. So many plants filled the room that it looked like a set from a jungle movie. He’d taken out the bed long ago to make room for them all. Aside from the sideboard and tables all covered in pots, the only remaining furniture was the large recliner chair in which he often spent his evenings, bathed in the submarine glow of the infrared lamp and drifting through an extremely pleasant haze as he partook of the evil weed.
Nick’s cannabis use was the only illegality he had ever committed in his life. He felt absolutely no guilt about it whatsoever, as he justified it on purely medical grounds after having tried every noxious pill and potion the doctors could offer him, and all they’d done was cause a whole raft of side-effects without relieving the symptoms of his condition. Deciding the medical profession were essentially no more than quack salesmen for pharmaceutical corporate giants set on poisoning everyone, he’d gone natural and never regretted it. The stuff worked. It was the only medicine that eased the pain in his hands after playing. Plus, it relaxed him, and that was just what he needed after a gig.
The room was kept much warmer than the rest of the apartment. Nick bolted the door shut behind him, then slipped off his coat and dumped it carelessly on the floor in his haste to attend to his needs. He opened the sideboard cupboard where he kept his stash of the crumbled dried leaves, along with his extra-large-size Rizla papers. He spent a few moments carefully rolling up a joint, which made little lances of pain jolt through his fingers, but the discomfort would soon be relieved. Then he went over to the recliner, settled deep into it, relished lighting up the joint with his Dupont Mozart lighter, and began to puff away contentedly.
It wasn’t long before he felt the herb working its magic. The delicious familiar sensations began to wash over him, his muscles drooping, heart rate slackening until he could have sworn it was beating once a minute. A smile curled his lips and he closed his eyes, letting the recliner support him like a big, soft hand gently cupping him in its palm. The echoing remnants of the evening’s performance played in his head. Then they, too, relaxed and softened, gradually slowly faded away to transcendent silence… and Nick Hawthorne was one with the Cosmos.
Some eons later, Nick’s eyes snapped open. At first, disorientated, he thought it was the vividness of his dream that had startled him awake. But the bubble of the dream was popped, and the thumping sound that had woken him was still there.