Any relation to Dean and Deluca? She almost asked, but the fraction of her that was semisober exercised restraint.
Jase looked like something off the cover of GQ magazine. He had to be near her age, perhaps a little older. His collared shirt and tailored slacks remained pressed and neat even at the late hour; his rolled-up sleeves exposed tanned, tight forearms; his chiseled jaw hadn’t even a hint of shadow; and his sandy blond hair was casually coifed to perfection. The guy was tall and debonair as a movie star. A crème brûlée on her doorstep!
Reba’s stance swayed, and she wondered if this was how it felt to swoon. Maybe Jane and Deedee were right and love came at you like a lightning bolt—BAM—hello, love.
“I’m new myself. We must’ve moved in around the same time.” Jase lifted Shrimp with one hand. “This is Jerry Garcia. But I guess you’ve already met.”
She laughed to herself. A Chihuahua named Jerry Garcia?
“Jerry-G for short.” The dog had retrieved the remaining hard crust and gnawed furiously on it.
“Oh! I shouldn’t have, uh, given him that.” She swallowed hard.
Jase held Jerry-G so the dog’s beady eyes were level with his own. “So this is why you’ve been stinking up the place for weeks, eh?” Then he turned to Reba. “You know you owe me.”
“I’m so, so sorry.” She flushed a sweat and smelled the booze in it. “Whatever you want—I mean if he got sick or something because of me.”
“An air freshener.” Jase smiled.
Reba rubbed away the moisture on her upper lip. “You want the plug-in or the spray?”
“A plug-in offer? Fancy.” Jase laughed. “You know what, I take it back. It’s been a hell of a day. You share a glass of whatever you’re drinking and we’ll call it even.” He set Jerry-G back on the ground.
“Umm …” Reba turned to the bottle, embarrassed to admit it was empty. “I’ve got more in the fridge. Do you want to come over?”
She’d momentarily forgotten about her plumbing problem. Catching a glimpse of her swamped kitchen through the glass door, she wondered if she should ask him to bring galoshes. Could that come off sultry? Her head was fuzzy. She really shouldn’t have any more wine, but she owed him. It was neighborly. Plus he made her stomach cartwheel. It was the first happy feeling she’d had in months. She didn’t want to let it go so fast.
Jase ran a hand through his mane. “I would, but I ordered a pizza from North Beach,” he explained. “Have you eaten?”
The can of tuna and the remaining hockey puck biscuit sat beside her chair.
“Kind of … not really,” she said.
“I got the Coit Tower: mushroom, sausage, salami, and pepperoni. Tell me you aren’t a vegan, raw foodie, or one of the thousands of California dieters.”
“Pshaw—not me! No, no, no.” She wagged her finger like a flirty school-marm. “These days I’ll eat anything you put in front of me. No holes bar—holds barred, I mean.” She rubbed her eyes to focus.
“Good, then grab the wine and come over to my place.” Jase opened his condo door and Jerry-G tried to follow. Jase nudged him back with his foot. “You know you aren’t allowed inside, bud.”
The dog gave a weak whine.
Reba briefly wondered what good an air fresher would do outdoors, but then Jase said, “Meet you in five minutes?”
“Cinco minutos,” she echoed while Jerry-G walked in tight circles on the balcony.
When Reba awoke in Jase’s apartment the next morning, he was already gone. It was quarter till noon. Panicked and with a hangover to beat all hangovers, it seemed a colossal task to steady her fingers and dial Leigh on the phone by the bed.
“I’m sick,” she told her, and she wasn’t lying.
After hanging up, she stumbled to Jase’s toilet and vomited spicy bits of salami and cheese. When she went to rinse her mouth, the confetti of russet hairs ringing the sink made her dry heave once more.
“Oh, God,” she swore. “Never again.”
Trembling from head to toe, she gingerly made her way around Jase’s bedroom, a precautionary hand towel under her chin, covering her nakedness.
She wore only her underwear: a fact that partially contributed to her queasiness. Her head pounded like a ticking clock. A countdown to what, she dared not imagine. She found her pants tangled in the sheets falling over the side of Jase’s bed; her shirt on a cushioned chair; a single pink flamingo flip-flop in the middle of the floor. She gathered her things as quickly as possible without disrupting her stomach, slipped into her button-down shirt and decided to make a fast, pantless dash home.
She cracked the bedroom door. Though she knew he was gone, everything about the morning felt like a violation, and she didn’t want to get caught. She’d never experienced the collegiate “walk of shame” and had always raised an eyebrow or two at those who did. Now, over a decade later, she was the one tiptoeing down the hall and praying to escape without notice.
Outside on the balcony, Jerry-G rested his head on his front paws like a daydreaming child. He didn’t notice her behind the reflective glass door. The empty wine bottle sat on the mahogany coffee table beside the pizza box with one last slice of congealed cheese and diced meats. She looked away, imagining the smell of peppermint to keep from gagging. Her flip-flop twin lay haphazardly under the table. She had to retrieve it or risk Jase bringing it over. The last thing she wanted was that conversation, though at this point any conversation would be awkward.
Careful not to attract Jerry-G’s attention with brisk movement, she reached beneath the table, pinched the sandal’s thong between her thumb and forefinger, and did a fluid pirouette back around, nearly knocking into the bookshelf: a Bobby Kennedy biography, a worn copy of How to Win Friends and Influence People, a blue vase with fake cherry blossom twigs, and a photograph of Jase holding two little girls. The picture was too small for its four-by-six frame, cut with scissors to square off the trio.
Reba picked it up and examined closer. A silver band on his left hand. She winced at the girls’ gleeful smiles and fat bows tying back blond locks. They took after him—like child models in a Macy’s catalogue. A husband. A father. Her stomach lurched.
“Oh God,” she whispered and put the frame back on the shelf.
Fleeting memories of the night returned: Jase inviting her over for pizza; grabbing a chilled bottle of pinot grigio; laughing over dewy glasses; the smell of baked bread and cheese; the taste of saucy kisses; his hands on her bare back; the bedsheets twisted round her ankles.
“Oh God, oh God, oh God.” Still clutching her belongings, she sat down on the coffee table, knocking the empty bottle to the jute rug beneath. It rolled off onto the oak floor with a clink. Jerry-G sprang up and furiously yapped at the sliding glass door.
The tabletop stuck to her thighs, sticky with residue. She thought she’d be sick again, so she stuffed her face into the rumpled folds of her pants. They smelled like home, like the springtime laundry detergent Riki liked to use: all with bleach. She missed him so much. Even in the midst of betrayal, she wanted him there; to hold her and say he still loved her despite all her flaws, present and past.
“Riki,” she whispered. “I’m sorry.” Instinctively, she reached for the ring at her chest, but her fingers grazed her collarbone. She’d taken it off the day before and left it in the little bottle of blue jewelry cleaner to soak. No doubt it’d sparkle like a star now. She grasped at the invisible, pressing her fist against her breastbone.
Without warning, the front door swung opened.
“Oh, hey, I thought by now—” Jase checked his watch, then took a big breath. “I guess you didn’t make it to work.” He laughed nervously. “I barely made it myself. I came home during lunch to grab a few things I forgot in the morning rush. What a night, huh?” He cleared his throat and jingled his keys.