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“How did you know that Tuck had sweet tea?” she asked.

“The same way I knew you had the keys,” he answered as he reached into the cupboard and pulled out a pair of jelly jars.

“What are you talking about?”

Dawson filled the jars. “Tuck knew we’d both end up here eventually, and he remembered that I like sweet tea. So he made sure he had some waiting in the refrigerator.”

Of course he did. Just as he’d done with the attorney. But before she could dwell on it, Dawson offered her the tea, bringing her back to the present. Their fingers brushed as she took it.

Dawson held up his tea. “To Tuck,” he said.

Amanda clinked her glass with his, and all of it — standing close to Dawson, the tug of the past, the way she’d felt when he’d held her, the two of them alone in the house — was almost more than she could handle. A little voice inside her whispered that she needed to be careful, that nothing good could come of this, and reminded her that she had a husband and children. But that only made things more confusing.

“So, twenty years, huh?” Dawson finally asked.

He was asking about her marriage, but in her distracted state it took her a moment to grasp. “Almost. How about you? Were you ever married?”

“I don’t think it was in the cards.”

She eyed him over the rim of her glass. “Still playing the field, huh?”

“I keep pretty much to myself these days.”

She leaned against the counter, unsure what to read into his response. “Where do you live now?”

“Louisiana. In a parish just outside New Orleans.”

“Do you like it?”

“It’s okay. I’d forgotten until I came back here how much it looks like home. There are more pines here and more Spanish moss there, but other than that I’m not real sure I could tell the difference.”

“Except for the alligators.”

“Yeah. Except for that.” He offered a faint smile. “Your turn. Where’s home these days?”

“Durham. I stayed there after I got married.”

“And you come back a few times a year to see your mom?”

She nodded. “When my dad was alive, they used to visit us because of the kids. But after my dad died, it got harder. My mom never liked to drive, so now I have to come here.” She took a sip before nodding toward the table. “Do you mind if I sit? My feet are killing me.”

“Feel free. I’ll stand for a bit, though. I’ve been stuck on an airplane all day.”

She picked up her glass and started toward the table, feeling his eyes on her.

“What do you do in Louisiana?” she asked, sliding into her seat.

“I’m a derrick hand on an oil rig, which basically means that I assist the driller. I help guide the drill pipe in and out of the elevator, I make sure all the connections are proper, I keep on the pumps to make sure they’re running right. I know that probably doesn’t make much sense since you’ve probably never been on a rig, but it’s kind of hard to explain without actually showing you.”

“That’s a long way from fixing cars.”

“It’s less different than you think. Essentially, I work with engines and machines. And I still work with cars, too, in my spare time anyway. The fastback runs like new.”

“You still have it?”

He grinned. “I like that car.”

“No,” she challenged, “you love that car. I used to have to drag you away from it whenever I came by. And half the time, I didn’t succeed. I’m surprised you don’t carry a picture of it in your wallet.”

“I do.”

“Really?”

“I was kidding.”

She laughed, the same free-spirited laugh from long ago. “How long have you been working on rigs?”

“Fourteen years. I started as a roustabout, worked up to roughneck, and here I am, a derrick hand.”

“Roustabout to roughneck to derrick hand?”

“What can I say? We speak our own language out there on the ocean.” He absently picked at one of the grooves etched into the ancient countertop. “And what about you? Do you work? You used to talk about becoming a teacher.”

She took a sip, nodding. “I taught for a year, but then I had Jared, my oldest son, and I wanted to stay at home with him. After that Lynn was born and then… we had a few years when a lot happened, including my dad passing away, a really tough time.” She paused, conscious of how much she was leaving out, knowing it wasn’t the time or place to talk about Bea. She straightened up, keeping her voice steady. “A couple of years after that, Annette came along, and by then there was no reason for me to go back to work. But I’ve spent a lot of time over the past ten years volunteering at Duke University Hospital. I also do some fund-raising luncheons for them. It’s hard sometimes, but it makes me feel like I’m making a little bit of difference.”

“How old are your kids?”

She ticked them off on her fingers. “Jared turns nineteen in August and just finished his first year of college, Lynn is seventeen and starting her senior year. Annette, my nine-year-old, just finished third grade. She’s a sweet and happy-go-lucky little girl. Jared and Lynn, on the other hand, are at the age when they think they know everything and I, of course, know absolutely nothing.”

“In other words, you’re saying they’re kind of like we were?”

She thought about it, her expression almost wistful. “Maybe.”

Dawson fell silent, staring out the window, and she followed his gaze. The creek had turned the color of iron and the slow-moving water reflected the darkening skies. The old oak tree near the bank hadn’t changed much since the last time he’d been here, but the dock had rotted away, leaving only the pilings.

“A lot of memories there, Amanda,” he observed, his voice soft.

Maybe it was the way he sounded when he said it, but she felt something click inside at his words, like a key turning in a distant lock.

“I know,” she said at last. She paused, wrapping her arms around herself, and for a while the hum of the refrigerator was the only sound in the kitchen. The overhead light cast a yellowish glow on the walls, projecting their profiles in abstract shadows. “How long are you planning on staying?” she finally asked.

“I have a flight out early Monday morning. You?”

“Not long. I told Frank I’d be back on Sunday. If my mom had her way, though, she would rather I had stayed in Durham all weekend. She told me it wasn’t a good idea to come to the funeral.”

“Why?”

“Because she didn’t like Tuck.”

“You mean she didn’t like me.”

“She never knew you,” Amanda said. “She never gave you a chance. She always had ideas about the way I was supposed to live my life. What I might want never seemed to matter. Even though I’m an adult, she still tries to tell me what to do. She hasn’t changed a bit.” She rubbed at the moisture on the jelly jar. “A few years ago, I made the mistake of telling her that I’d dropped in on Tuck, and you would have thought that I’d just committed a crime. She kept haranguing me, asking why I visited him, wanting to know what we talked about, all the while scolding me like I was still a child. So after that, I just stopped telling her about it. Instead, I’d tell her I was going shopping, or that I wanted to have lunch with my friend Martha at the beach. Martha and I were roommates in college and she lives in Salter Path, but even though we talk, I haven’t actually seen her in years. I don’t want to deal with my mother’s prying questions, so I just lie to her.”

Dawson swirled his tea, thinking about what she’d said, watching as the drink finally went still again. “As I was driving here, I couldn’t help thinking about my father, and how for him it was always about control. I’m not saying your mom is anything like him, but maybe it’s just her way of trying to keep you from making a mistake.”