“You could make money off all this,” said Miqui. “We could commercialize it; there’s no risk, I can tell you that. If you don’t need the money, think about other people for a second.”
Nil didn’t answer, and in that silence the bitch’s wail could be heard through the door.
“More material,” said Miqui.
“That’s my dog. It’s dinnertime, he’s hungry.”
“Why don’t we talk about it, the Internet thing? Why don’t you let me look into it, and we can give it a try? We can do it from a server in India or the ends of the earth. I don’t think it’s illegal, at least not with the fleas and a few fucking beetles, that’d be ridiculous, but it’s got a morbid appeal, I’m sure it would work, people love sick shit.”
“No. I don’t want any problems.”
“What if I buy it off you?”
“You don’t need to buy it. You can do it yourself. I’ll let you have the idea.”
“I’m no artist, Nil,” said Miqui. “I never would have thought that up. Let me look into it this afternoon. Don’t pay me for the trip, man. Let’s get together later. I’ll come pick you up. I have some girlfriends, I’ll introduce you to them, you should unwind a little, you seem worked up, we’ll relax and talk business and you’ll see things differently. I’ll come get you at eleven, OK?”
The bitch on the other side of the door was getting louder and louder. Nil nodded; he’d have a lot to celebrate tonight.
The bitch had been rubbing her snout against the net and had managed to detach some of the packing tape. Even so, Nil stretched out on the sofa and dozed off after lunch. He slept for a couple of hours straight — his dreams squashed deep down inside him — until the bitch woke him up again. When it got dark he would put her down. That was the end of it. He would give the short films to the trucker, and he could do whatever he wanted with them. He would give him the camera and the laptop with the photographs from his second period, and then they would go celebrate with the girls.
The bitch was still and looking intently at the door, exhaling hard through her snout with her ears tensed but not lifted, because of the constraints of the net. Nil went over to look out the window. It was the end of the afternoon, and there was thin fog that would vanish at dusk; it was a prelude that gave way to the thicker fog. He’d learned to watch it as he waited for night to fall, a fake fog that could just as easily have come from the fires of farmers as from steam escaping from the ATO milk processing plant, or from the tanker trucks that constantly came to Vidreres to fill their steel tanks at the plant in the industrial park.
Shit. Someone was coming along the path, and it could only be his father. The shack wasn’t anywhere that people just passed by, it was at the end of the path. He couldn’t pretend he wasn’t there, because his car was parked outside. His father wouldn’t be pleased to find out that he’d taken the dog with him instead of killing it at Can Bou. Nil wouldn’t have an easy time explaining it either. He quickly grabbed the packing tape to wrap up the bitch’s muzzle again. He still had time to drag her into the workshop. But he took another look out the window. The person approaching was Iona, from Can Bou.
Shit. But better Iona than his father. He grabbed his coat, left the shack, and walked quickly over to her. He stopped her far enough away that she wouldn’t hear the bitch.
“I’m looking for a dog,” said Iona, “her name is Seda, she’s been missing all day. I thought maybe you’d seen her, maybe she headed this way, she must be really lost. She’s got a bad limp, we found her injured on the road. .”
“If you got her off the road, she must have gone back to her owners. Dogs do that, it seems like they’ve gotten used to you, but one day they wake up and go back home.”
Iona’s hair was shiny, her skin taut and porous; she had bags under her eyes from crying, but the pupils darted around. Nil thought about the pretty young teachers he’d seen that morning and the trucker’s friends awaiting him that night. Would he eventually get used to this girl? Would he really like her? When spring came, Iona would have to forget about the bitch and about Jaume. He himself will have changed a lot by then, he won’t be like he is now.
“How’s it going, life in the shack?” she said.
“Come some other day and I’ll show you,” Nil said. “I was just leaving.”
But Iona didn’t move. She had to make an effort to say what came next:
“One question, Nil. Why did you show me that video?”
“I made a mistake. You’re right, I shouldn’t have. It wasn’t the right moment. I just wanted to be there for you.”
“Be there for me?”
“I wanted to be there for you in your grief. I’m trying to adapt to being here again, fit in. I don’t know anything about anyone. I’ve been gone a long time.”
Iona took in a deep breath — Nil perfectly heard her take it in — and suddenly took off running toward the shack.
“I just have to see for myself!” she screamed in a cracked voice as she ran. “I can’t leave without checking! I have to check, Nil! I have to see it for myself!”
Shortly afterward, as she walked past him with the bitch in her arms, still tangled in the net—“sick fuck!” and the bitch showing him her teeth, Iona having removed the packing tape, “fucking asshole!”—Nil thought that he could have locked the door but he hadn’t.
He brooded over whether to take his car and go to the butcher shop, or buy nails and smash up a piece of glass, or get some rat poison, or just ask the trucker to do it with his shotgun, on their way back from seeing the girls, in exchange for the videos.
He didn’t have long to think it over. Iona had only just disappeared down the path when he saw another figure approaching, a figure very similar to himself, except for the ear — the last person he wanted to see right then. The gait was identical to his own. Nil walking toward Nil.
His father had his hands in his pockets and planted himself in front of Nil without any greeting.
“I didn’t call so your mother wouldn’t ask questions. I’ve been expecting you to call me with some excuse. But you haven’t said a word all day. And now I see the girl from Can Bou leaving here, crying, carrying a dog trapped in a net. You’d better have a good explanation. Because if this is what I think it is, you really screwed up, Nil. I hope you have an explanation. You had that dog, didn’t you? You didn’t carry it off in a net! And the dog was injured. Do you mind telling me what that girl was doing here, crying and picking up an injured dog at our shack? Can you explain it, or is there no need? You know what’s going to happen, right? They’re going to report us. I’ll say this in case you don’t already understand: it’s over. There’s no way we can get the land now. Did you hear me, Nil?”