Blake picks up his knife and fork. ‘I’m kind of waiting for your reply.’
Lana sighs. ‘No, I don’t, but we are not talking about badly educated teenagers from troubled homes who think that is the best way out for them. The teenage pregnancies are a result of a system that has marginalized and refused a good education to the poorest sections of society. They are not parasites. They are desperate people who have been trained to think that is the best they can get out of life. But your lot….’
‘We actually keep the country going, creating jobs—’
‘Sure, in China and other Third World countries. Slave labor jobs. Besides, you’re a banker. You don’t create anything.’
He shifts in his chair. ‘Hang on, let me get this right; my family is parasitical for not paying astronomical taxes, and your lot are not parasites even though you don’t work a day in your lives and live entirely on government handouts.’
‘Have you ever thought that people can be poor by design. When a child is born on the estate, he is already doomed to repeat his father’s life. He will bear that same angry, helpless attitude of his father and never amount to much. In school he will be taught only to be a good worker. And if he has even a bone of rebellion in him he will refuse and become a scrounger. My mother was educated in a different country and she was from the middle class so she taught me middle class values. Work, earn money, pay your own way.’
‘So why do you work only part-time?’
‘I do that because my mother is often sick and I am her primary carer.’
‘What’s wrong with your mother?’
‘Cancer.’
‘Oh.’
‘She will make it.’
He nods slowly. ‘Are you a Muslim?’
Lana sits back and watches Blake while their plates are cleared away. The hard planes of his face have been softened.
‘No, my mother is a devout Christian. I am an agnostic. So far no God has impressed me as benign and truly interested in the welfare of humans.’
‘Main course,’ announces the waiter, and plates are lowered onto the table.
Lana’s salmon is encased in a tiny square parcel made of liquorice gel, and looks almost too beautiful to eat. She lifts the fish knife and cuts it open. Inside, the fish is perfectly cooked. She slips a tiny morsel pass her lips, and is surprised by how delicate and silky it is on her tongue. ‘I have a very big favor to ask you.’ she says.
He raises his eyebrows.
‘It is very important to me.’
‘Sure,’ he says.
‘You agreed without knowing what I am going to ask?’
‘When people say I need a very big favor it’s bound to be a small thing. It is when they ask for a small favor that I start worrying. So, what is it you want?’
‘My mother has invited you around to dinner. It’s just the once. You will have to pretend to be my boyfriend,’ she says quickly.
‘What sort of thing will I have to do to convince her that I am your boyfriend?’
‘Just the usual. Hold hands, a quick kiss. Nothing too heavy.’
He smiles. ‘I think I can manage that.’
‘Thank you. I owe you one. Maybe one day you will need a favor and I can do something to help.’
‘I’ll remember that,’ he says, and falls silent. But the silence is not uncomfortable and they finish their main meal without further conversation.
He orders the macerated strawberries for dessert.
‘I’ll have the same,’ she says.
He grins. ‘I thought you might go for the Like A Kid In A Sweetshop.
‘I nearly did,’ she says, ‘Do you know what’s in it?’
‘Just a selection, I guess. Want to change your mind?’
‘No.’
The dessert is so delicious Lana wishes her mother is with her. After the handmade chocolates the bill arrives. It is over four and a half thousand pounds. Lana looks at Blake in shock. That is more than her mother spends on food for a whole year. It must be good to be so rich. He raises his eyes and returns her look. His eyes are sultry and slumberous. And suddenly he seems devastatingly, impossibly handsome, but so aloof and unreachable that it is almost as if she has her nose pressed against a glass window and is looking in at something she can never have.
She feels like the match girl from Hans Christian Andersen’s fairy tale. She has only a limited number of matchsticks that she must keep lighting to see the beautiful sight in front of her. When the matches run out she will die.
Sixteen
He opens the door of the apartment and waits for her to enter. She walks in and stands with her back to him, waiting. She hears the thick click of the door, then he is standing behind her. His breath is on her neck.
‘Mmmm… You smell so good,’ he whispers.
She leans her head back and finds his chest. She hears the sound of a zip and her dress is pooling around her shoes. He unhooks her bra and frees her breasts. Suddenly, he has scooped her into his arms and is carrying her down the long corridor. There is something so caveman and primal about being carried to be ravished that she buries her head in his wide chest so he will not see how unbearably excited and flushed she is. She has been claimed. Now she will be possessed and owned. He kicks open the bedroom door and lays her down on the bed.
Then he brings his mouth down on hers and kisses her ferociously. The feel and heat of his mouth is a shock to her system. Every coherent thought flees. From his mouth he is transferring hunger into her very cells. Every fiber of her being wants him inside her again. He takes his mouth away. She comes up heaving for air.
His tongue moves across her collarbone and she whimpers. That small mewl of surrender sends him into overdrive. He has been with hundreds of women, some as beautiful, and others sexually more accomplished, but none of them has done this to him.
He pushes his knee between her legs and forces them open. He licks the soft swell of her breast and circling his lips around one taut peak, sucks it softly. His large hand skims the soft flesh between her legs. The small bit of lace between them is no match for him. The sound of tearing is loud in her ears.
Her eyes fly open. They are glazed, the pupils dilated.
She registers his eyes as smoldering and intently watching, her face, her mouth, her reactions. His roving fingers encounter thick juices and they make him growl. She stares at him, not understanding it to be the guttural rumble of possession and ownership.
She gasps, but does not look away when his fingers first one then two thrust into the wet crease. The thrusting is slow and languorous. Delicious. She raises her body to reach for his mouth. With a groan his hot hungry mouth swoops down to meet hers. As the kiss grows deeper she becomes lost in the foreign sensations inside her. The blood rushes through her veins. The action between her legs is picking up pace, becoming more urgent.
Suddenly he takes his fingers out.
‘Don’t,’ she breathes. Her voice is ragged, an unfamiliar mess.
She runs her fingers down his hard stomach towards the zip of his pants. Her hands are trembling, useless things. He pushes them away gently, and does the job himself.
Naked he is magnificent. A god. Muscles rippling.
He positions himself over her and very slowly sinks his hard flesh into her. He is stretching her, filling her, in a slow, hot movement of pain and shock and…strangely, pleasure…as her sex struggles to accommodate the unfamiliar invasion. His eyes, nearly black with passion, never leave her. Watching. Watching. The widening of her eyes, the way her lips part, the shudders that shake her body.
It is sweet torture.
She arches with satisfaction and moans. Her soft moan seems to incite him further and he increases the pace of his thrusts. He forces himself deeper and deeper inside her, filling her right to her core.
‘Does it still hurt?’ he asks.