‘I’m already supposed to go to New Scotland Yard to have my fingerprints taken.’
‘That sounds interesting. Good for you!’ He reached up to put a hand on Denton’s shoulder. ‘Splash cold water on the eyelids when there is pain or, what is the word — stinging. Also rest once each hour. Also look away from the work at some distant beauty-’ He waved a hand. ‘Maybe a pretty girl. But only at a distance!’ He laughed and headed for the door. ‘Don’t be putting too much strain on that arm. Meanwhile — look at a pretty girl.’
Denton was off at two towards the typewriter’s with more manuscript; then he took the underground to Whitechapel because his eyes were on fire and he thought that if he didn’t get relief, he wouldn’t be able to go on with the book. Far behind him, a fat man in dark clothes seemed to appear, then be replaced by a thin man in brown, then reappear. These were his police minders, he supposed.
He found his way to Newark Street and the Fancy Modern Imperial Spectacles and Eyeglass Emporium, where dour young men in business suits and pince-nez behaved as much as possible like doctors, helping the clientele pick glasses from shallow trays that covered twenty or so long tables.
‘Short-sighted, is it?’ a youth said.
‘For reading.’
‘Fuzzy? Not clear?’
‘That’s it.’
‘No tunnelling? No like looking through the keyhole? No black around the edges?’
He left, the possessor, for one and six, of spectacles with thick rims the motley colours of a cat (‘best artificial tortoise’). He thought he looked comical in them but decided he’d let nobody see them except, perhaps, Atkins. With the glasses in his pocket, he went back to New Scotland Yard, where a man who smelled like a navvy held each of his ten fingers one by one and pushed them into an inked pad as if he meant to break them.
He fell into bed at ten and was asleep almost at once.
CHAPTER SIX
It was raining again the next day as he made his way down the Embankment to meet Janet Striker. A telegram had come from her at noon:
BANDSTAND GARDENS CHARING CROSS BRIDGE 5 PM STOP STRIKER
Not immediately clear, the meeting place had been sorted out with the help of a Baedeker’s, the sense that her knowledge of London was better than his, awareness that she too was a walker; he had wondered if she walked the city at night when she couldn’t sleep or when she had to escape (her mother, her life). Then the connection to streetwalker, her past, although she had told him she had tried the streets only once, too naive to know how or where, and had been pulled towards Mrs Castle’s whorehouse on Westerley Street.
He had set down almost forty pages that day. Work blotted out concern.
He was walking on the river side and crossed over the street when he reached the plaque that celebrated the engineer who had tamed the London sewers and built the Embankment. Ahead, he could see the bandstand, white and a green that was turning black in the gloom, a pointed roof with a flagpole where no flag was flying. An omnibus clopped by in the roadway, water splashing around the horses’ hooves; he saw movement on the bridge, shapes, but little that suggested life, rather some city of shades, that Homeric hell where there is no fire but only the absence of what we take to be human.
He saw her first as a black blot in the shadow of the bandstand. The blot took on a shape, skirted and therefore female, something widening it above — a rain cape. Another hideous black hat. He felt anger at her: she seemed to offer so little for him to have come this far for.
‘You’re here,’ he said. He had come up three wooden steps. Under the white ceiling, no rain fell, but the floor was wet, puddles lying in low places.
‘Of course.’
She was leaning against a white railing; a furled umbrella stuck out at an angle. ‘You’re very wet.’
‘Aren’t you?’
‘I took a cab. It’s a poor place to have picked for a rainy day. I thought we’d walk.’
‘Well-’
‘No. It was raining when I sent the telegram; I knew better. Maybe I thought you wouldn’t come.’
He leaned one shoulder against a post. The bottoms of his trouser legs were drenched. He shook water off his hat and put it back on.
‘Have you been working?’ she said.
‘All day.’
‘Something new?’
He told her about Cieljescu and the novel.
‘What’s it about?’
‘Oh-’ He wanted to hurry things, caught himself. ‘A marriage. A man and a woman.’
‘Are they happy?’
‘Of course not. What sort of novel would that be?’ She didn’t smile. He said, ‘They destroy each other, but they don’t see that that’s what they’re doing. They’re always — undermining — it’s worse than undermining, it’s going to each other’s weaknesses. It’s like a long mutual siege.’
‘What’s it called?’
He chewed his lips. He didn’t like titles, which always sounded stupid to him. ‘It used to be called The Machine. Now it’s The Love Child.’
‘You didn’t say they have a child. More than one?’
‘No, no, no children. It’s a — it’s what they, mmm, nourish in each other. Books always sound so stupid when I talk about them.’ He looked away down the Embankment, chewing his lower lip. ‘What I saw was that when things go bad, it isn’t one of them or the other. It’s both of them. A bad marriage is a conspiracy between two people to destroy themselves. So it’s something they give birth to and then encourage and — nourish. So the husband begins to see — he thinks he sees — a child, a boy. He sees him out a window. Then the boy is older; he sees him again. Then the next time, the boy is nine or ten, there’s something wrong with him, some look, some expression — he seems sly, his eyes too wide apart. And so on. They’re raising a monster child and they don’t know it.’
‘Does she see it?’
‘Oh-’ He tried to smile away his embarrassment. ‘At the end, he thinks she does. She sets fire to herself and he thinks something made her do it. The trouble with talking about a book when you’re working on it is that then you don’t want to work on it. It sounds so foolish!’
She waited several seconds and then said, ‘I’ve been thinking about what you said. And what I said. Like you and your book, I don’t like talking about it.’ She drew a pattern with the tip of her umbrella. ‘I went to see Ruth Castle.’ Ruth Castle was the madam who owned the house on Westerley Street where Janet had once worked. ‘Ruth is a wise woman, a good woman. She’s drinking a lot now, but she has a good head on her shoulders. We talked for ages.’
‘Well?’
She looked up at him. It was the first time really since he’d come up the steps. ‘You frightened me, Denton. You wanted too much all at once.’
‘Six months?’
‘People don’t pick up where they left off after six months.’
‘I’m sorry if I hurried you. But, you know, I didn’t want to pretend. To court you, woo you, all that — degrading stuff.’
She played some more with the umbrella tip. ‘What are we talking about?’ Before he could say anything, she raised the umbrella as if to parry something he was about to do. ‘Don’t use that word. Don’t sentimentalize. I’m not sentimental; neither are you. Neither of us knows what “love” is.’
‘I was going to say — we could get married.’