I knew that she had been married when she was a teenager and one morning while we sat on the bed, her crosslegged at the head and me sort of side-saddle at the foot, I asked her about it. She ran a finger along a newel post, tracing the pattern carved into it, and said, “It was just… foolishness. We thought it would be romantic to get married.”
“I take it it wasn’t.”
She gave a wan laugh. “No.”
“Would you ever do it again?”
“Marry? I don’t know. Maybe.” She smiled. “Why? Are you asking?”
“Maybe. Tell me what type of man it is you’d marry. Let’s see if I fit the bill.”
She lay down on her side, her legs drawn up, and considered the question.
“Yeah?” I said.
“You’re serious? You want me to do this?”
“Let’s hear it, cher. Your ideal man.”
“Well…” She sat up, fluffed the pillow, and lay down again. “I’d want him to have lots of money, so maybe a financier. Not a banker or anything boring like that. A corporate tiger. Someone who would take over a failing company and reshape it into something vital.”
“Money’s the most important qualification?”
“Not really, but you asked for my ideal and money makes things easier.”
She had on a blouse with a high collar and, as often happened when thinking, she tucked in her chin and nibbled the edge of the collar. I found the habit sexy and, whenever she did it, I wanted to touch her face.
“He’d be a philanthropist,” she said. “And not just as a tax dodge. He’d have to be devoted to it. And he’d have an introspective side. I’d want him to know himself. To understand himself.”
“A corporate raider with soul. Isn’t that a contradiction?”
“It can happen. Wallace Stevens was an insurance executive and a great poet.”
“I like to think of myself as an entrepreneur when I’m feeling spunky. That’s like a financier, but I’m getting that we’re talking about two different animals.”
“You’ve got possibilities,” she said, and smiled. “You just need molding.”
“How about in the looks department?” I asked. “Something George Clooney-ish? Or Brad Pitt?”
She wrinkled her nose. “Movie stars are too short. Looks aren’t important, anyway.”
“Women all say that, but it’s bullshit.”
“It’s true! Women have the same kind of daydreams as men, but when it comes to choosing a man they often base their choices on different criteria.”
“Like money.”
“No! Like how someone makes you feel. It’s not quantifiable. I would never have thought I could…”
She broke off, thinning her lips.
“You would never have thought what?”
“This is silly,” she said. “I should check on Josey.”
“You never would have thought you could be attracted to someone you met at gunpoint?”
She sat up, swung her legs off the side of the bed, but said nothing.
“You might as well confess, cher,” I said. “You won’t be giving away any secrets.”
She stiffened, as if she were going to lash out at me, but the tension drained from her body. “It’s the Stockholm Syndrome,” she said.
“You reckon that’s it? We are for sure stuck on this damn island, and there’s not a whole lot to distract us. And technically I am an accomplice in your kidnapping. But there’s more to it than that.”
“You’re probably right,” she said, coming to her feet. “If we’d met on our own in New Orleans, I’d probably have been attracted to you. But that’s neither here nor there.”
“Why not? Because Pellerin’s your priority?”
She shrugged as if to say yes.
“Duty won’t keep you warm at night,” I said.
“Keeping warm has never been my biggest goal in life,” she said with brittle precision. “But should that change, I’ll be sure to let you know.”
I didn’t go outside much. The guards made me nervous. When I did it was usually to have a swim, but some nights I went along the shore through a fringe of shrubs and palms to the west end, the crosspiece of the T, a place from which, if the weather were clear, I could make out the lights on a nearby Key. And on one such night, emerging from dense undergrowth onto a shingle of crushed coral and sand, littered with vegetable debris, I spotted a shadow kneeling on the beach. Wavelets slapping against the shingle covered the sound of my approach and I saw it was Pellerin. I hadn’t realized he could walk this far without help. He was holding a hand out above the water, flexing his fingers. It looked as if he were about to snatch something up. Beneath his hand the water seethed and little waves rolled away from shore. It was such a mediocre miracle, I scarcely registered it at first; but then I realized that he must be causing this phenomenon, generating a force that pushed the waves in a contrary direction. He turned his head toward me. The green flickers in his eyes stood out sharply in the darkness. A tendril of fear uncoiled in my backbrain.
“What’s shaking, Small Time?” he said.
“Don’t call me that. I’m sick of it.”
He made a soft, coughing noise that I took for a laugh. “Want me to do like Jocundra and call you Jackie boy?”
“Just don’t call me Small Time.”
“But it suits you so well.”
“You been through a rough time,” I said. “And I can appreciate that. But that doesn’t give you the right to act like an asshole.”
“It doesn’t? I could have sworn it did.”
He came to his feet, lost his balance. I caught him by the shirtfront and hauled him erect. He tried to break my grip, but he was still weak and I held firm. He had a soapy smell. I wondered if Jo had to help him bathe.
“Let me go,” he said.
“I don’t believe I will.”
“Give me another month or two, I promise I’ll tear you down to your shoelaces, boy.”
“I’ll be waiting.”
“Let me go!”
He pawed at my hand and I let loose of the shirt. That electric green danced in his eyes again.
“‘Pears you growing a pair. Love must be making you bold.” He hitched up his belt. “Yeah, I been catching you looking at Jocundra. She looks at you the same. If I wasn’t around, the two of you be going at it. But I am around.”
“Maybe not for too long,” I said.
“I might surprise you, boy. But whatever. As long as I’m here, Jocundra not going to stray. She’s just dying for me to tell her about every new thing I see. She finds it fascinating.”
“What do you see?”
“I’m not telling you, pal. I’m saving all of my secrets for sweet cheeks.” He took a faltering step toward the house. “How’s about we make a little side bet? Bet I nail her before you.”
I gave him a shove and he went over onto his back, crying out in shock. A guard stepped from the shadow of the trees—I told him to be cool, I had things covered. I reached down and seized hold of Pellerin’s arm, but he wrenched free.