Peter laughs. "Don't thank me. Your notebooks interest me."
"You intend to read them?"
"Of course. If you don't want me to read them you should take them to Clara."
Lucas gets up. "Certainly not! Clara reads everything there is to read. But I could give them to Victor."
"In which case I would read them at Victor's. He can't refuse me anything. Anyway, he's leaving soon. He's going back to his hometown to live with his sister. He intends to sell his house and the shop."
Lucas says, "Give me the notebooks back. I'll bury them somewhere in the forest."
"Yes, bury them. Or better still, burn them. It's the only way of preventing people from reading them."
Lucas says, "I have to keep them. For Claus. These notebooks are for Claus. For him alone."
Peter turns on the radio. He fiddles with the dial until he finds some soft music.
"Sit down, Lucas, and tell me, who is Claus?"
"My brother."
"I didn't know you had a brother. You've never mentioned him. Nobody has, not even Victor, and he's known you since childhood."
Lucas says, "My brother has been living on the other side of the border for several years."
"How did he get across the border? It's supposed to be impossible."
"He got across, that's all."
After a silence, Peter asks, "Do you keep in touch with him?"
"What do you mean, keep in touch?"
"What everyone means. Do you write to him? Does he write to you?"
"I write to him every day in the notebooks. Undoubtedly he does the same."
"But don't you get any letters from him?"
"He can't send letters from over there."
"Lots of letters arrive from the other side of the border. Your brother hasn't written since he left? He hasn't given you his address?"
Lucas shakes his head. He gets up again.
"You think he's dead, don't you? Well, Claus isn't dead. He's alive and he will return."
"Yes, Lucas. Your brother will return. As for the notebooks, I could have promised not to read them, but you wouldn't have believed me."
"You're right, I wouldn't have believed you. I knew you wouldn't be able to prevent yourself from reading them. I knew when I came here. So read them. I'd rather it were you than Clara or anyone else."
Peter says, "That's something else I don't understand: your relationship with Clara. She's much older than you."
"Age doesn't matter. I'm her lover. Is that all you wanted to know?"
"No, that's not all. I knew that already. But do you love her?"
Lucas opens the door.
"I don't know the meaning of that word. No one does. I didn't expect that sort of question from you, Peter."
"Nevertheless, you will be asked that sort of question many times in the course of your life. And sometimes you will be obliged to answer it."
"And you, Peter? One day you will also be obliged to answer certain questions. I've been to some of your political meetings. You make speeches, the audience applauds. Do you really believe in what you say?"
"I have to believe it."
"But in your deepest self, what do you think?"
"I don't think. I can't allow myself the luxury. I've lived with fear since I was a child."
Clara is standing in front of the window, looking out into the garden engulfed in darkness. She doesn't turn around when Lucas comes into the room.
She says, "The summer is frightening. It is in the summer that death is closest. Everything dries out, suffocates, comes to a standstill. It's already been four years since they killed Thomas. In August, very early in the morning, at dawn. They hanged him. The disturbing thing is that they start again every year. At dawn, when you go home, I go to the window and I see them. They are starting again, but you can't kill the same person over and over."
Lucas kisses Clara on the neck.
"What's wrong, Clara? What's wrong with you today?"
"Today I received a letter. An official letter. It's there on my desk, you can read it. It exonerates Thomas, proclaims his innocence. I never doubted his innocence. They write: 'Your husband was innocent. We killed him by mistake. We killed many people by mistake, but at present everything is being sorted out. We apologize and promise that such mistakes will not be allowed to happen in the future.' They murder and they exonerate. They apologize, but Thomas is dead! Can they bring him back to life? Can they wipe out that night when my hair went white, when I went mad?
"That summer night I was alone in our apartment, in Thomas's and my apartment. I'd been alone there for several months. Since they had imprisoned Thomas no one wanted to visit me, no one could, no one dared. I was already used to being alone, it wasn't unusual that I was alone. I didn't sleep, but that wasn't unusual either. What was unusual was that I didn't cry that night. The previous evening the radio announced the execution of a number of people for high treason. Among the names I clearly heard Thomas's name. At three o'clock in the morning, the time of the executions, I looked at the clock. I kept looking at it until seven o'clock, then I went to my job in a large library in the capital. I sat at my desk. I was in charge of the reading room. One after the other my colleagues came up. I heard them whisper, 'She's come!' 'Have you seen her hair?' I left the library, I walked around the streets until evening, I got lost, I didn't know which part of town I was in, even though I knew the town well. I came home in a taxi. At three o'clock in the morning I looked out the window, and I saw them: they were hanging Thomas from the front of the building opposite. I screamed. Some neighbors came. An ambulance took me to the hospital. And now they say it was just a mistake. Thomas's murder, my illness, the months in the hospital, my white hair were just a mistake. Well, let them bring me Thomas alive, smiling. The Thomas who took me in his arms, who stroked my hair, who held my face in his warm hands, who kissed me on the eyes, the ears, the mouth."
Lucas takes Clara by the shoulders, he turns her to face him.
"Will you never stop talking to me about Thomas?"
"Never. I'll never stop talking about Thomas. And you? When will you start talking to me about Yasmine?"
Lucas says, "There's nothing to say. Especially since she's no longer here."
Clara punches and scratches Lucas on the face, the neck, the shoulders. She cries, "She's no longer here? Where is she? What have you done with her?"
Lucas drags Clara onto the bed, he lies on top of her.
"Calm down. Yasmine has gone to the big city, that's all."
Clara grips Lucas in her arms.
"They will separate me from you as they separated me from Thomas. They will put you in prison, take you away."
"No, that's all over. Forget Thomas, the prison, and the rope."
At dawn, Lucas gets up.
"I have to go home. The child wakes up early."
"Yasmine left her child here?"
"He's crippled. What would she have done with him in a big city?"
Clara says, "How could she have left him?"
Lucas says, "She wanted to take him. I forbade her."
"Forbade her? By what right? He's her child. He belongs to her."
Clara watches Lucas get dressed. She says, "Yasmine left because you didn't love her."
"I helped her when she was in trouble. I never promised her anything."
"You've never promised me anything either."
Lucas goes home to prepare breakfast for Mathias.
Lucas goes into the bookshop. Victor asks him, "Do you need any paper or pencils, Lucas?"
"No. I'd like to talk to you. Peter said that you wanted to sell your house."