Darrick remained silent. The north wind wasn't any colder than the sage's words.
"The city guard is fighting with roving bands of worshippers in the city," Taramis said. "Many of them are protesting the night's events. They say that Cholik and the Prophet Dien-Ap-Sten were slain by Lord Darkulan out of jealousy and that there never was a demon."
"The demon is gone," Darrick said. "Not believing Kabraxis wasn't a demon isn't going to bring him back."
"No, but they want revenge against the city for the guilt and confusion and anger they feel. If Bramwell is lucky, only a few buildings and a few lives will be lost before the guard gets the situation under control."
Darrick reflected on his own dark anger. The emotion was residue from what his father had done to him. He knew that now, but he also knew that residue was indelible and would be with him forever.
"They say," Taramis said, "that when a man faces a demon, that man comes to know himself in ways he was never shown before. You faced Kabraxis, Darrick, more closely than any man I've ever known before."
"You've fought and killed demons," Darrick countered.
Taramis leaned against the roof ledge and crossed his hands over his chest. "I've never followed them into the Burning Hells to do it as you did."
"Would you have?"
"If I'd had to, yes." No trace of hesitation sounded in the sage's voice. "But I have to ask myself why you did."
"I didn't choose that path," Darrick pointed out. "The snake swallowed me."
"The snake swallowed you because Kabraxis thought he could beat you on the Black Road. And he thought he could beat Stormfury. My question to you is, why did the demon think that?"
For a long while, Darrick held the silence between them,but he realized that the sage wasn't going to go anywhere. "Because of the guilt I carry," he finally said.
"Over your friend Mat?"
"And more," Darrick admitted. Then, before he could stop himself, he told the sage the story of his father and of the beatings he'd received in the butcher's shop in Hillsfar. "It took me a long time to figure out that my mother had been unfaithful to my father and that I didn't know who my true father was. I still don't."
"Have you ever wanted to know?"
"Sometimes," Darrick admitted. "But the Light only knows what trouble that would bring if I did find out. I've had trouble enough."
"Kabraxis thought he could weaken you by confronting you with your father's anger."
"He would have done it," Darrick said, "were it not for Mat. Always during those times after the beatings, Mat stood by me. And he stood by me again on the Black Road."
"By helping you through Kabraxis's subterfuge."
"Aye." Darrick gazed at the sage. "But the winning wasn't all mine, you see."
Taramis looked at him.
"I defeated Kabraxis in the Burning Hells," Darrick said, "but I brought a part of it back with me." With a quick move, he thrust Stormfury into one of the nearby garden beds. Such treatment to a weapon was unthinkable because the moisture would make it rust. But he knew the mystical sword would suffer no damage. He left the sword quivering there and held out his hand. "The damned demon tainted me somehow."
Darrick's hand shimmered, then began to change, losing its humanness and twisting into a demonic appendage.
"By the Light," Taramis whispered.
"I destroyed Buyard Cholik and Kabraxis's way into our world," Darrick said, "but I became that way." Long talons jutted from his fingers now covered in hairy, green and black skin.
"When did this happen?"
"While I was on the Black Road," Darrick said. "I'll tell you another thing, too. Kabraxis isn't dead. I don't know if he'll ever have another body that will survive in our world, but he's still alive in the Burning Hells. Every now and again, I can hear him whispering to me, mocking me. He's waiting, you see, for me to give up and die or to lose control of myself by getting drunk or not caring if I live or die." He reached for Hauklin's sword, closed his hand around it, and watched as the hand became human again.
"Hauklin's sword grounds you," Taramis said.
"Aye," Darrick said. "And it keeps me human."
"Kabraxis cursed you."
Darrick sheathed the sword at his side. "Kabraxis's gateway from the Burning Hells no longer lies under the ruins of the city on the Dyre River. His gateway is now me."
"And if you should be killed by another?"
Darrick shook his head. "I don't know. If my body were completely destroyed, maybe Kabraxis wouldn't be able to make his way into this world again." He smiled, but it was cold and devoid of humor, holding only bitterness. "By revealing this to you, I feel as though I've put my life at risk."
Taramis didn't say anything for a time. "There are some who would be tempted to put you to death rather than risk the demon's return."
"And you?"
"Doing such a thing would make me no better than the monsters I hunt," the sage replied. "No, you have nothing to fear from me. But should Kabraxis gain the upper hand within you, I'll hunt you down and kill you."
"Fair enough," Darrick agreed. He knew he could expect no less.
"You will need to keep Hauklin's sword with you," Taramis said. "I'll explain the matter to Ellig Barrows, but chances are that he and his family will be glad to be shut of it."
Darrick nodded.
"What will you do?" Taramis asked. "Where will you go?"
"I don't know."
"You could ride with us."
"We both know my place isn't with you," Darrick replied. "Although it would probably prove easier for you to keep your eye on me."
A wry grin fitted Taramis's face. "True."
"There is something more I received from the demon's death," Darrick said. He strode close to the sage. "You're wounded. Show it to me."
Hesitantly, Taramis pulled his robe away and revealed the deep wound in his side. Someone had clumsily bandaged it, but the blood still seeped through.
Darrick clapped a hand over the sage's side, causing him to wince. Power flowed through Darrick, and for the time it took to work, he heard Kabraxis's whispers more loudly in the back of his mind. He took his hand away. "Check the wound."
In disbelief, Taramis pulled the bandage away and inspected his side. "It's healed."
"Aye," Darrick said. "As are the wounds that I suffered last night. But such healing comes with a price. While I do it, Kabraxis has greater access to me. Only Hauklin's sword keeps me sane and human."
"You've healed me more quickly and better than any healer or potion I've ever used," Taramis said. "You could be a great asset."
"But to whom?" Darrick asked. "And at what cost? Perhaps Kabraxis has given me this power so that I will continue to use it and grow closer and closer to him."
"Then what will you do?"
"I don't know," Darrick answered. "I know I need to get away from here. I need the sea again for a time, Taramis. Something to clear my head. I need to find good, honest work again, a sailor's life, so I won't have so much time to think."
"Believe in the Light," Taramis said. "The Light always shows you the way even in the darkest times."
Hours later, with the sun now in the west out over the ocean and a ship's passage secured, Darrick stood on the Bramwell docks. Taramis and the other demon hunters joined him, agreeing to take at least this much of the voyage together.