Since this was boring adult stuff, Peter wandered about the room and danced up and down the velvet curtains, from the floor to the curtain rungs and back again. The Queen glanced up from an intricate plan of weaponry.
“Exemplary work as always, Mr.Pan.” The Queen glanced up from the diagrams Peter had brought her.
“Yes, I am exemplary,” Peter crowed.
He went pinwheeling across the solemn crenellated dome of the Queen’s bedroom ceiling. The Queen cleared her throat to indicate that aerodynamic acrobatics in the presence of royalty were frowned on.
Peter plummeted neatly onto the hearthrug and bowed again, as if he took the royal throat-clearing for applause.
“You must know,” said the Queen, “I would be happier with a more traditional means of payment for your services.”
Peter tilted his head to one side. There was a cold watchful light in his eyes now, like the glint children imagine they see after bedtime, when the night-light has been turned off and shadows and shivers start creeping into bed with them.
Peter has been peeping through windows for a very long time.
“Do you mean ‘money’?” he asked, pronouncing the word as if it was in a foreign language. “What use do I have for money, grown-up? If I want something on Neverland, I kill for it. If I want something here, I steal it. There is only one thing I want that you can give me. I want my mother!”
The Queen inclined her head again, this time less graciously.
She had made many terrible decisions in her time. Her Majesty always, always pays her debts.
“There she is.”
The eyes of the Queen, Peter, and Night Shadow aka Dawson the butler, all turned to the sack at Dawson’s feet. We can see now that there is a slight shifting of the rough material, as if something is breathing beneath.
Peter looked uncertain. “They never used to come in sacks,” he said. “They used to be happy to see me.”
The Queen, who had had a lot of ruling to do that day, and for the last sixty years, lost patience. She turned away from the boy and the moving sack, back to her own plans.
“As I am certain you’ve noticed, Mr. Pan,” she said. “Times have changed.”
“Second to the right, and straight on till morning,” are not real directions, though Peter thought they were. The truth was that by now the path to Neverland knew Peter by heart and was always drawing him home, like a compass point to true north or a ghost to the place he was murdered.
Peter flew with an easy grace, even with the sack in his hand.
Sometimes he tossed it about with the fairies, just for sport, but Peter thought he was being most responsible. He made clear that any fairy who dropped the sack would have to answer to Ninja Star.
It was a piece of great good luck that the bag only started squirming and making loud, distressed sounds as they were flying over Neverland. The sack had been quiet so long, Peter had forgotten what was in it, and was startled enough that he dropped it.
Ninja Star and the team flew very quickly to catch it, but only succeeded in slowing it down, so the sack fairly tumbled to the stones and bones below.
Ashley Horowitz, daughter of Karen, daughter of Tracy, daughter of Margaret, daughter of Jane, daughter of Wendy, came out of the sack rolling, and pepper-sprayed Peter in the face.
For a moment she thought she must have made a terrible mistake. There she was on the island of nightmares—even worse than Grandma had described it—but the boy before her could not possibly be Pan the destroyer, Pan the thief in the night. He was sitting on the blackened shore and weeping in bewildered pain, as if he was terribly young and crying for the very first time.
“Boy,” began Ashley. “Why are you—”
Then she remembered: that was how he got you. She took a step back and lifted her pepper spray in steady hands.
“Stay back,” she said. “Or I’ll make you cry harder.”
When he rose to his feet, she knew it was him. Pan. He was not exactly as her grandmother had described him either: he was worse. He was as beautiful as her grandmother had said—as fascinating as a snake’s golden eyes to a bird—but he was that thing he never was, never could be. He was… older.
She was older, too. She was past the age when he was meant to be exactly her size, and now here he was looking down at her.
The bones of his wild, lovely face had stronger, sterner angles than in the pictures. His body had more muscle and was more easily weighted to the earth. He was not a little boy anymore.
It was horrible to see those curling, crowing lips part, to show he still had all his baby teeth.
“Pan,” said Ashley.
Peter smiled more widely, his tiny teeth like little pearls gleaming in his changing face. “Mother.”
He advanced and Ashley backed up, wielding her pepper spray like a weapon.
“My name is Ashley. And I’m not your mother!”
“There was a bargain made,” said Peter.
Quick as a flash, he drew and thrust. At the touch of his blade, the pepper spray flew out of Ashley’s grasp and into the dark seas beyond.
“My great-grandmother,” said Ashley, starting a little uncertainly and then gaining strength as she spoke. Margaret had been nothing but old family history to her, a story in a book. But so had he. “Margaret. She went mad.”
Peter tilted his head, his eyes blank. “Margaret?”
“She used to scream your name,” said Ashley. “My grandma used to hear her through the walls screaming for you. And you don’t remember her?”
“Well, if you’re going to get all sniffy about it, I’ll say that I’m sorry,” said Peter, with the air of one making a great concession.
“Tracy,” said Ashley. “Margaret. Jane. Wendy!”
Peter drew in his lip a little, startled and hurt, as if it was the very first time he had ever been hurt, although the tears from his last bout of misery were still wet on his cheeks.
“Wendy.”
It made sense that he would remember her. She had been the first.
Ashley drew in a deep breath.
“I don’t want to be here,” she said flatly. “I demand to go home.”
She turned and walked away into the forests of Neverland.
Neverland was both like and unlike her grandmother’s stories, and the pictures in the book. It was unmistakably the same place, but it was changed like Peter himself: the trees naked as skeletons, no ships on the horizon. There was a quality about the silent darkness that Ashley recognized from being a little girl, too scared even to get out of bed and reach the light switch. The whole island was like a huge bedroom for a scared child, in which morning would not come again.
The silence was broken by some terrible rustles and slithers.
Ashley turned fast at the sound and found Peter gliding beside her, a few feet off the ground.
“Those are the wild beasts,” he said. “Don’t go too far away from me. They’ll kill you if they can. They’re starving.”
“Where are the—the Native Americans?” Ashley asked.
Peter gave her a blank look.
“Tiger Lily, I mean, and the others,” Ashley said, summoning up the name from the book.
“Most of them died,” Peter replied. “The others went away.”
Her grandmother had made sure she always had pepper spray under her pillow. Ashley wished now that Grandma Tracy had told her to always dress for an abduction. Bare feet and glittery pink pajamas were not exactly ideal for a trek through Neverland.
She kept walking, though, until they came to Marooners’ Rock. The rock was just the same. The lagoon stretched around it, black and viscous, like tar with ghosts moving in it.
It took Ashley a moment to realize that the gray shapes, their ragged fins dragging the surface, their hair like clogged seaweed, were the mermaids who used to toss bubbles to each other and sing. Peter flew over to hover above the lagoon like a huge dragonfly.