“I suppose that wasn’t so smart just now.”
He lifted his shoulders helplessly. “May have been the smartest thing I’ve done in years.”
She chuckled and kissed him. “That was good. Now, don’t say another word about it. You’re sure to find some way to spoil it if you keep talking, and I want to be happy for a while.”
“Very well.” He looked back out the window.
“But talk about something, or I’ll fall asleep.”
“That’s not a bad idea. I can keep watch.”
“No, not yet. Who do you think they are? The men following us.”
“From what you said, they were dressed like Sefry.”
“Yah. I remembered something else. One of them had an eye patch.”
“What?” He took her by the shoulders.
“Aspar! That hurts!”
“An eye patch! Which eye?”
“I don’t know. Aspar, what’s wrong with you? You know him?”
He dropped his hands away. “Maybe. I don’t know.”
“Saints! Aspar, your face—” She stopped. “This has to do with her, doesn’t it?”
“Winna, I need to think.”
“Think, then.” He could hear the hurt in her voice, even through his anger.
“See?” he told her. “No matter what, I’ll find a way to spoil it.”
She got up and went over to the bed, wrapped herself in one of the sheets.
“I understand if you don’t want to talk about her,” she said. “But this man. He tried to kill me, Aspar.”
“Come here,” he said.
She hesitated a moment, then came into his arms.
“Her name was Qerla, my wife,” he said softly. “She was of the Nere clan. We met—well, never mind. We were young, and we thought it didn’t matter.”
“What didn’t matter?”
“That Human and Sefry can’t make children together. That her clan would disown her, withdraw their protection. That we would be alone, just the two of us.”
“It sounds romantic.”
“It was, for a while. After that it was just hard. Harder on her than on me. I never really had a clan, just old mother Jesp. Qerla was the first person I ever really—who was ever mine, in any sense.”
“You loved her.”
“I loved her.”
“And the man with the eye patch. He’s the one who—” She stopped.
“He killed her,” Aspar confirmed. “If it’s the same man. He was an outlaw Sefry, a man named Fend. He was setting a trap for me, but he caught them instead.”
“Them? I thought—”
“An old Sefry lover of hers, a Jasper clan man. A poet. Fend found them in bed and killed them there. And then I found him.” He pursed his lips. “He put a sword through my belly, and I put a dirk in his eye. We both fell, and when I came around he was gone.”
“She betrayed you.”
“I think I must have betrayed her first, somehow,” Aspar said.
“I doubt that,” she whispered. “I doubt it much. Everyone gets weak. She got weak. It doesn’t mean she didn’t love you.” When he didn’t say anything, she took his hand. “You really think the man I saw was Fend?”
“I thought he was dead. But who knows? Maybe.”
In his heart, there was no doubt. If his father’s gods existed, this was just the sort of thing that would amuse them.
They didn’t talk, for a while, and Winna drowsed against him. Looking at her face, he felt briefly guilty. She was so young! When Qerla had been alive, Winna hadn’t even been born.
The guilt passed. In all of the important ways, Winna was older than he was.
One day she might realize that she had no interest in a scarred old holter. Until then he would just count himself lucky, and let it go at that.
And get her through this alive.
And kill Fend, if it was Fend. He couldn’t imagine what the outlaw might have to do with Briar Kings and greffyns. But he would find out, and he would kill him, this time.
He was near drowsing himself when he heard the clatter of hooves on stone. He peered out the window and saw clumps of witchlights moving across the square. He jerked his head back in—for he had witchlights around his own head, of course. He thought he’d done it in time.
“Horses,” he whispered. “They’ve found another way in.”
“Maybe it’s not the same bunch that tried to kill me.”
“Maybe,” he said dubiously.
From below he heard the high, shrill call of a horn, and the witchlights suddenly drifted out of the window, as if answering the call.
“Get dressed,” he told Winna. “Fast.”
5
Brotherhood
The fratrex marched Stephen across the yard and through a small arched doorway. Stephen held his tongue, afraid that anything he might say at this point would simply dig a deeper grave for his self-respect. Instead, he tried to remember what he had heard about Decmanusian penance. What did it involve? Whippings? Confinement?
“Come, come, hurry up!” Fratrex Pell said. “Through here.” He pointed to a very low doorway; the lintel was only as high as Stephen’s waist. “Yes, yes—on your knees.”
Stephen sank down contritely, crawling through the opening, steeling himself for whatever was to come. He said a small prayer and raised his head.
Then he uttered a loud gasp.
“We come to the saints on our knees,” Fratrex Pell said, behind him. “And so we come to knowledge—humbly.”
“It’s wonderful,” Stephen said. Tears stung his eyes. “It’s like a hundred thousand presents, all waiting to be opened.”
“Move through, son, that I may follow.”
Stephen did so, mute with awe.
The scriftorium rose around him, a tower with walls of tomes, scrolls, tablets, parchment cases, maps. Nowhere could he see bare stone; the whole structure might have been held together by the insectile scaffolding of ladders that spindled up from the floor to the next level. There he saw no more than a narrow walkspace that ran around the base of yet another level of shelves and provided a footing for the ladders that climbed up to the third level. Four levels in all, then a dome set with crystal panes, so the sun’s light fell in to illuminate it all.
Tables at ground level overflowed with scrifti, and studious monks remained absorbed in their studies and copywork as Stephen and the fratrex entered. Others worked at tables set precariously on balconies jutting at strange intervals up and down the wall. Ropes and pulleys were working everywhere, as monks lowered and raised baskets of manuscrifts from level to level or sent them hurtling horizontally across the room.
And the smell! Ink and vellum, paper and chalk and melted wax. Stephen realized he was beaming like a fool.
“Here is your punishment,” Fratrex Pell said quietly.
“How do you mean?” Stephen asked. “The sight of this room brings me nothing but joy.”
“Your sin was pride; you think you are knowledgeable, and indeed you are. But when you stand here, you must be reminded of how very much you do not know. Can never know. Be humble, Stephen. You will be a better man, and a better member of this order.”
“Thank you, Reverend Fratrex. I’m so …” He shook his head. “So grateful. And eager! When may I begin? What should I do?”
“Today? Anything you want. Familiarize yourself with the scriftorium. Browse. Tomorrow we’ll see how you are with Vadhiian. We have a pressing obligation to translate those texts; it’s one of the reasons I pushed to have you appointed here.”
“You mean you—”
“Go to it, son. I’ll see you at vespers.”
“Well. You must be the new fellow.”
Stephen glanced up from the text he was hunched over and found a pleasant-faced man with cropped brown hair regarding him.
“Ah—yes, Brother.” He carefully put the scrift aside and stood, finding himself a head shorter than the stranger. “My name is Stephen Darige.”
“Desmond Spendlove.”
“You’re a Virgenyan!”