She sits back on her heels and the hot tears come. She covers her mouth to muffle her sobs. She has made a fool of herself. What will she do? What will she do? Numbly she hears the girls in the next cubicle giggling about what all girls giggle and chat about—men. Then her ears pick up the sounds of them snorting lines of cocaine. When they leave she flushes the toilet and opens the door. She notices what she had not before. How grand the furnishings are.
There is a very large ornate, gilded mirror stretched across the wall. The other toilet seems to be in use and a thin woman with immaculate hair is perched on one of the gold and cream chairs waiting her turn. There is an air of superior calm about her. Her eyes meet Lana’s briefly but curiously, before she enters the cubicle that Lana has vacated.
Lana goes to stand in front of the mirror. She stares at herself. Her face is deathly pale and the cheap mascara she purchased from the market is smudged and running; her lips look as if she has been stung by bees, and her eyes are red from crying. This is what Blake Barrington saw. She looks like she feels. Soiled.
The woman in the other cubicle comes out. She looks identical to the woman who had perched herself on the chair. With a quick, surprised glance at Lana, she goes to stand at the other end of the mirror. She pats her immaculate hair, brushes away imaginary specks of dust from her soft pink dress suit and leaves. Lana turns on the tap and rinses her mouth with plenty of water. Scooping water in her palms she washes her face with hand soap and scrubs it dry with a paper towel. Without her make-up she feels defenseless.
There is a sick pervert out there who wants to rape her and leave her torn and bleeding in alleyways. You could walk away. Say fuck you. She couldn’t. It was so much money. And he knew it. She needed that money. She considers taking the money and not delivering. What could he do? It’s not like he could go to the police or she would be running a refund desk. Then she remembers his eyes. How cold and dangerous. No. Anyway, she has always said, she’d rather be the one who bought the Brooklyn Bridge than the one who sold it.
Again her thoughts turn to the Barrington man. Why is he still in her mind? Probably the way he had looked at her. No one. Absolutely no one has looked at her like that.
She indulges in a moment of fantasy. Perhaps he really wants her. He is filthy rich so he will simply give her the money she needs. Gallantly, he will then fall in love with her and they will marry. As she is standing inside her dreams another woman opens the door and enters. It is the blonde in the red dress. She is tall and severely beautiful with an aristocratic nose and bottle-green eyes. She has the same superior air of all the people at this party. The same air that Blake Barrington has claimed for himself.
Lana cannot help but watch her through the mirror. Their eyes meet for a second, then the blonde’s slide away, but in that second there is pure speculation. Everybody knows she does not belong.
Lana looks at her reflection. Who is she kidding? Blake Barrington is the biggest cheese on the board. Simply the way Rupert behaved in his presence told her that. He was probably looking at her because she is dressed like a hooker and he thinks she is one. The only real thing she has is her mother. And there is nothing she will not do for her. She thinks of her father. How easily he had walked away when they had needed him most. How weak his love for them had been. Hers is different. She will not walk away even if she has to walk upon a path of thorns. Bleed she will. And that will be the test of her love.
She will not let herself be distracted by anything. She will survive any amount of sexual humiliation. Five encounters? Her champagne-addled brain says, that’s fucking nothing. The beautiful blonde has turned away from the mirror and entered one of the cubicles. Blake Barrington is welcome to her.
Lana straightens her spine. I can do this, she says to her reflection. I love you, Mum, better than Dad did, much, much better.
She practices the smile she will bestow on Rupert in the mirror, and despite the fear in her belly tells herself that when she is old and wrinkled she will be glad she made this sacrifice. The price will always be worth it. Then there is nothing left to do in that opulent loo, but to walk out of it, and face her decision, and the lengths she will go to for her mother.
She opens the door and Blake Barrington is lounging casually against the wall of the corridor. He straightens when he sees her.
Four
Perhaps he is annoyed that he invited her and Rupert to this fine party, and they have showed him up and behaved in a disgusting manner. She does not want another confrontation. She has enough on her plate. Not him, as well. She didn’t ask to be invited. She would have ignored him and walked right past had he not raised a detaining finger. She looks defiantly up at him.
His eyes scan her face, now devoid of all make-up. ‘Are you all right?’
Up this close his skin is sunshine and his voice pure velvet. She folds her arms around her body and resists the instinct to take a step back, such is the immensity of animal power he exudes. It is magnetic and irresistible. He reminds her of a panther. Prowling and ready to pounce, full of suppressed restless energy. Muscular, strong.
Thank god, for the shoes. They lift her eyes to the level of his straight, stern mouth. She raises her chin, meets him square in the eye, and in her best secretarial voice, says. ‘Yes, I’m fine. Thank you.’
‘I need to talk to you.’
Oh God, he is going to lecture her. ‘So talk.’
‘Privately—through here, please.’ He gestures with his hand. He is careful not to touch her. The corridor leads to a door. He goes ahead of her and holds it open. She hesitates for a moment, then thinks, fuck it, and walks through. The room appears to be some sort of library with walls full of shelves of leather-bound books. The room smells of new leather. She hears him close the door and turns around.
He is leaning against the door and simply watching her.
‘Well?’ she prompted.
‘Are you over eighteen?’
‘Yes.’
‘Are you sure?’
‘Of course I am,’ she snaps. ‘Not that it is any of your business.’
‘What will Lothian get for his money?’
So he did hear. Oh the shame. If the ground could have opened up and swallowed her… Fortunately, a fine anger comes to her rescue. How dare he? The audacity. Overbearing, arrogant bastard. With all the hauteur she can manage under the circumstances, she grates, ‘That is private if you don’t mind, and if that was all…’
‘It’s not idle curiosity. I’m quite happy to double the sum if it’s what I think it is.’
She stares at him. She understands why someone like Rupert would have to pay, but Blake Law Barrington? He could have anyone he wants. Then it occurs to her that, perhaps, he is just toying with her. Perhaps it is a thing all rich men do.
Her pride comes to the fore. She will not be humiliated twice in one night. ‘Whatever I have offered is for Rupert and only Rupert. Now please get away from that door and the hell away from me.’ Her voice has risen in anger.
His eyes spark. ‘Do you know your eyes are like the blue of struck matches when you are angry.’ Then more softly, ‘Why would anyone, let alone a stunner like you, get involved with someone who, if the most impeccable sources are to be trusted, is an absolute brute? He beat one woman so badly he broke her jaw, and blinded her in one eye.’