I thought of all that depended on our getting us a Shadow to examine. And I thought about my job and how it would bust my heart if the inspector should come out and fire us and send in another crew. There just weren’t planets lying around every day in the week to be engineered. I might never get another chance.
So I put out my thumb and shoved knob 39 to its final notch and let Benny have the peeper.
And even as I gave it to him, I wondered if it would really work or if I’d just had a pipe-dream. It might not work, I thought, for it was a human mechanism, designed for human use, keyed to the human nervous system and response.
Then I knew that I was wrong, that the peeper did not operate by virtue of its machinery alone, but by the reaction of the brain and the body of its user – that it was no more than a trigger mechanism to set loose the greatness and the beauty and the horror that lay within the user’s brain. And horror, while it might take a different shape and form, appear in a different guise, was horror for a Shadow as well as for a human.
Benny lifted the peeper to that great single eye of his and thrust his head forward to fit into the viewer. Then I saw his body jerk and stiffen and I caught him as he toppled and eased him to the ground.
I stood there above him and felt the triumph and the pride – and perhaps a little pity, too – that it should be necessary to do a thing like this to a guy like Benny. To play a trick like this on my Shadow who had sat, just moments ago, with his shoulder touching mine.
I knelt down and turned him over. He didn’t seem so heavy and I was glad of that, because I’d have to get him on the roller and then make a dash for camp, going as fast as I could gun the roller, because there was no telling how long Benny would stay knocked out.
I picked up the peeper and stuck it back into the roller’s bag, then hunted for some rope or wire to tie Benny on so he would not fall off.
I don’t know if I heard a noise or not. I’m half inclined to think that there wasn’t any noise – that it was some sort of built-in alarm system that made me turn around.
Benny was sagging in upon himself and I had a moment of wild panic, thinking that he might be dead, that the shock of the horror that leaped out of the peeper at him had been too much for him to stand.
And I remembered what Mack had said: “Never kill a thing until you have figured out just how efficiently it may up and kill you back.”
If Benny was dead, then we might have all hell exploding in our laps.
If he was dead, though, he sure was acting funny. He was sinking in and splitting at a lot of different places, and he turning to what looked like dust, but wasn’t dust, and there wasn’t any Benny. There was just the harness with the bag and the jewel and then there wasn’t any bag, but a handful of trinkets lying on the ground where the bag had been.
And there was something else.
There still was Benny’s eye. The eye was a part of a cone that been in Benny’s head.
I recalled how the survey party had seen other cones like that. But had not been able to get close to them.
I was too scared to move. I stood and looked and there were a lot of goose pimples rising on my hide.
For Benny was no alien. Benny was no more than the proxy of some other alien that we had never seen and could not even guess at.
All sorts of conjectures went tumbling through my brain, but they were no more than panic-pictures, and they flipped off and on so fast, I couldn’t settle on any one of them.
But one thing was clear as day – the cleverness of this alien for which the Shadows were the front.
Too clever to confront us with anything that was more remotely human in its shape – a thing for which we could feel pity or contempt or perhaps exasperation, but something that would never rouse a fear within us. A pitiful little figure that was a caricature of our shape and one that so stupid that it couldn’t even talk. And one that was sufficiently alien to keep us puzzled and stump us on so many basic points that we would, at last, give up in sheer bewilderment any attempts that we might make to get it puzzled out.
I threw a quick glance over my shoulder and kept my shoulders hunched, and if anything had moved, I’d have run like a frightened rabbit. But nothing moved. Nothing even rustled. There was nothing to be afraid of except the thoughts within my head.
But I felt a frantic urge to get out of there and I went down on my hands and knees and began to gather what was left of Benny.
I scooped up the pile of trinkets and the jewel and dumped them in the bag along with the peeper. Then I went back and picked up the cone, with the one eye looking at me, but I could see that the eye was dead. The cone was slippery and it didn’t feel like metal, but it was heavy and hard to get a good grip on and I had quite a time with it. But I finally got it in the bag and started out for camp.
I went like a bat winging out of hell. Fear was roosting on one shoulder and I kept that roller wheeling.
I swung into camp and headed for Mack’s tent, but before I got there, I found what looked like the entire project crew working at the craziest sort of contraption one would ever hope to see. It was a mass of gears and cams and wheels and chains and whatnot, and it sprawled over what, back home, would have been a good-sized lot, and there was no reason I could figure for building anything like that.
I saw Thorne standing off to one side and superintending the work, yelling first at this one and then at someone else, and I could see that he was enjoying himself. Thorne was that kind of bossy jerk.
I stopped the roller beside him and balanced it with one leg.
“What’s going on?” I asked him.
“We’re giving them something to get doped out,” he said. “We’re going to drive them crazy.”
“Them? You mean the Shadows?”
“They want information, don’t they?” Thorne demanded. “They’ve been underfoot day and night, always in the way, so now we give them something to keep them occupied.”
“But what does it do?”
Thorne spat derisively. “Nothing. That’s the beauty of it.”
“Well,” I said, “I suppose you know what you’re doing. Does Mack know what’s going on?”
“Mack and Carr and Knight are the big brains that thought it up,” said Thorne. “I’m just carrying out orders.”
I went on to Mack’s tent and parked the roller there and I knew that Mack was inside, for I heard a lot of arguing.
I took the carrier bag and marched inside the tent and pushed my way up to the table and, up-ending the sack, emptied the whole thing on the tabletop.
And I plumb forgot about the peeper being in there with all the other stuff.
There was nothing I could do about it. The peeper lay naked on the table and there was a terrible silence and I could see that in another second Mack would blow his jets.
He sucked in his breath to roar, but I beat him to it.
“Shut up, Mack!” I snapped. “I don’t want to hear a word from you!”
I must have caught him by surprise, for he let his breath out slowly, looking at me funny while he did it, and Carr and Knight were just slightly frozen in position. The tent was deathly quiet.
“That was Benny,” I said, motioning at the tabletop. “That is all that’s left of him. A look in the peeper did it.”
Carr came a bit unfrozen. “But the peeper! We looked everywhere –”
“I knew Greasy had it and I stole it when I got a hunch. Remember, we were talking about how to catch a Shadow –”
“I’m going to bring charges against you!” howled Mack. “I’m going to make an example out of you! I’m going to –”
“You’re going to shut up,” I said at him. “You’re going to stay quiet and listen or I’ll heave you out of here tin cup over appetite.”