Ruth turned, startled then touched that her mother included her in the past.
"Yes, I was sorry to hear about your mother. She was a great lady. Very smart."
LuLing tilted her head and seemed to be struggling with sadness. "She was the daughter of a bonesetter."
Mr. Tang nodded. "A very famous doctor."
At the end of the evening, Mr. Tang thanked LuLing elaborately for some delightful hours of remembering the old times. "May I have the honor of visiting you again soon?"
LuLing tittered. She raised her eyebrows and looked at Ruth.
"You're welcome to come anytime," Ruth said.
"Tomorrow!" LuLing blurted. "Come tomorrow."
Ruth stayed up all night to read the pages Mr. Tang had translated. "Truth," the account began. She started to enumerate all the true things she was learning, but soon lost count, as each fact led to more questions. Her mother was really five years older than Ruth had always thought. So that meant she had told Dr. Huey the truth about her age! And the part about not being GaoLing's sister, that was true as well. Yet her mother and GaoLing were sisters, more so than Ruth had ever thought. They had had more reason than most sisters to disavow their relationship, yet they had been fiercely loyal, had remained irrevocably bound to each other by grudges, debt, and love. She was elated to know this.
Parts of her mother's story saddened her. Why did she feel she could never tell Ruth that Precious Auntie was her mother? Did she fear that her own daughter would be ashamed that LuLing was illegitimate? Ruth would have assured her that there was no shame, that it was practically fashionable these days to be born a love child. But then Ruth remembered that as a girl she had been terrified of Precious Auntie. She had resented her presence in their lives, had blamed her for her mother's quirkiness, her feelings of doom. How misunderstood Precious Auntie had been-by both her daughter and her granddaughter. Yet there were moments when Ruth sensed that Precious Auntie had been watching her, that she knew when Ruth was suffering.
Ruth mused over this, lying in her childhood bed. She understood more clearly why her mother had always wanted to find Precious Auntie's bones and bury them in the proper place. She wanted to walk through the End of the World and make amends. She wanted to tell her mother, "I'm sorry and I forgive you, too."
The next day, Ruth telephoned Art to tell him what she had read. "It feels like I've found the magic thread to mend a torn-up quilt. It's wonderful and sad at the same time."
"I'd like to read it. Would you let me?"
"I want you to." Ruth sighed. "She should have told me these things years ago. It would have made such a difference-"
Art interrupted: "There are things I should have said years ago too."
Ruth fell silent, waiting.
"I've been thinking about your mother, and I've also been thinking about us."
Ruth's heart started to race.
"Remember what you said when we first met, about not wanting to have assumptions about love?"
"I didn't say that, you did."
"I did?"
"Absolutely. I remember."
"Funny, I thought you did."
"Ah, you assumed!"
He laughed. "Your mother isn't the only one with memory prob lems. Well, if I said it, then I was wrong, because I do think it's important to have certain assumptions-for one thing, that the person who's with you is there for the long haul, that he'll take care of you and what comes with you, the whole package, mother and everything. For whatever reason-my having said that about assumptions, and your going along with it-well, I guess I thought it was great at the time, that I had love on a free ride. I didn't know what I was going to lose until you moved out."
Art paused. Ruth knew he was waiting for her to respond. In part, she wanted to shout with gratitude that he had said what she had been feeling and could not express. Yet she was scared that he was saying this too late. She felt no joy in hearing his admission. She felt sad.
"I don't know what to say," she finally admitted.
"You don't have to say anything. I just wanted you to know… The other thing is, I really am worried about your taking care of your mother over the long term. I know you want to do this, that it's important, and she needs someone around. But you and I know she's going to get worse. She'll require more and more care, and she can't do it alone, and neither can you. You have your work and a life too, and your mother would be the last person to see you give that up for her sake."
"I can't keep hiring new housekeepers."
"I know… That's why I've been reading up on Alzheimer's, stages of the disease, medical needs, support groups. And I've thought of an idea, a possible solution… an assisted-living residence."
"That's not a solution." Ruth felt as she had when her mother showed her the ten-million-dollar check from the magazine sweepstakes.
"Why not?"
"Because my mother would never go for it. I wouldn't go for it. She'd think I was sending her to the dog pound. She'd threaten to kill herself every single day-"
"I'm not talking about a nursing home and bedpans. This is assisted living. They're the latest concept, the wave of the baby-boomer future, like senior Club Meds-meals, maid service, laundry, transportation, organized outings, exercise, even dancing. And it's supervised, twenty-four hours. It's upscale, not depressing at all. I've already looked at a bunch of residences, and I've found a great one, not far from where your mother lives now-"
"Forget it. Upscale or not, she would never live in a place like that."
"All she has to do is try it."
"I'm telling you, forget it. She won't do it."
"Whoa, whoa. Before you dismiss the idea outright, tell me the specific objections. Let's see if we can move forward from there."
"There's nothing to move forward. But if you must know, for one thing, she'd never leave her own home. And second, there's the cost. I assume these places aren't free, which is what it would have to be for her to even consider it. And if it were free, she'd think it was welfare, so she'd refuse on those grounds."
"All right. I can deal with those factors. What else?"
Ruth took a deep breath. "She'd have to love it. She would have to want to live there as her choice, not yours or mine."
"Done. And she can come stay with you and me anytime she wants."
Ruth noted that he said "you and me." She let down her guard. Art was trying. He was telling her he loved her in the best way he knew possible.
Two days later, LuLing showed Ruth an official-looking notice from the California Department of Public Safety, on letterhead generated from Art's computer.
"Radon leak!" LuLing exclaimed. "What this mean, radon leak?"
"Let me see," Ruth said, and scanned the letter. Art had been very clever. Ruth played along. "Mm. It's a heavy gas, it says, radioactive, dangerous to your lungs. The gas company detected it when they did a routine inspection for earthquake dangers. The leakage isn't from a pipe. It comes from the soil and rocks under the house, and they need to have you move out for three months while they do an environmental assessment and hazard removal via intensive ventilation."
"Ai-ya! How much cost?"
"Hm. Nothing, it says. The city does it for free. Look, they even pay for the place where you stay while they do the ventilation. Three months' free rent… including food. The Mira Mar Manor-'located near your current residence,' it says, 'with amenities typical of a five-star hotel.' That's the highest rating, five stars. They're asking you to go there as soon as possible."
"Free five-star? For two people?"
Ruth pretended to search the fine print. "No. Looks like it's just for one person. I can't go." She sighed, sounding disappointed.