His secret tribal name, of course, was something that no white was ever told. Even in his wildest drunken sprees Harry never spoke it. The truth is, he was embarrassed by it. For the family had named him Monster Slayer, a heavy burden to lay across the shoulders of a little boy, or even the strong young man he grew up to be.
On the day that the white laws said he was old enough to take a job, his great-uncle Cloud Eagle told him to leave the reservation and seek his path in the world beyond.
«Why should I leave?» Harry asked his great-uncle.
Cloud Eagle closed his sad eyes for a moment, then said to Harry, «Look around you, nephew.»
Harry looked and saw the tribal lands as he had always seen them, brown desert dotted with mesquite and cactus, steep bluffs worn and furrowed as great-uncle’s face, turquoise-blue sky and blazing Father Sun baking the land. Yet there was no denying that the land was changing. Off in the distance stood the green fields of the new farms and the tiny dark shapes of the square houses the whites were building. And there were gray rain clouds rising over the mountains.
Refugees were pouring into the high desert. The greenhouse warming that gutted the farms of the whites with drought also brought rains that were filling the dry arroyos of the tribal lands and making flowers bloom. The desert would be gone one day, the white scientists predicted, turned green and bountiful. So the whites were moving into the reservation.
«This land has been ours since the time of First Man and First Woman,» Great-uncle said. «But now the whites are swarming in. There is no stopping them. Soon there will be no place of our own left to us. Go. Find your way in the world beyond. It is your destiny.»
Reluctantly, Harry left the reservation and his family.
In the noisy, hurried world of the whites, jobs were easy to find, but good jobs were not. With so many cities flooded by the greenhouse warming, they were frantically building new housing, whole new villages and towns. Harry got a job with a construction firm in Colorado, where the government was putting up huge tracts of developments for the hordes of refugees from the drowned coastal cities. He started as a lowly laborer, but soon enough worked himself up to a pretty handy worker, a jack of all trades.
He drank most of his pay, although he always sent some of it back to his parents.
One cold, blustery morning, when Harry’s head was thundering so badly from a hangover that even the icy wind felt good to him, his supervisor called him over to her heated hut.
«You’re gonna kill yourself with this drinking, Harry,» said the supervisor, not unkindly.
Harry said nothing. He simply looked past the supervisor’s short-bobbed blondish hair to the calendar tacked to the corkboard. The picture showed San Francisco the way it looked before the floods and the rioting.
«You listening to me?» the supervisor asked, more sharply. «This morning you nearly ran the backhoe into the excavation pit, for chrissake.»
«I stopped in plenty time,» Harry mumbled.
The supervisor just shook her head and told Harry to get back to work. Harry knew from the hard expression on the woman’s face that his days with this crew were numbered.
Sure enough, at the shape-up a few mornings later, the super took Harry aside and said, «Harry, you Indians have a reputation for being good at high steel work.»
Harry’s head was thundering again. He drank as much as any two men, but he had enough pride to show up on the job no matter how bad he felt. Can’t slay monsters laying in bed, he would tell himself, forcing himself to his feet and out to work. Besides, no work, no money. And no money, no beer. No whiskey. No girls who danced on your lap or stripped off their clothes to the rhythm of synthesizer music.
Harry knew that it was the Mohawks back East who were once famous for their steelwork on skyscrapers, but he said nothing to the supervisor except, «That’s what I heard, too.»
«Must be in your blood, huh?» said the super, squinting at Harry from under her hard hat.
Harry nodded, even though it made his head feel as if some old medicine man was inside there thumping on a drum.
«I got a cousin who needs high steel workers,» the super told him. «Over in Greater Denver. He’s willing to train newbies. Interested?»
Harry shuffled his feet a little. It was really cold, this early in the morning.
«Well?» the super demanded. «You interested or not?»
«I guess I’m interested,» Harry said. It was better than getting fired outright.
As he left the construction site, with the name and number of the super’s cousin in his cold-numbed fist, he could hear a few of the other workers snickering.
«There goes old Twelvetoes.»
«He’ll need all twelve to hold onto those girders up in the wind.»
They started making bets on how soon Harry would kill himself.
But Harry became a very good high steel worker, scrambling along the steel girders that formed the skeletons of the new high-rise towers. He cut down on the drinking: Alcohol and altitude didn’t mix. He traveled from Greater Denver to Las Vegas and all the way down to Texas, where the Gulf of Mexico had swallowed up Galveston and half of Houston.
When he’d been a little boy, his great-uncle had often told Harry that he was destined to do great things. «What great things?» Harry would ask. «You’ll see,» his great-uncle would say. «You’ll know when you find it.»
«But what is it?» Harry would insist. «What great things will I do?»
Cloud Eagle replied, «Every man has his own right path, Harry. When you find yours, your life will be in harmony and you’ll achieve greatness.»
Before he left his childhood home to find his way in the white world, his great-uncle gave Harry a totem, a tiny black carving of a spider.
«The spider has wisdom,» he told Harry. «Listen to the wisdom of the spider whenever you have a problem.»
Harry shrugged and stuffed the little piece of obsidian into the pocket of his jeans. Then he took the bus that led out of the reservation.
As a grown, hard-fisted man, Harry hardly ever thought of those silly ideas. He didn’t have time to think about them when he was working fifty, sixty, seventy stories high with nothing between him and the ground except thin air that blew in gusts strong enough to knock a man off his feet if he wasn’t careful.
He didn’t think about his great-uncle’s prophecy when he went roaring through the bars and girlie joints on the weekends. He didn’t think about anything when he got so drunk that he fell down and slept like a dead man.
But he kept the spider totem. More than once his pockets had been emptied while he slept in a drunken stupor, but no one ever took the spider from him.
And sometimes the spider did speak to him. It usually happened when he was good and drunk. In a thin, scratchy voice the spider would say, «No more drinking tonight, Harry. You’ve had enough. Sleep all through tomorrow, be ready for work on Monday.»
Most of the time he listened to the totem’s whispers. Sometimes he didn’t, and those times almost always worked out badly. Like the time in New Houston when three Japanese engineers beat the hell out of him in the alley behind the cat house. They didn’t rob him, though. And when Harry came to, in a mess of his own blood and vomit and garbage, the spider was wise enough to refrain from saying, «I told you not to get them angry.»
He bounced from job to job, always learning new tricks of the trades, never finding the true path that would bring him peace and harmony. The days blurred into an unending sameness: crawl out of bed, clamber along the girders of a new high-rise, wait for the end of the week. The nights were a blur, too: beer, booze, women he hardly ever saw more than once.
Now and then Harry wondered where he was going. «There’s more to life than this,» the spider whispered to him in his sleep. «Yeah, sure,» Harry whispered back. «But what? How do I find it?»