Ruth couldn't keep from gasping over the cost. "Did you know that?" she asked Art. He nodded. She was both shocked at the expense and amazed that Art would be willing to pay that for three months, nearly twelve thousand dollars. She stared at him, openmouthed.
"It's worth it," he whispered.
"That's crazy."
She repeated this later, as he drove her to her mother's.
"You can't think of it the same way you think of rent," Art replied. "It includes food, the apartment, a twenty-four-hour nurse, help with medication, laundry-"
"Right, and a very expensive orchid! I can't let you pay that, not for three months."
"It's worth it," he told her again.
Ruth exhaled heavily. "Listen, I'll pay half, and if it works out, I'll pay you back."
"We already went through this. No halves and there's nothing to pay back. I have some money saved and I want to do this. And I don't mean it as a condition for us getting back together or getting rid of your mother or any of that. It's not a condition for anything. It's not pressure for you to make a decision one way or the other. There are no expectations, no strings attached."
"Well, I appreciate the thought, but-"
"It's more than a thought. It's a gift. You have to learn to take them sometimes, Ruth. You do yourself wrong when you don't."
"What are you talking about?"
"The way you want something from people, some kind of proof of love or loyalty or belief in you. But you expect it won't come. And when it's handed to you, you don't see it. Or you resist, refuse."
"I do not-"
"You're like someone who has cataracts and wants to see, but you refuse to have an operation because you're afraid you'll go blind. You'd rather go blind slowly than take a chance. And then you can't see that the answer is right in front of you."
"That's not true," she protested. Yet she knew there was some validity to what Art was saying. It was not exactly right, but parts of it were as familiar as the tidal wave in her dreams. She turned. "Have you always thought this of me?"
"Not in so many words. I didn't really think about it until these past few months you've been gone. And then I started wondering if what you said about me was true. I realized I am self-centered, that I'm used to thinking about me first. But I also realized that you tend to think about you second. It's as though I had permission from you to be less responsible. I'm not saying it's your fault. But you have to learn to take back, grab it when it's offered. Don't fight it. Don't get all tense thinking it's complicated. Just take it, and if you want to be polite, say thank you."
Ruth was tumbling in her head. She was being swept and tossed, and she was scared. "Thank you," she finally said.
To Ruth's surprise, her mother seemed to have no objection to staying at Mira Mar Manor. Then again, why would she? LuLing thought it was temporary-and free. After she had toured the place, Ruth and Art took her to a nearby deli to have lunch and hear her reactions.
"So many old people have radon leak," she murmured with awe.
"Actually, not all of them are staying there because of radon leaks," Art said. Ruth wondered where this was leading to.
"Oh. Other problem their house?"
"No problem at all. They just like living there."
LuLing snorted. "Why?"
"Well, it's comfortable, convenient. They have plenty of company. In a way, it's like a cruise ship."
LuLing's face broke into a look of disgust. "Cruise ship! GaoLing always want me go cruise ship. You too cheap, she tell me. I not cheap! I poor, I don't have money throw in ocean…"
Ruth felt Art had blown it. Cruise ship. If he had been listening to her mother's complaints these last few years, he'd have known this was precisely the wrong comparison to make.
"Who can afford cruise ship?" her mother groused.
"A lot of people find staying at the Mira Mar cheaper than living at home," Art said.
One of LuLing's eyebrows rose. "How cheap?"
"About a thousand dollars a month."
"T'ousand! Ai-ya! Too much!"
"But that includes housing, food, movies, dancing, utilities, and cable TV. That's thrown in for free."
LuLing did not have cable TV. She often talked about getting it, but changed her mind when she found out how much it cost.
"Chinese channel too?"
"Yep. Several of them. And there are no property taxes."
This also captured LuLing's interest. Her property taxes were in fact low, stabilized by a state law that protected the holdings of the elderly. Nonetheless, each year when LuLing received her tax bill, the sum seemed agonizingly huge to her.
Art went on: "Not all of the units are a thousand a month. Yours is more expensive because it's the number-one unit, the best view, top floor. We're lucky that we got it for free."
"Ah, best unit."
"Number one," Art emphasized. "The smaller units are cheaper… Honey, what did Mr. Patel say they were?"
Ruth was taken by surprise. She pretended to recollect. "I think he said seven hundred fifty."
"That how much I get Social Security!" LuLing said smugly.
And Art added: "Mr. Patel also said people who eat less can get a discount."
"I eat less. Not like American people, always take big helping."
"You'd probably qualify, then. I think you're supposed to weigh less than a hundred and twenty pounds-"
"No, Art," Ruth interrupted. "He said the cutoff was a hundred."
"I only eighty-five."
"Anyway," Art said offhandedly, "someone like you could live in the number-one unit for the same as what you get each month for Social Security. It's like living there for free."
As they continued with lunch, Ruth could see her mother's mind adding up the free cable TV, the big discounts, the best unit-all irresistible concepts.
When LuLing next spoke, she gloated: "Probably GaoLing think I got lots money live this place. Just like cruise ship."
TWO
They were celebrating Auntie Gal's seventy-seventh birthday-her eighty-second if the truth be known, but only she, LuLing, and Ruth knew that.
The Young clan was gathered at GaoLing and Edmund's ranch-style house in Saratoga. Auntie Gal was wearing a silk-flower lei and a hibiscus-patterned muumuu, in keeping with the luau theme of the party. Uncle Edmund had on an aloha shirt printed with ukuleles. They had just returned from their twelfth cruise to the Hawaiian Islands. LuLing, Art, Ruth, and various cousins were sitting poolside in the backyard-or lanai, as Auntie Gal referred to it-where Uncle Edmund had fired up a grill to barbecue enough slabs of spare ribs to give everyone indigestion. The outdoor gas-fueled tiki torches were wafting warmth, making the outdoors seem balmy. The kids weren't fooled. They decided the pool was too cold and improvised a game of soccer on the lawn. Every few minutes they had to use the long-handled net to fish the ball out of the water. "Too much splash," LuLing complained.
When GaoLing went to the kitchen to prepare the last side dishes, Ruth followed. She had been waiting for an opportunity to talk to her aunt privately. "Here's how you make tea eggs," Auntie Gal said, as Ruth shelled the hard-boiled eggs. "Use two big pinches black tea leaves. It must be black, not Japanese green, and not the herbal kind all you kids like to drink for health purposes. Put the leaves in the cheesecloth, tie it tight.
"Now put these cooked eggs in the pot with the tea leaves, a half-cup soy sauce for twenty eggs, and six star anise," GaoLing continued. She sprinkled the mixture with liberal amounts of salt. Her longevity was obviously a tribute to her genetics and not her diet. "Cook for one hour," she said, and set the pot on the stove to simmer. "When you were a little girl, you loved to eat these. Lucky eggs, we called them. That's why your mommy and I made them. All the kids liked them better than anything else. One time, though, you ate five and got very sick. Big mess all over my sofa. After that, you said no eggs, no more eggs. You wouldn't eat them the next year either, not you. But the year after that, eggs were okay again, yum-yum."