They reach the front of the large textile factory, which is lit up by neon lights. From all sides shivering, shadowy figures hurry in and disappear through the metal gate. Even out here the noise of the machines is deafening.
Lucas asks, "If your husband weren't dead, would you take him back?"
"I don't know. He wouldn't have dared come back to this town in any case. I think he would have gone to the capital to look for Yasmine."
The factory siren goes. Lucas says, "I'll let you go. You'll be late."
The woman raises her pale, youthful face; she has the brilliant, dark eyes of Yasmine.
"Now that I'm on my own, I could maybe, if you like, if you wanted, take the child in."
Lucas screams louder than the factory siren. "Take Mathias? Never! He's mine, mine alone! I forbid you to go near him, watch him, talk to him, or follow him!"
The woman retreats toward the factory gate. "Calm down. Have you gone mad? It was only a suggestion."
Lucas turns on his heels and runs back to the bookshop. He leans against the wall of the house and waits for his heartbeat to slow down.
A young girl enters the bookshop, comes up to Lucas, smiles.
"Don't you recognize me, Lucas?"
"Should I?"
"Agnes."
Lucas tries to think. "I'm sorry, Miss, I don't recall."
"But we're old friends. I once came to your house to listen to music. I suppose I was only six at the time. You wanted to make me a swing."
Lucas says, "I remember. Your Aunt Leonie sent you."
"That's right. She's dead now. This time it's the factory manager who sent me to buy some picture books for the children in the day-care center."
"You work at the factory? You should still be at school."
Agnes blushes. "I'm fifteen. I left school last year. I don't work at the factory, I'm a kindergarten teacher. The children call me Miss."
Lucas laughs. "I called you Miss as well."
She hands Lucas a bill. "Give me some books, and also some paper and pencils for drawing."
Agnes comes by often. She browses at length among the books on the shelves, she sits with the children, she reads and draws with them.
The first time that Mathias sees her he says to Lucas, "She's a very beautiful woman."
"A woman? She's just a kid."
"She's got breasts, she's not a kid anymore."
Lucas looks at Agnes's breasts, enhanced by a red sweater.
"You're right, Mathias, she does have breasts. I hadn't noticed."
"What about her hair? She has lovely hair. Look how it shines in the light."
Lucas looks at Agnes's long blond hair shining in the light.
Mathias continues, "Look at her dark eyelashes."
Lucas says, "It's eyeshadow."
"Her mouth."
"Lipstick. At her age she shouldn't be wearing makeup."
"You're right, Lucas. She'd be beautiful even without makeup."
Lucas laughs. "And at your age you shouldn't be eyeing the girls."
"I don't look at the girls in my class. They're stupid and ugly."
Agnes gets up. She climbs the stepladder to get a book. She is wearing a short skirt that reveals her garter belt and black stockings, which have a run in them. Noticing this, she wets her index finger and tries to stop the run with the saliva. To do this she must bend down, revealing white panties decorated with pink flowers-little girl's panties.
One evening, she stays until closing time. She says to Lucas, "I'll help you tidy up."
Lucas says, "Mathias does the tidying. He's good at it."
Mathias says to Agnes, "If you helped me I'd finish quicker, then I could make you some pancakes with jam, if you like them."
Agnes says, "Everybody likes pancakes with jam."
Lucas goes up to his room. A little while later, Mathias calls him. "It's ready, Lucas."
They eat pancakes with jam in the kitchen, they drink tea. Lucas doesn't speak. Agnes and Mathias laugh a lot. After the meal, Mathias says, "You'll have to walk Agnes home. It's dark outside."
Agnes says, "I can go on my own. I'm not afraid of the dark."
Lucas says, "Come on. I'll walk with you."
When they reach her house, Agnes asks, "Aren't you coming in?"
"No."
"Why not?"
"You're just a child, Agnes."
"No, I'm not a child anymore. I'm a woman. You wouldn't be the first to come into my bedroom. My parents aren't home. They're at work. Even if they were here… I have my own room and I can do what I like."
Lucas says, "Good night, Agnes. I have to go."
Agnes says, "I know where you're going. Down to that alley where the soldiers' girls are."
"That's right. But that's no concern of yours."
The next day, Lucas says to Mathias, "Before you invite someone to eat with us you should ask my opinion."
"Don't you like Agnes? Too bad. She's in love with you. It's obvious. It's because of you that she comes so often."
Lucas says, "You've got a fertile imagination, Mathias."
"Wouldn't you like to marry her?"
"Marry her? What an idea! No, certainly not." "Why not? Are you still waiting for Yasmine? She won't come back."
Lucas says, "I don't want to marry anyone."
It is spring. The back door to the garden is open. Mathias is tending to his plants and his animals. He has a white rabbit, several cats, and the black dog that Joseph gave him. He is looking forward to the birth of some chicks being hatched out by a hen in the chicken coop.
Lucas is watching over the room where the children are bent over their books, absorbed in their reading.
A small boy raises his eyes, smiles at Lucas. He has blond hair, blue eyes. It's the first time he has been here. Lucas can't tear his eyes away from the child. He sits behind the counter, opens a book, and continues watching the unknown child. He feels a sudden, sharp pain in his left hand, which is resting on the book. A pair of compasses is stuck in the back of his hand. Half paralyzed by the intensity of the pain, Lucas turns slowly to Mathias.
"Why did you do that?"
Mathias hisses between his teeth, "I don't want you looking at him!"
"I wasn't looking at anyone."
"Yes you were! Don't lie to me! I saw you looking at him. I don't want you looking at him like that."
Lucas pulls out the compasses. He presses his handkerchief over the wound.
"I'm going upstairs to put some antiseptic on this."
When he comes back down the children have all gone. Mathias has pulled down the metal shutter in front of the door.
"I told them we were closing early today."
Lucas takes Mathias in his arms, carries him to the apartment, and puts him on the bed.
"What's the matter with you, Mathias?"
"Why were you looking at him, the blond boy?"
"He reminded me of someone."
"Someone you loved?"
"Yes. My brother."
"You mustn't love anyone else but me, not even your brother."
Lucas is silent.
Mathias continues, "There's no point in being intelligent. It's better to be beautiful and blond. If you got married, you could have children like him, the blond boy, like your brother. You'd have real children of your own, beautiful and blond, who aren't crippled. I'm not your son. I'm Yasmine's son."
Lucas says, "You are my son. I don't want any other children."
He shows Mathias his bandaged hand. "You hurt me, you know."
The child says, "And you hurt me, only you don't know it."
Lucas says, "I didn't want to hurt you. You must know one thing, Mathias: the only person in the world I care about is you."
The child says, "I don't believe you. Only Yasmine really loved me, and she's dead. I've told you that lots of times."